Title: so long
Date/Time: Tuesday, January 31, 2006 // 9:03 PM

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so anyways, the trip to melaka was awesome! the best. or rather, one of the best. saw my grandparents, aunties and uncles that i have not seen for quite some time. ouh, and i made a new friend. yay. he made the trip a lot more fun because of his funny and lame jokes.

but he was also the one that gave me the sore eyes that i've had for one whole day, almost two actually. grrr. but everything is fine now. haha. he's cute lah.

my aunt's nephew. from her side of the family. so what does that make him? my 2nd cousin? hmm. don't know. but still. i have great respect for him. all the things that he's done, did and still doing. good job. =D

my grandfather followed us back to s'pore. he slept at my house yesterday night. but tonight, he sleeping at my aunt's place.

ouh, and did i mention he is going to change his citizenship to malaysian?
which means that he isn't allowed to visit s'pore for the next 1 year when his citizenship is approved?
which means that i can only visit him at melaka?
which means that it would only when it's the holidays?
which mean i'm gonna miss him terribly? *sobs*
so long grandpapa. =(
don't mind the melodrama.
*giggle giggle*

so today went out with R. well, the usual. then when we were at kfc, saw kak siti. my long time madrasah friend. heh. we used to be pretty close, go home together. blah blah. but as the years pass, we grew apart. sad truth. i know.

well, there are very little friendship that last for a long time. like sai's nick on msn. empheral friendship is forever [not sure how to spell it. heh]. correct me if i'm wrong, but i kinda agree. but of course there are friendships that withstand this 'thing' we call time. and that is what I would call true friendship.
<3 my bitches! =D

ouh, and i dropped his handphone till the screen ter-cabot. whoops! sorry. it was an accident. honest. =X

went home. going to send my brother back to camp. and send something to my aunt's.

woah. what a long post!

SO LONG! =D

Title: *____truth and trust: they come together]]
Date/Time: Friday, January 27, 2006 // 2:06 PM

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The truth is, you can't regain trust.

Don't believe me? Think of a time where someone has betrayed you. Did he or she find a way back into your heart? If you are like the many that I know, the answer would be never. And if your answer is yes, it's either you are extremely forgiving or just plain dumb, naive and gullible.

It's not easy to trust someone. It takes time. It's impossible for you to trust someone after only 2 hours, 2 days, 2 weeks, 2 months. It takes so much longer than that. It's difficult for you to gain someone's trust. But losing it is easy. It may take a split second.

Trust can be gained once and lost once. Once lost, it's lost forever.

Can you tell someone to not trust you? Is that ever possible? Is it? Or is it just a way of you trying to protect me? So that one day when something were to happen, it would not hurt as much as what has happened before? So that I won't hurt as much as you did.

But if you wanted to protect me in the first place, wouldn't you do things that would not make me doubt you? By not lying, telling the truth?
I don't have the answer to that. Only you do.

Truth isn't one way. It takes two to tango, just as it takes two to trust.

Pay attention to how often you tell the truth, how often you make decisions as if other people don't matter, and how often you put the well-being of others ahead of your own. Then ask yourself: Am I someone I would trust?

DON'T EVER LIE TO ME. COS I HATE LIARS. Just shows how uncomfortable you are in your own skin. I feel sorry for you.


= food for thought =

Any relationship is built on trust am I not right?
Just don't take me for granted. Like all other things, I can leave and disappear too. I would hate to, so don't make me.

love you still.

Title: *____not that great a day]]
Date/Time: Thursday, January 12, 2006 // 8:30 PM

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Today hasn't been such a great day.
Just listing it in the simplest way.

1) Went to school myself. It was raining. So my dad couldn't send me on his bike. Actually that is not such a biggy lah.

2) Hanim didn't come to school. BORING!

3) Got down on stop before my actual stop. Had to walk like twice the supposed distance.

4) MODULE: Enterprise. DOUBLE BORING!

5) The class was so cold. BRRR! It was raining 3/4 of the time.

6) Was walking back home and my sandals putus! Just got down of the bus and my toes suddenly had extra space to move.

7) Went to Shaw House, wanted to buy new shoes. But... well you get the picture.

8) Banged onto someone and I think I broke something that meant a lot to that person.

9) Have been risau for quite sometimes. As if something bad might happen. Women's intuition?

10) Feeling sleepy. Didn't get enough sleep yesterday.

Apart from all that, everything was GREAT! =D

Family. Friends. Love ya'll!

Title: *____the games we play]]
Date/Time: Wednesday, January 11, 2006 // 1:43 PM

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HEARTTHROB!

Aren't they the cutest?! Two of my youngest cousins! =D

Today in class was awesome! Played some card games. First played Black Jack, aka 21. Haha. 'HIT ME!' O_o

Then played STRESS! With Sai and Dyl. Seriously very stressful. Kept losing. =( Ok lah. I mean it was my frist time playing. HAHA! Funny stuff. We were like so kecoh. The room was filled with our laughter. Whoops. Our classmates didn't seem to mind, so what the heck. In fact the guys were just as kecoh playing CS. =P

After that played HEART ATTACK. Been so long since I played that. HEHE. Again, so kecoh. More people joined in. Terence said he's never played before. LOL.

No childhood. I didn't say it, he did. Haha!! =P

Wanted the whole class to join, but most were still busy doing MATH, logarithm and exponential! WOAH. De ja vu. Heh.

But then, Roger came back already. Sigh. Have to play it some other time then. 3rd meeting / presentation has already started. Lin's team presenting at this very moment. Whoops! =X

Gtg. Before someone catches me. Hehe.

Toodles! =D

I hate playing mind games. So stop it. Paranoia taking over. =S

Title: *____selamat hari raya haji]]
Date/Time: Tuesday, January 10, 2006 // 10:43 PM

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• 
  Just got back from my grandparents' house, celebrating Hari Raya Haji.
  
  My mom planned for us to go there before Zohor. But because my Dad was not feeling well, we went later.
  
  He was so sick, that he didn't go for Hari Raya prayers. Can you imagine how serious it was?! For my dad to have not gone for Hari Raya prayers? You could only imagine how unwell he was. It was definitely major. He was on the bed the whole time. Semue jadi risau. He was vomiting and all. Haiz. Then my brothers accompanied my Dad to the doctor. So in case he somehow blacked out, there would be two strong men to carry him. Something like that.
  But as Asar prayers was approaching, he got better and was able to sit up. He has definitely felt better, but he's getting there.
  
  So set off to my grandparents house at 1800? Around there. Everyone was already there. One of my aunt, and my baby brother has even gone home. So sad. Miss him so much. =(
  
  Mingled and all.
  
  My baby cousins so cute lah. HAHA. I was happily eating a cake, then Safwah came up to me and said in her tiny little voice. 'Eh. Salam lah.' HAHA. I mean, its so so so ADORABLE. Heh. Wasn't expecting that to come out from her.
  
  Then when we wanted to go up to my cousin's room, the kids would be like asking for our passports. I had mine personally delivered just as I've finished my Maghrib prayers. Mus was like, 'Nah. Kak Nurul nyer passport.' HAHA! Its just a piece of paper saying this. -> 'PASSPORT. KAKAK NURUL'
  
  Some other stuff happened. OH! And my grandma gave me this wire bookmark thingy. Something like the one guides sold during the silver jubilee. Heh. It was nice! =)
  
  YUP. Then at 2130, we left. Hope my dad feels better.
  
  Toodles!

Title:
Date/Time: Sunday, January 08, 2006 // 4:38 PM

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  Getting better. Thanks for your care and concern! You're so sweet. Love ya! Whoops. Did I just say that? =X
  
  Hmmm. Nothing much has happened. Stayed at home. Keep sleeping. It must be the medicine. Make me feel sleepy. Heh.
  
  My Dad actually planned for us to do Subuh prayers at Masjid An-Nahdah, the new mosque at Bishan. He even claimed he would tinggalkan my Mom if she was late. But guess who woke up first and saw them still curled up under the covers? ME! Hmmm. Ya-ya-papaya only. Ape lagi? Kacau arh. Me and my mom kept on teasing him. Hehe.
  
  I mean, hey. It's not everyday I get to tease my Dad for something like this. I HAD to grab this chance. =D Don't mind me. =)
  
  Ok. That's it for now. Gonna go curl back up in bed now. With my selimut and mis-matched socks. Haha.
  
  Toodles. =)

Title: *____Greatness]]
Date/Time: Friday, January 06, 2006 // 8:11 PM

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• 
  How does my new skin look? Nice? Created it myself! =D The picture even. =) From the shattered eye, the caption, the font, the colour to even the circle and arc that you see. Hehe. Ouh, and can you spot the hidden Mickey? LOL.
  
  Actually had it completed yesterday, at 0100. Ok technically its today. But, it feels like yesterday cos I slept after that and had to wake up in the morning to go to school. Heh.
  
  So anyways, today was cognitive. And everyone was expecting it to be boring cos, I mean. HELLO?! Its Leslie's lesson. Need I say more? I've got nothing against him. But he can be pretty boring. But today he was such an ***.
  When my group was presenting, Leslie actually turn and said "Boring arh?" Something like that. Got to know from Grace who got the information from Dyl. Speak for yourself k? Hmmm.
  
  While having class convo, played a little of pictionary. Like with Hanim and Shukri the other time. =D
  
  P _ _
  
  
  dunno what the blue one is. =S
  
  
  nice?
  
  
  -_-'
  
  

Showing no more. Heh.

And had fish head curry for dinner! YUM YUM! Finger licking good. Literally. Heh.

I'm sick. With sore throat, cold, and a little fever. =(

Title: *____dwelling in the past]]
Date/Time: Thursday, January 05, 2006 // 5:08 PM

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*____dwelling in the past]]

• 
  the days you were away,
  my world has been silent.
  
  it's a love - hate relationship we've got.
  but I'd rather call it hard love.
  
  it's bitter - sweet.
  
  i hate you for making me miss you.
  
  keep walking back to the one thing that i need to walk away from

Title: *____twoonesix]]
Date/Time: Tuesday, January 03, 2006 // 1:40 PM

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• 
  Went out with Faridah and Rashidah on Monday. Had a blast. As always.
  
  We were reminiscing. Heh. Miss the days in AMKSS. Haiz. If I could turn back time, I would.
  
  But I also love the things that have happened since AMKSS. Won't trade that for anything either. Hmmm.
  
  At Hyatt. Think i spoilt the pic. =x
  
  
  Me and Freddy. =)
  
  
  Me and Shit. =x I mean Shid.
  
  
  After shopping. =D
  
  
  Me,Freddy,Shid
  

Soles unite. Get the pun? -_-''


HEE!


Was the first day of school. What a drag it's been. Heh. But lucky got Sai in my team. Hee.

So as usual, I would be tompang-ing my dad to school cos his work place is extremely near to my school. Yay. =)

When I get down to the car park, I see my dad pushing his bike round and round the car park. Aiyoh.

I knew what would have to come next. Go to school myself!
It was already 0810 by then. School starts at 0830. OMG! Heh.

Had to rush to school. But before that have to ask money from daddy dearest. =D and tell Hanim I'd be late. How ironic.
I was the one who told her not to be late yesterday. And I'm the one that's late in the end. Nice.

My dad gave me $10 and told me to give back $8.

-_-
The starting charge is $2.40!! Hello?!
Haha. But after MUCH persuasion and discussion, I think I managed to sway his decision. *claps*

Got into the taxi, and guess what? There was a jam. *sigh*
And the fare was $12.80!! And to think my dad wanted me to return him $8. *sobs*

And the moment I stepped into class, I got teased. Hmphx. Grrr! Thanks guys. Heh. =)
Wee Siong and Shawn, stop the teasing. Heh. I promised to be nice already. It works both ways you know. *winks* It was an honest mistake. TYPO! GRRRR!

What a way to start the first day of school huh? =D

Luckily class have not started. If not, down graded! Yay! For not getting downgraded of course. Heh.

Riddle of the day by SAIYIDAH.
QN: Kenape its called SEMBAWANG
ANS: Pasal Bawang dier goes SEM SEM SEM
-_-"
I know just what you're thinking. Don't mind her. =P

Title: *____only words]]
Date/Time: Monday, January 02, 2006 // 9:45 PM

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*____only words]]

• 
  They are only words. But that is all I can ever offer now. Though I mean all I've ever said.
  I think I care. More than I should.
  
  Oh, and I LURRVE this song. =D
  
  Jamie Foxx -> Heaven
  
  
  Tell me have you heard the story
  That took place not long ago
  Bout an angel up in heaven
  They say she up and ran away from home
  
  Word is she had unfinished business
  So back on earth she had to flea
  Well you know I'm so elated
  Because she's laying right here next to me
  
  And when God woke up that morning
  And he called out her name
  And when she did not answer
  Heaven will never ever ever be
  Heaven will never be the same
  [Background Vocal:] Heaven will never be the same [2x]
  
  Always dreamed that it would happen
  I just didn't know exactly where
  All my life I'd been waiting for something amazing
  Said it took a while but now I know
  So tell me can I get a witness
  If you believe in miracles
  And the proof I have is living
  And my life will never ever be
  And your life don't to be the...
  
  At times it seems we take for granted
  How precious life can be
  Just hold on and I'm sure you'll understand it
  Bringing into this world
  A precious miracle...And when I woke up that morning
  Said where has my little angel gone
  And when she didn't an...answer
  Heaven will never ever ever be
  Heaven will never be the....same
  Yeah....Yeah
  
  School starting tmr. Not mentally prepared. Heh.
  

Title: *____special request. hahahah]]
Date/Time: Sunday, January 01, 2006 // 7:02 PM

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• 
  Dunno why I'm doing this. Won't want to let a dear friend down perhaps. LOL.
  
  
  What a retarded face. Heh.
  There you go. HAHA. =)
  So how? Haha.
  
  Can't wait for DIA later! Was so excited that is was gonna start at 2100.
  But my mom came home and broke my heart telling me it's at 2130!!
  
  I can't wait that long! 1/2 hour is like eternity to the power of infinity plus one! *sobs*Heh.
  So long never say that. *giggles*
  
  Toodles.
  Maybe should prepare some porpcorn. -_-''

Title: *____my pride and joy]]
Date/Time: 1:39 AM

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• 
  Went to my grandparents [Nek Mok & Tok Ayah] place yesterday.
  Had such a good time. Missed them so much!
  
  My paternal grandparents [Atok & Nenek] aren't in Singapore. They live 3 1/2 - 4hrs [by road] away from Singapore.
  I miss them even more. =(
  The times I get to see them are usually during the hols. But my Atok comes to Singapore once in awhile cos he's not yet a permanent resident there.
  But will be visiting them during CNY hols. YAY!
  If you're smart, I'm sure you'll know where. =)
  
  So anyways, we were laughing 3/4 of the time. HAHA. All thanks to my mother, and her oh-so-funny jokes.
  I laughed even harder when I hear Nek Mok laugh. So cute! Thinking of her laughter right now makes me wanna giggle. Hehe.
  When she laughs, I laugh. And when I laugh, she laughs. Get the picture? It's a vicious cycle I tell you.
  I ADORE THEM! =D
  
  As per normal, Nek Mok loves to tease Tok Ayah. Her teases only leave smiles and a warm fuzzy feeling in our hearts. But Tok Ayah is super cool. He smiles lovingly at her, as he always does.
  
  Hee. I'd consider myself lucky if I had half of what my grandparents and parents have.
  
  
  
  Nek Mok & Tok Ayah. Couldn't get photo of Atok & Nenek.
  
  Before that, had a little chat with Bibik, the maid helper. I tell you, skarang maids helpers dah maju.
  Serious.
  She was telling me how she wants to buy a new handphone. With functions like, get ready for this,
  
  VIDEO
  CAMERA
  RADIO
  
  Maybe I'm the jakon one. Heh.
  
  Was telling me that she'd love to have those functions so that she can take picture of herself when she is DANGDUT-ing. HAHA. So cute lar.
  
  There is some other stuff that she told me, but I don't think it would be fair for me and to her to disclose them to you. So, I'll just keep it to myself. Hee.
  
  Maybe it's her new years resolution? =x
  Have a good year ya'll! Thanks all for making my 2005 special! =D