Title: all about you?!
Date/Time: Tuesday, February 28, 2006 // 8:59 PM
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it's amazing how you manage to turn and make everything about you;
ALL THE TIME
get over yourself
the world doesn't revolve around you.
you ain't all that.
Title: not as it seems
Date/Time: Monday, February 27, 2006 // 9:31 PM
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nothing is always as it seems.
silence doesn't always mean consent.
power doesn't always mean control.
saying no doesn't always make you the enemy.
sometimes, you have to be unkind to be kind, to help.
just know when to start, and when to stop.
use your wisdom, or the lack of it.
*don't mind the poor grammar.
Title: it
Date/Time: 11:01 AM
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I HATE IT!
he pisses me off.
muker mintak nak kene tampar!
hate hate hate hate
IT!
he starts blabbering as soon as the fac comes. though he doesn't do anything. AAAHHH! and what's with the EERRRR????
like
SHUT UP BITCH! sheesh.
and when he doesn't talk.. ouh wait, he does talk, like all the time. if he's not talking to you, or anyone else, he'll go talking to himself. i mean seriously, ask anyone in class. they will say it's true. not kidding. ouh, he smiles to himself too. freaky, creepy, most of all IRRITATING.
please
SHUT UP ALREADY! gosh.
don't even get me started with his appearance.
- ERR
and stop staring. didn't anyone teach you it's rude to stare?
Title: whatever things
Date/Time: Saturday, February 25, 2006 // 11:21 PM
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went out with mom. bought shoe. hopefully this one wont pecah like the last time(s). then went to grandparents house again. tanter, shafiq, amar, bibik were already there. they came way way before us. amar is so cute! he'll go tapping tapping on my shoulder and SHOUTS, "ELLO!" so darn cute! he'll keep repeating "ELLO!" 3 times every min. SO CUTE!
later in the evening, affein came with apiT. then, apit came with bombay. if you think that apit and apit is the same person, you are wrong. *BOOOO!* apiT is affein's friend, but he is somehow related to our family. erm, my mothers sth sth cousin? don't know lah. what i know is, we are relatives; related by blood, but down the family tree.
but, apit is my cousin. direct cousin. not far away in the family tree kinda thing. you get what i mean right? and bombay is just his friend. i don't even know if that's his real name. =/
had the worst experience in value $ shop at toa payoh. tension. i don't like! yuck. will i go back there again? perhaps not. yuck. lousy service, unfriendly staff. *woah, enterprise module coming in.*
ok, so whatever right. pissed me off in the beginning, but heck, that person sure didn't feel any better right?
me and mom went around toa payoh central in seach for my mom shoe plak. she's actually already bought a shoe. the thing is, one fits perfectly, but the other is longgar. wierd. LOL. so she was jalan-ing in a wierd way just now.
walking, walking suddenly i heard someone calling my name. it was SHAMSIAH!! with her family. and i salam-ed her mom and all that.
suddenly, this girl appeared from no where and said "EH!! kau dah tak kenal aku eh?" it was HURAIZAH!! didn't notice her the first time. whoops. sorry girl. heh.
we were like yak-ing for more than half an hour. never seen them for a long time. actually, saw shamsiah last month. but huraizah, wow! it's been very long. more than 3 years. she is as gorgeous as ever. there were so much things to catch up on. but so little time. while talking, the shops were all closing. =/
my mom and her mom got acquainted instantly. there's just something about mak ciks that can make them click in a heart beat.
woah, its so great and refreshing to meet your old friends. relived the past for more than half hour.
Title: minah's present
Date/Time: 10:32 AM
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last sun, went to shid's house to make minah's birthday present. didn't i update bout this before? hmm. but well, this time, there are pictures. =D
we are all a little short of money, so we decided to collate pictures and all, and make it our own.
see the huge heart smacked in the middle? come on, guess who did it. =D
and shid got us some presents too, for val's day.
but i left mine there. =X
Title: bad teeth
Date/Time: Friday, February 24, 2006 // 8:26 PM
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ppl, please keep your breath smelly free. =D
products that you could use;
the basics, toothbrush and toothpaste. come one. you have to make use of these, AT LEAST.
mouth wash. extra strong; preferably.
floss. waxed ones will take better care of your gums people.
and don't worry, once you've got that ground covered, you can be sure there will be
and don't forget to smile, cause you never know, someone could be falling in love with your smile. unless of course you look this when you smile;
Title: 23 & 24
Date/Time: 6:56 PM
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2302
yesterday was interesting. visited an interesting place, with interesting people.
what's nice:
didn't spend any money. *does the jiggly dance*
brunch was on maslan. =)
and mcd ice cream on adam. =))
weren't we lucky? =D
what's not:
some extra guy we didn't even know, come join us almost EVERYWHERE we went. we don't know what he is talking about
half most of the time.
after all that stuff, went to my granparents house. yay. heehee. i was like laughing away everytime i see my grandma laugh. VERY CUTE! VERY CONTAGIOUS!
2402
today, went out with the class, the usuals of course. except for lin and elliot. =(
we played cat and mouse with adib. LOL.
went to asian civilisation museum.
i loved it. so many things to see. love the ambience! very engaging, but creepy at some parts. =/ i learnt a lot of new things there. heh.
visited the art house for ermm.. some
business.
came across a man most of us believed was a con-man. hmm. i still don't know whether he is one or not. can't tell. he was selling some dvd at raffles place underpass(?). each contributed $1, the rest dyl paid.
p.s.:notice we have no pictures. lin, our camera women wasn't present.
ouh, did i mention shawn was very
cute? he was wearing a very colourful shirt, with bermudas, with sandals, and backpack. you'll just have to see him to believe me when i say he looked damn cute. lol. like small boy sey. heh.
the colourful man.
Title: anger
Date/Time: Wednesday, February 22, 2006 // 8:22 PM
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ANGER!
what is anger?
who experiences anger? who has the right to be angry?
when is it right for us to be angry?
why do we get angry?
where does anger come from?
how should we react when we're angry?
if only i have answers to these questions, life would be so idyllic.
how true, so so true.
"Anger dwells only in the bosom of fools."
"Anyone can become angry. That is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose and in the right way - that is not easy."
"Anger makes dull men witty, but it keeps them poor."
"Anger will never disappear so long as thoughts of resentment are cherished in the mind. Anger will disappear just as soon as thoughts of resentment are forgotten."
"Anger is never without a reason but seldom a good one."
"Whatever is begun in anger ends in shame."
"Anger and intolerance are the enemies of correct understanding."
"A man is measured by the size of things that anger him."
Title: tumit
Date/Time: Tuesday, February 21, 2006 // 11:25 PM
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went out just now.
on the way home, my kasut is putus. this time, it's not the tali. it's the tumit! *the 'heels' if you were wondering* omg! in the middle of J8. can you imagine??? urgh!
hanim, your advice on investing on more expensive shoes does not work man. not for me at least. haiz! so sad. *wipes tears*
so embarrasing. what a way to end the day.
=((((((
Title: another outing
Date/Time: Monday, February 20, 2006 // 10:23 PM
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yet another class outing with the class. there is so much that happened. but i don't think i'll go on narrating about it. so if you want further details, kindly click on
lin's and
dyl's blog. thank you. =))
i'll just post some of the photos that i totally love. =D
the infamous yamakaze of PE0103
the blacks
the whites
the extras
notice elliot's not-so-flattering face(s)
they've got a nice toilet, we couldn't resist.
and they couldn't resist each other. =x
outside the toilet. =D we're missing one aren't we? hmm.
there's a lot more photos, but it takes donkey years to upload all. heh. =P
Title: cheesy lines
Date/Time: Sunday, February 19, 2006 // 10:24 PM
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till i get the photos from dearest lin, i'll occupy myself with something else
here are 2 cheesy lines, guys should never use when picking up girls.
cheesy line 1:
guy sees girl sitting alone.
guy sit next to the girl, with his drink. he takes an ice from his glass and throws it onto the floor. crushes it with his muscular legs and says;
"since we've broken the ice, what next?"
cheesy line 2:
"do you believe in love at first sight? or should i walk by again?"
and girls, if guys use these cheesy lines on you, run like you've never ran before. don't say i didn't warn you. =D
Title: what's the point
Date/Time: Saturday, February 18, 2006 // 12:19 PM
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what's the point of being nice, when you're never appreciated?
what's the point of giving, when you never get anything in return?
what's the point of understanding others, when you're never understood?
what's the point of listening, when you're never heard?
what's the point of growing up, when what YOU'VE become is worst?
what's the point of laughing, when you feel the total opposite inside?
don't mind the cynicism.
what's the point of me putting all this questions up, when i don't have the answer to them all?
what have you been put onto this earth to do?
the answers that you give shows your attitude towards it all.
Title: wanna be free
Date/Time: 11:24 AM
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I WANNA BE FREE
from this.
from you.
from ALL.
leave me alone, so I can think about myself for once.
i need some time on my own.
i want and need solitude.
stop invading my space.
going out with my mom later. whee! mom asked me to call masjid al- mutaqqin for some ceramah program. she was like, i wanna test you, if you can do it. haha. what a joke. heloo, last time in sec sch i had to call so many people lah. just trying to make a point. never underestimate my abilities. that's an insult. heh.
so anyways, i'm really liking the idea. i like to go for this kind of stuff. interesting. =D wanna follow? hehe.
and we are going out today, me and mommy. =D yay. think i've mentioned it for the 2nd time. hmm. i must be really excited. LOL.
tmr going
shid's rash's house with freddy to make minah's present. we're a little late. but we have been really busy with school and all. so weekends are the only time we can meet up. sorry minah. =/
love ya! *hugs*
Title: fun-nest
Date/Time: Thursday, February 16, 2006 // 3:27 PM
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today is by far, the fun-nest day in class. =D
ouh, did i mention shawn can be a stand-up comedian? he's really good at imitating people. it's really funny to see him imitate the people. i'm sure other classes can hear our LOUD laughter. sorry neighbouring class. =/ seriously man, my stomach these days.. woah, no need to say lah. heh. now listening to the whole class going "ERRR". LOL.
HAHAHAHAHAH!
this was post 3rd meeting.
before that, during 2nd breakout, played some old school games in class. namely, pepsi cola 1 2 3, some scissors-paper-stone-with-leg-kinda-thing,the finger thingy, chopsticks and lastly the slap-my-hand-&-i'll-slap-yours. yar, i know, so primary school. but hey, it's fun to re-live your childhood days once in awhile. =D
played with gay rong quan. he hit my hand so hard! pain! VERY sharp. it became VERY red. then the boys played. rong quan and terence. they were sweating. their hands even began to shiver! can you imagine? SO RED. then elliot and terence, elliot's reaction so funny lah. semamat!
and, i've still got the red ink on my hand dyl. thanks arh. haha.
=D
Title: ortega
Date/Time: Wednesday, February 15, 2006 // 9:50 PM
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today, i was laughing so bad, i actually had tears in my eyes. serious. my stomach was aching from all the laughing. it was so funny. went out with dyl and sai after school just now.
dyl: "this is already considered pretty ok." LOL
sai: "if you see the ugliest person around, then you know its ___"
tak leh angkat! kekek giler.
that aside, [well not really lah]
have you seen someone yg mater sepet?
and have you seen someone with big guli eyes?
how about all that on one face?
interesting, no? talk about wonders of the world. so, if you happen to work
for this kind of person, and you do something wrong, you won't need to worry k? cos they are sure to close one eye. get it? LOL.
okok, we
[me, dyl, sai], deeply need to learn how to embrace the differences in other people. no matter how
BIG or
small they may be.
come on people, embrace the diversity that we all possess. no matter how pecah perot-ing it may be. =D
I STILL CANNOT TAKE IT!!!p.s.: no animals were harmed during this blogging experience. or were there? hmmm. nah. =D
Title: 14 feb
Date/Time: Tuesday, February 14, 2006 // 8:07 PM
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Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along
- said gloria gaynor
it's all so familiar.
ouh, i need to publicize this for lin's team. so cool. today's mod was about online identity. and lin's group was doing about blogs. and they presented their final product in a VERY interesting way. SO COOL!i loved it. =D
sai was my valentine today! don't worry we are very straight. =D had great fun. thanks for hearing me out. hanim, you too. really appreciate it loads. you guys rock.
I'M A HAPPY CAMPER! =D
but i think i'm a camper that forgives too easily. =/
p.s.: you should just go fuck yourself. you're really too much.
Title: pink brooch
Date/Time: Monday, February 13, 2006 // 7:17 PM
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i'm sorry i didn't take better care of you.
and now, when i have lost you,
i realise how meaningful you are to me.
the moment i realised that you were gone,
forever,
i was saddened.
i was in distress.
i was everything, but like before.
=(
you left me,
before i was ready to let you go.
i plead you to return.
but i know,
masa tak mungkin kembali
(LOL! tak leh angkat sey)
what i know for sure is,
im gonna miss you;
MY PINK FLOWERED BROOCH!
*sobs*
Title: class
Date/Time: 11:35 AM
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keep finding myself utterly bored in his class. it's a disease he has. he's got boring plastered all over his forehead. whoops. sorry arh. i'm not sure he is a nice guy.
beneath the boring persona he takes on in class, perhaps he goes club dangdut once in a while. and dance the twist and cha cha at home.
imagine...
maybe? should be. it's impossible for someone to be
THAT dull, isn't it?
suppose to be out playing pool after 2nd meeting, but he is still in class. taking about 25 min for every group. woah. i think i'm growing a beard at this corner of the classroom.
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and suddenly i'm not feeling well. feel so sick. lucky i brought tissue. thank god. i get sick in the nose [if there is such a term] every single day. but on and off. and when it comes around, oh boy. so restless, and my mood disappears straight away. =( i'm missing some fun right now. now, there is only 4 people in class. the class so cold! *shivers*
Title:
Date/Time: Saturday, February 11, 2006 // 10:50 PM
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the path you take is yours to choose.
what path will i take?
what will be my choice?
only time will tell.
so, what have i done today? watch movies, movies and more movies. hehe. nothing better to do. and my brother, affein, just came back from his 24hr duty at yishun fire station this morning. affein was telling us about his day and all that. his friend got a call for suicide. and, out of gratitude, the suicider pushed him down the stair. haha! whoops. =X sorry, i just find that funny. the falling the staircase part, not the suicide. but in the end, it was a false alarm. yay. again, not the suicide. the false alarm part. =D
then just now, my other brother (the elderst; just realised i mentioned very little about him), abg mo, asked me to go downstairs to pass his helmet. at first i didn't want to. was around 2300. i mean hello?? what if i got kidnapped?! gosh, i'm very paranoid lately. heh. so after he begged *ehem* me, i finally agreed. i took the keys and i went down. yes, oh yes. i brought keys. THE KEYS. when he specifically told me to bring the HELMET. haha! i know, i know. i'm pekak. the whole world knows that. so anytime you speak to me and i go HUH?, please kindly repeat yourself. thank you! =D
so back to the story i had to go back up again. get abg mo the helmet he asked for. got down, and stayed downstairs for a while, until he finished cruising around bishan. damn. should have brought 2 helmets down. oh, and i sure wasn't going up again. nah uh. no way. not in a million years. heh. so emosi. hmmm.
my parents are still out. got jemputan somewhere. was supposed to follow, but changed my mind. was left a lone at home. that's why i ws so reluctant to go down. heh. =D
Title: sad truth
Date/Time: Friday, February 10, 2006 // 8:07 PM
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well well well,
today has been a better day. been feeling better.
school as per normal. nothing special. BUT, we learnt about genetic modification. and did you know, there are multi colored chicks?? cool right? wanna see?
so amazing. science is extrememly interesting.
so genetic modification aside, i was tv surfing, when i stumbled upon a show on channel news asia. if i'm not wrong, the title is 'MY VOICE: BREAKING THE SILENCE'. it's about these two siblings from a dysfunctional family. their parents were going through a divorce. when the divorce was still proceeding, the mother conviced the children to live with her so that they'll get a home they have never had. food, shelter, tender loving care, and all that a child and teenager wants. and by the end of their little soap opera, it was the mother that got the custody. the children was delighted, thinking their dream would finally come true.
but,
the mother abandoned them. left them. she discarded them like disposable forks and spoons. didn't know such mothers existed. i'm very grateful for my mother. she only used them to buy a flat. like f* right. sheesh. the mother neglected the two siblings [2s] for 5 years. without phone calls, without letters. they grew up without a mother for 5 years. 5 years! and since they had no place to live in, they lived on the streets. and for how many years? 1 whole year, maybe even more.
inevitably, they mixed with bad company. she smoked, she drank, she had sex, got pregnant, aborted. not once, not twice, but more than that. i don't blame them. they didn't get the guidance they needed and should have gotten.
but somehow, i guess fate was on her side. after realising that she had to get her life back on track, she went back to her dad. a true parent would do what her dad did. he welcome her with opened arms. forgave her of her sins. he was all she had now. she was all she's ever had.
showing a little love to someone could change him/her in a lot of ways. life hasn't been kind to the 2s. but your fate won't change if you don't make an effort to change it. they have proven to themselves and others they wanted to change. good for them. they have been through a lot. i'm very sure.
nearing the end of the show, it featured the 2s in a phone conversation with their mother. went something like this.
younger: hello, ibu?
'mother': hello, iyer?
younger: ibu, ni adik. ibu pat mane?
'mother': ibu kat johor.
younger: ouh, ok. ibu, kakak nak ckp dgn ibu.
elder: hello ibu.
'mother': iyer.
elder: ibu, ingat tak yg cerite tu. yg kiter ckp dier nak buat interview.
'mother': ibu tak boleh lah. ibu busy.
elder: boleh lah ibu. eh?
'mother': tak boleh lah. ibu pat johor ni. ibu busy, ibu susah.
elder: alah ibu, sekejap ajer. eh?
'mother': ibu tak boleh lah. sorry eh, prepaid card ibu dah low ni. bye.
elder: hello ibu?
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elder: ibu? ibu?
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elder: ibu?
apparently, the mother hung up the phone. left them hanging. just like before. just like always. the younger sister was weeping. i was at the verge of crying. the elder sister was strong. she couldn't cry, even if she wanted to. she had to be strong for her younger sister. she had to. she was the only female/mother figure the younger sis had.
during the whole show, their identity have been kept private. so i'm guessing they are still teenagers.
there is so much lesson that can be learnt from just this story. so much. i'm grateful i happened to stumble upon the show they named,
MY VOICE: BREAKING THE SILENCE
[fri, 1800.]
Title: secret formula
Date/Time: Thursday, February 09, 2006 // 9:58 PM
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secret formula:
niat + usaha + doa + tawakkal = success
so anyways, today was a long day. enterprise. very long. very draggy.
but,
did anything interesting happen?
most definitely.
am i going to disclose it my blog?
no.
why?
i want to keep it/them to myself. no use telling the whole world. it's not like that's going to help.
how come?
friends are better to confide in. hell, it's none of your business anyway.
gosh, i want my old-self back.
should i or should i not?
at night i ponder. but i know, HE will be there for me. no matter what happens.
Title: tutor
Date/Time: Wednesday, February 08, 2006 // 10:37 PM
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i need tutoring for this.
it's such a blur.
like a child, let's start from ABC.
Title: ass
Date/Time: Tuesday, February 07, 2006 // 9:59 PM
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*____amazing]]
you're such an ass
it's absurd.
it's ridiculous.
it's so ridiculous , i'm actually laughing.
=D
Title: sad truth
Date/Time: Monday, February 06, 2006 // 9:24 PM
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a sad truth.
we know it's going to happen.
but still holding on.
for at this present moment,
we are able to stomach it all.
though i know i have people that love me around,
i can't help but feel lonely.
i need someone.
i need help.
i can't shoulder this alone.
who is willing to cross over the wall i have built?
behind the smiles and laughter,
a sad soul lingers.
and that sad soul is mine.
= need to bring myself closer to HIM =
Title: hero
Date/Time: 2:13 PM
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=(
something is bothering me.
something is bugging me.
wish i could erase it away.
like in primary school, and pencil was what you used.
erasing your mistakes was easy.
it was easier than easy.
it was effortless.
it was painless, unproblematic and uncomplicated.
but i've go to pay for my mistakes.
everyone makes mistakes.
but only a few learn from them.
i hope i'm one of those few.
i just wanna scream.
i wanna let it all out.
cry till my eyes can't shed tears.
till the pain go away.
and whatever that i have been through,
whatever i have done,
i know that you will always be there for me.
cos i know, and i hope you do
that you are
MY BONA FIDE HERO.
=)
Title: parents
Date/Time: Thursday, February 02, 2006 // 8:56 PM
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=D
You raise me up
So I can stand on mountains
You raise me up
To walk on stormy seas
I am strong
When I am on your shoulders
You raise me up
To more than I can be
thanks! =D
love ya'll.
Title: kang kang
Date/Time: Wednesday, February 01, 2006 // 12:02 PM
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*____exempted ourselves from KANG KANG class]]
260106
=D
IN THE BUS
the few of us that went.
AT SUNTECoutside suntec
the topic for that day had something to do about death. so there, death. in the middle of everything.
we were playing cat and mouse with grace. at first it was lin. heh. whoops.
AT CARREFOURwhat were they thinking??
hooligans playing soccer. ouh, and what in the world is shawn trying to do?? LOL. whoops.
see how we flee after being told to stop? heh.
let the music take you over.
we cast shadows upon ourselves.
whose feet is that??
whose finger is that??
ON THE WAY TO ESPLANADEbut we never did actually get there. LOL.
i was up there with wee siong. =( but had to go down for whatever reason. =((
love this.
nice? no?
haha. extra!
k k. so this is how its suppose to look like. so emo. i like! =D
ON THE ESCALATOR
IN THE LIFTwe were asking this lady to take picture for us. we were like 'excuse me miss' a million, no wait make it a gozillian times. but she buat dek jer. haiz. what is becoming of singaporean these days. *shakes head profusely*
ronald, our new best friend. =D
IN THE TRAIN STATIONon the way back to KANG KANG'S CLASS
IN THE TRAIN
good directions are hard to find nowadays.
self explanatory. =X
we should do this more often. =D
