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Date/Time: Saturday, September 30, 2006 // 1:11 PM
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A thought sow an action.
An action sow a habit.
A habit sow a character.
A character sow a destiny.
what thoughts have you got?
and what will your action be? with those thoughts, should you even act on them?
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SMILE
senyuman itu sedekah
it could be a form of happiness, amusement, basically pleasure. =) like that, thats pleasure. hee.
its pretty amazing what a smile can bring to others.
your smile could make them happy.
it could even be hope for others. the smile you throw to someone may mean a lot to them, and you may never know that it does. because, not everyone show their gratitude to you. most probably they do feel that way, but miss to say it out loud, or to you. =)
and smiling, its not so hard to do.
but why is it that sometimes, we dont give much of them?
even newborn babies smile. why cant we smile?
when we are unhappy, the more we should smile. why?
because it can trigger something in your brain that will give out endorphins! happy hormones! what better way to counter unhappiness and being upset with happy hormones? =D
and sometimes, we get so overwhelmed with everything that is going around, coming at us, we forget to stop and appreciate the little things in life.
how it is that we've got shoes. not just one pair but many pairs. when there are others in this world that dont even have legs.
how it is that we've got eyes to see. myopic maybe, but not blind.
how it is that we (females especially) get to go to school and get ourselves an education. when there are others on the other side of the world that are not fortunate enough to do so.
how it is that we've still got parents. when there are others that are orphans, some not knowing who their biological parent are.
how it is that we can still walk on the streets feeling safe. when there are others that are afraid, even to leave their house.
how it is that we are fortunate enough to be able to get access to the internet and go to blogger. when some others are living in darkness, without electricity. some even without a home.
dont these thoughts make you grateful? =) i know its made me realise how fortunate and blessed i am. Alamdulillah.
but at the same time, these thoughts may make us worry, angry, anxious, upset. makes us want to get things right. but then there is just so much someone can do. and the least we could do is making great and full use of what we have, not fogetting to not take things for granted.
huh, taking things for granted. that could be a new entry all together. ;)
till then, if you are still upset, try smiling. endorphins, remember? =)
my emotions can take over me sometimes.
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Date/Time: 1:54 AM
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getting to know nuwul bloggy session. =D
1) Full Name: nurul huda bte...
2) Name Backwards: pora'am etb aduh lurun (ADUH!) HAHA
3) Meaning of names: cahaya pertunjuk, light of guidance
4) Nickname: nuwul, yuyun, nunu, huda, robinhoodqueen of randomness, buta, mysterious woman, self entertainment system, udang, kuda, baby lioness. *its no wonder i love animals. HAHA.
5) Screen Name: = N U W U L =
6) D.O.B: 10 / 06 / 1988
7) Place of Birth: toa payoh hospital
8) Nationality: singaporean
9) Current Location: home
10) Star Sign: gemini
11) Height: 1.55cm
12) Religion: islam =D
13) Weight: no way am i gonna tell you. =P
14) Shoe Size: 5 / 6. it grows and shrinks! heh.
15) Hair colour: black
16) Eye colour: dark dark brown. =P
17) Who do you look like: mama, abang, affein, and kak nadia. HAHA. not so much of abah though, i think. hmmm.
18) Innie or outtie: eh? as in introvert or extrovert? im a shy person. =P
19) Lefty or Righty: righty.
20) Gay, straight, bi or others: very straight. what is others suppose to be anyways? O_o
21) Best Friend: more than one. =D
22) Best Friend you trust the most: something only i, me and myself will know.
23) Favourite Pals: MANY MANY!
24) Best friend of opposite sex: i dont think i have that with any guys.
25) Best Buddies: what's the difference?
26) Boyfriend or Girlfriend: many girlfriends, no boyfriends, but some boy friends. =P
27) Crush: maybe? hah.
28) Parents: misliah and ma'arop
29) Worst enemy: i have no enemies. =D
30) Favourite online guy: uuhh? hmm.
31) Favourite online girl: me? hehe.
32) Craziest Friend: maha.
33) Advice Friend: mama.
34) Loudest Friend: friends count? dyl, freddy, liyana.
35) Person you cry with: myself. why show people that you are crying? hmmm.
36) Any sisters: none.
37) Any Brothers: two smelly ones.
38) Any pets: used to. fishes, hamsters, rats, rabbits.
39) Any diseases: asthma once in a blue moon?
40) Pager: dont have.
41) Personal Phone line: none.
42) Phone: YES. =)
43) Lava Lamps: dont own one.
44) Pool or Hot tub: Pool. can swiiiimmm. darn i miss swimming. =/
45) A car: family car. =))
46) Your personality: quiet unless when enormously excited or awfully bored.
47) Driving: archades.
48) Room: my own. =D
49) What's missing: hmmm. wonder..
50) School: republic polytechnic
51) Bed: one, comfy, and calling for me.
52) Relationship with parents: Alhamdulillah. =))
53) Believe in yourself: at times i do, at times i dont. working on that. =D
54) Believe in love at first sight: nope.
55) Good listener: i try to be.
56) Get along well with parents: yes, Alhamdulillah. hopefully it improves and improves, and continue improving. =D
57) Save e-mail Conversation: email converstations? hmm. yup yup.
59) Believe in reincarnation: no i dont.
60) Make fun of people: my good friends. teehee.
61) Like to talk on the phone: depends on who im talking to and what we are talking about.
62) Want to get married: insya Allah.
63) Like to drive: YES! =b
64) Motion Sickness: YES! especially in cabs. they've got a certain smell. and the sea. =/
65) Eat stem of broccoli: yup, not a picky eater.
66) Eat chicken with fork: hands more shiok. heh.
67) Dream in colour: arh? hahaha. sometimes. hahaha.
68) Type with your fingers on home role: home role aper? =/
69) Sleep with stuff animals: depends on my emotions that night. if its a warm night, i'll just push ALL the stuff animals i've got, onto the floor. whoopsy. =x
70) Next to you: the wall and window grill.
71) On the wall of your room: book racks. with book arh. haha.
72) On your mousepad: now, spongebob squarepants mousepad! =D *who lives in a pineapple under the sea? SPONGEBOBSQUAREPANTS! =D
73) Dream Car: MPV or a jeep. i can travel in the forest, in nature! =D at south africa. hehe.
74) Dream Date: anywhere where there is nature. walk and enjoying the beauty together. superb. super-dee-dooperly superb. =D
75) Dream Honeymoon Spot: south africa, east africa safari. AAAAH! i'll go crazy.
76) Dream Husband or wife: knows what im thinking without me saying anything - through actions, able to guide me to the right path, makes me laugh.. theres more but not gonna type. =P ouh, almost forgot, someone who will laugh and get my joke of the dramamama, mama and papa blah blah blah. HAHAHAHAH. no one gets that joke. not even rashidah. =/
77) Bedtime: getting later and later.
78) Under your bed: stuff. =))
79) Single most important question: is what im doing enough?
80) Bad time of the day: when i am having mood swings. i think i can get pretty ugly. heh.
81) Your worst fear: being left with nothing to hold on to.
82) The weather is: just right for me to get to bed. =D
83) Time: 0150 hours
84) Date: 30 september 2006
85) Best trick did on someone: cant remember. =/
86) Theme song: dont have one currently.
87) Hardest thing about growing: getting wrinkles. hahah, no lah. hardest thing about growing is.. the need to leave some things behind in order to move forward.
88) Funniest Experiences: with my family and friends. the most recent was on wed, with yaya and fiqah. i cried till i teared.
89) Scariest Experience: inter uniform group camp. we were so mentel wanted to go walk walk around the school. walked outside the toilet, and heard a SUPER LOUD bang from the toilet that was believed to be haunted. and when we got infront of the staff room, izwan had 3 red scratches on his hand. one person scream everyone scream. one person run, everyone run. chain reaction. cool-ness. =)
90) Sillest thing that you've ever said: ive said many silly things. its hard to rank them. hehe.
91) Most desperate & funniest thing you have done to get the opposite sex: have i done that? dont think so.
92) Scariest thing you have done with your friend: go see gender confused males. no wait, that wasnt scary. it was very interesting. hahha.
93) Worst feeling: alone, guilt, doubt, worry, disappointed, the 'could have's and the 'should have's. unfortunately, the list goes on.
94) Best feeling in the world: HAPPINESS!! =D
assurances to ladies, are important. they may crumble without them.
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Date/Time: Tuesday, September 26, 2006 // 8:00 PM
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month of ramadhan; the month where syaitan (satan) is locked up in the gates of hell. and where siksaan kubur stops.
so i asked my dad. when we were breaking fast, just for confirmation.
ME: abah, biler ramadhan, syaitan semue di-lock kan?
ABAH: iyer. *nods head while chewing on mee siam.
ME: abeh jin? di-lock jugak?
ABAH: tak lah. dier mcm kiter, puasa jugak.
ME: *never hearing that before, was a little jakon. eh? betol? wah, cool sey. yang kafir pon tak di-lock?
ABAH: iyer.
ME: dier buka jugak?
ABAH: a ah. buka biler maghrib, mcm kiter.
ME: dier buka aper eh?
ABAH: nanti kalau abah jumpe jin, abah tanyer ok.
ME: ok, make sure tanyer kan eh. nanti bilang nuwul.
ABAH: ok, nanti abah jumpe JIN SAMSUDIN abah tanyer.
thanks eh abah. -_-
i love my ABAH! =D
it felt like i was 5.
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Date/Time: 1:30 PM
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from sai's blog.
let's use this as a reminder for us.
especially so when now is the month of ramadhan; the best time to start becoming a better muslim.
insya Allah.
50 Signs of the Day of Judgment From the Words of Allah and His Messenger (sallallahu `alaihi wa sallam)
by Dr. Suhaib Hasan
The Signs are listed in roughly chronological order, although the order is not necessarily precise, especially for those in the future.
This is a brief summary of the signs; there are many books, articles, cassettes etc. which discuss these in greater detail. May Allah enable us to recognise and heed the Signs, and strengthen us in the times of tribulation.
"Are they waiting for anything except the Hour, to come to them suddenly? But its Signs have already come!" (Al-Qur?an, Surah Muhammad)
Past
1. Splitting of the Moon.
2. Death of the Prophet Muhammad, may Allah bless him and grant him peace.
3. A form of death which will kill thousands of Muslims. (Understood to refer to the plague of Amwas during the
caliphate of ?Umar ibn al-Khattab.)
4. A major fighting in Madinah (understood to refer to the battle of al-Harrah during the caliphate of Yazid, 63 AH).
5. The Muslim conquest of Jerusalem.
6. The Muslim conquest of Constantinople.
7. Two large groups of Muslims will fight in war.
8. A war between the Muslims and a reddish people with small eyes, wearing sandals made of hair (understood to refer to
the Mongol Tatar invasion of the Islamic lands.)
9. A peace agreement between the Muslims and non-Muslims from the yellow race (Chinese, Mongols, etc.)
10. Thirty impostors (dajjal) will appear, each thinking he is a prophet.
Present?
11. Naked, destitute, barefoot shepherds will compete in building tall buildings.
12. The slave-woman will give birth to her master or mistress.
13. A trial (fitnah) which will enter every Arab household.
14. Knowledge will be taken away (by the death of people of knowledge), and ignorance will prevail.
15. Wine (intoxicants, alcohol) will be drunk in great quantities.
16. Illegal sexual intercourse will become widespread.
17. Earthquakes will increase.
18. Time will pass more quickly.
19. Tribulations (fitan) will prevail.
20. Bloodshed will increase.
21. A man will pass by the grave of another and wish he was in the latter?s place.
22. Trustworthiness will be lost, i.e. when authority is given to those who do not deserve it.
23. People will gather for prayer, but will be unable to find an imam to lead them.
Future
24. The number of men will decrease, whilst the number of women will increase, until for every man there are 50 women.
25. The Euphrates will reveal a treasure of gold, and many will die fighting over it, each one hoping to be the one who gains
the treasure.
26. The Romans (Europeans) will come to a place called A?maq or Wabiq, and an army of the best people will go forth from Madinah to face them.
27. The Muslim conquest of Rome.
28. The Mahdi (guided one) will appear, and be the Imam of the Muslims.
29. Jesus Christ will descend in Damascus, and pray behind the Mahdi.
30. Jesus will break the cross and kill the swine, i.e. destroy the false christianity.
31. The Antichrist (al-masih al-dajjal, the false christ) will appear, with all his tools of deception, and be an immense trial. He will be followed by 70,000 Jews from Isfahan (present-day Iran).
32. The appearance of Ya?juj and Ma?juj (Gog and Magog), and the associated tribulations.
33. The emergence of the Beast from the Earth, carrying the Staff of Moses and the Seal of Solomon, who will speak to the people, telling them they did not believe with certainty in the Divine Signs.
34. A major war between the Muslims (including Jews and Christians who truly believe in Jesus after his return) led by the Imam Mahdi, and the Jews plus other non-Muslims led by the Antichrist.
35. Jesus will kill the Antichrist at the gate of Ludd (Lod in present-day Israel, site of an airport and a major Israeli military base).
36. A time of great peace and serenity during and after the remaining lifetime of Jesus.
37. Wealth will come so abundant that it will become difficult to find someone to accept charity.
38. Arabia will become a land of gardens and rivers.
39. Society will then decay.
40. The buttocks of the women of the tribe of Daws will again sway in circumambulation (tawaf) around the idol Dhul-Khulsah.
41. A great fire in the Hijaz, seen by the inhabitants of Busra.
42. Three major armies will sink into the earth: one in the east, one in the west, one in Arabia.
43. An Abyssinian leader with thin shins will destroy the Ka?bah.
44. The huge cloud of smoke.
45. The sun will rise from the west (its place of setting).
46. A gentle wind which will take the souls of the believers.
47. There is no-one left on the earth saying, "Allah, Allah" or "There is no god except Allah."
48. Eventually the Day of Judgment is established upon the worst of the people, who copulate like donkeys in public.
49. The blowing in the Trumpet by the Angel Israfil, upon which everyone will faint except as Allah wills.
50. The second blowing in the Trumpet, upon which everyone will be resurrected.
masya Allah.
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Date/Time: Saturday, September 23, 2006 // 5:55 PM
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started post [24/09]
have to go off soon, so i'll try make this snappy. though i think its almost impossible because ive got a lot of things to think about.
i am sorry to all that come to my blog, hoping to read someting new, but cant. because i havent updated. heh.
that aside. i just wanna give a shout out to ALL muslims,
SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN!
and
HAPPY FASTING!
im loving ramdhan. had a GREAT first day of ramadhan. wheeeeee.
=D
Alhamdulillah. and im hoping and praying that this ramadhan would be better than the years before. for all of us. insya Allah. =D
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what been up?
new people, new class, new environment, new modules. new, new, new, but most importantly change. =) its necessary for changes sometimes. you move forward.
W36P. my new class. but some of the people are not so new afterall.
ive got yani (WHEEE), melissa, priya and shawn in this present class. =D
thats a nice touch. hee.
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went out with the KGC a few many days back.
wanted to go to botanical gardens. but somehow ended up at pasir ris. HAHA. somehow, we managed to teleport. rained and rained, we picnic-ed at nbl and cavana instead. =P
but as soon as the rain subside, we walked to the beach.
sai was so gung ho about going to the beach that she made sure she wore the right attire. =)
and i had to wear my specky because i left my lenses at the class chalet. even my specky's box. i thk its at the top of the fridge. bluergh.
lin wasnt feeling well. and if you happened to be around the area, and saw a girl in grey with tissue stuck in her nose, well you'll know who it is.
jamsy acting cute. hehe. =b
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went to lbkm to watch abang receive his bursary. went with mama, him, the gf and sis. =D
window shopping. =D
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out with hanim, after class. class with her and yaya. been a long time we went out. and i miss that woman. haha.
forgot how much we would usually share.
a great time for catch up? when you're eating. =D
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there are things in this world that i wished never existed,
then there are things in this world that i wished would exist.
it sucks to see people not liking or even hating each other.
i hate that.
makes my stomach and head ache. makes me not able to sleep well at night.
knowing that there is so much hate in this world, makes me worry. and when i worry, my chest becomes heavy. like there's one tonne cement on it.
if only i had the power to make everyone love each other.
then again, i know i cannot just butt in and get myself involved in other people's affair.
so here i am, sitting silently, watching everything. wishing i could do something, but know that i shouldnt and couldnt.
caught in between***
went out with shid. she misssed me so much, she INSISTED on meeting me. =D
everytime we meet, we never fail to have the greatest time.
i could be in a room with nothing, just her, and i'll do just fine.
but i dont know if she can. her ear drum may just burst. =P
we almost look normal. =))
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fiqah called me on monday, to ask who won singapore idol.
once i said hardy mirza, she hyperventilated.
she and her sister.
for 5 whole minutes. HAHAHA.
she was screaming, ok wait, they were screaming. almost screeching. HAHA. cuteness.
who's interested at iftar-ing at the mosque every wed? =D***
xpressi-R workshop with liyana.
met this exceptionally wonderful sis. sis nur. super nice, super kind.
she went out of her way to help me check out the different universities that offered a similar course to my diploma.
she msged me twice. =D
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nothing has changed. nothing at all. =) ended post [26/09]
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Date/Time: Thursday, September 21, 2006 // 11:51 PM
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from jamsy whamsy. =D
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 ppl at their tag board to ask them to do this!
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
How are you feeling today?
she will be loved - maroon 5
teehee. everyone who loves me, breath. =D
Will you get far in life?
zapin kesyukuran - hijjaz
where ever life takes me, i will be thankful. =))
How do your friends see you?
that's when i'll stop loving you - nsync
awww. they'll stop loving me when winter comes in summer. which is never! =D
Will you get married?
always - jon bon jovi
LOL! im ALWAYS gonna be married. hehe. err. O_O
What is your best friend's theme song?
izinku berundur - slam
=(( but why?!?!?!?
*sobs sobs
What is the story of your life?
the flower duet - maksim
oooo lala. happy, light, and exciting. im liking that. =D
What was primary school like?
baby, one more time - britney spears
*thinks: how the heck did this song get in here?! HAHAHAHA.
ehem. focus nuwul, focus.
but yes please! let me relive my primary school days! bring me back. pwetty please?
How far can I get ahead in life?
demi cinta ini - febians
for the sake of this love, i'll get far in life?
or i'll get as far as love takes me?
uuuuhhh...?
What is the best thing about me?
rock your body - justin timberlake
i can make you rock your body people. =D
come one, rock it. like a... rocking chair? HAHAHA.. H-A. ouh come on laugh.
i know you want to. =/
ok fine, nvm. hmph.
What is today going to be like?
digital get down - nsync
eh? hmmm. go figure.
What is in store for this weekend?
ooh! la! la! - KRU
exactly my thoughts. OO LALA! =D
What song describes my parent(s)?
all or nothing - o-town
all or nothing? sedih nyer! =/ mcm disowned gitu. =((
To describe my grandparents?
cinta untuk nabilla - melissa
WHO IN THE WORLD IS NABILLA?!?! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!
How is my life going?
shut up! - simple plan
yes! shut up! haha.
so much angst. im a teenager, heloo?
How does the world see me?
manisnya rindu - slam
awww. you miss me? thanks world, i miss you too. hahaha. yeah right.
Will I have a happy life?
this love - maroon 5
oo yeah. love love love love love. =D i'll be happy with love.
What do my friends really think of me?
cant smile without you - barry manilow
gheee. thanks teehee. *blushes
Do people secretly lust after me?
other side - red hot chilli peppers
a huh.. *quizzical.
so do they?
How can I make myself happy?
car wash - christina aguilera and missy
HAHAHAHAHA. i LOVE water. so, no suprise there. =P
What should I do with my life?
i dont wanna be - gavin degraw
ALL RIGHT MAN! superb! =D
why live life trying to be someone you're not?
Will I ever have children?
tentang kita - peter pan
is that a yes? yes! kita, is me and my children. LOL.
im tagging:
hanim
rozi
liyana
yani (my classmate!!) HAHAHA
and errr, who eh?
AISYAH! =D
history may just repeat itself. dont do it.
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Date/Time: Tuesday, September 19, 2006 // 12:53 PM
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if one day, you had a sudden breakdown, and there was only you and one other person.
would you expect that person to tell you that you should be stronger, and can be stronger? because they believe you can achieve that?
cant you see, all i need is encouragement?
OR
would you expect that person to push you further, to tell you that you are weak and should not behave that way?
tell me to stop being this way. i need someone to knock some senses into me.
OR
would you simply expect the person to listen, and see things through your point of view? perhaps not even giving any advice, and just knowing that someone cares enough to listen. that on its own is already good enough.
dont judge me. all i need is someone who can see what im going through, from my point of view.
OR
would you just continue with your breakdown, blocking everything and anything the other person is saying?
let me have my time first, then you can come and talk to me about becoming better. thanks.
think about it.
different people react to different situations differently. and sometimes, its hard to accomodate to another person's need. the only thing you can do is what you think and hope is best for the other person, wishing you could do more. and wanting to do more. but knowing that for now, thats the best you could offer.
trying to let go of the inhibitions.
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Date/Time: Friday, September 15, 2006 // 11:27 PM
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e-mail i got from yaya and rafiqah recently. =))
Read Slowly...
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
- What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
- What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
- What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
- What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
- What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*
People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?
.
.
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Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.
Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and takecomfort in knowing
somebody out there cares about you and ...... always will..
I care about YOU !!
I REALLY DO. =D
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Date/Time: Wednesday, September 13, 2006 // 9:59 PM
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who would have thought a simple phone call could make me so happy and make me grin from ear to ear.
cheer me up so so much that i was screaming.
HAHA.
and that phone call just now was from hanim. she called and i screamed.
me, nuwul screamed. and i mean screamed. teehee.
gosh i missed her, and i missed her real bad.
only she knows how i reacted. err, or maybe some of the family members. =b
hanim, i heart you! =D
to add up to that, i've checked my GPA.
and Alhamdulillah, i've done better than i expected.
but i will reach for the skies, for the stars. so even if i fall, i'll fall onto the roof. =)
insya Allah, i'll do better.
to make that even better, i went to my class chalet. =D got back this morning, and had my fair share of zZzZs. first time being awake for 24 hours.
i even slept while eating. that was my first.
in fact, i had a lot of my firsts then.
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Date/Time: Monday, September 11, 2006 // 10:42 PM
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was bloghopping to one of sai's links, farzanah. pretty confident it's her sis. right sai? hehe.
then i happened to see this clip of a super cute kid. he deserves to be in another blog or two or, well i dont know, err MILLION others! ehem, excuse me. but for now, mine's just fine. =) *blushes.
how much cuter can someone get? AAH!
who wants to assist in kidnapping him? call me.
=D
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Date/Time: 5:57 PM
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started a little bit on my PP. still asking around for those to profile. not an easy job. sourcing, and still sourcing. but at least now, i know what i wanna do on. YAY! =D
i'll start on the proposal as soon as i get the confirmation on the subject.
asked asri quite a lot of questions, since his was already approved. thanks buddy. =)
e mailed mentor. asked when the GPA will be out, and also the module selection. apparently, we'll only know when we receive an email. and i've not been checking my e mail regularly.
bad bad bad me. =/
but i know the results will be out in a few days.
im anxious. very anxious.
pray for me k. =)
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SYMPOSIUM, wednesday.
biopolis, here we come.
one of the girls has/had a crush on him. right. she took millions a few pictures of him. HAHA.
we were discussing, what a perfect guy/girl should have. all agreed that they should have PBL. HAHA.
come on ppl, we are RP students, what do you expect?
PBL - problem based learning personality, brains, looks.
but no one's perfect. so techincally, no one of those attributes exist. but, this person could be perfect for you, but not for another. something like that.
am i making sense? i wonder.
ouh! boys and girls, careful of what you wish for. you may just get it.
HAHAHA *inside joke.
the symposium taught me something i can apply anywhere i go. do what you like, not what others want you to do. since the forum section was on
the only way for you to have the passion continue burning is to do something you really like. a way to keep yourself feeling gung ho. only a few people are lucky enough to have their hobby as their job.
was on the phone with sai. she couldnt find the pe-0103-ers. kesian. heh.
too bad i couldnt go. if not i would have been able to go to the beach. AAAH!
ouh wells, maybe next time.
going through hardships together bring people closer.***
FUTSAL, sunday.
exciting, tiring, confusing, all rolled into one.
but i liked it! there were
real bonding between us. whatever that means.
mama and abah visited. YAY ness. teehee.
should i have?.
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after which i had to rush for mang abu's kenduri.
and there, i got plenty of hugs and kisses.
from two of the cutest people in the world, khalisyah and safwah.
it's amazing how
small people can have such a
GREAT impact on others.
little people rock my world =D
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Date/Time: Wednesday, September 06, 2006 // 11:18 PM
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what do you get when you add nuwul, shid, and freddy together?
well, you get lots of sharing, lots of love, lots of fun. in fact, you get lots of everything.
went back to amkss and saw a few people. probably because we came back on a school holiday. haha. smarty pants. =)
from favourite chemistry teacher (smell me, smell me im chlorine gas) now vice principal, to cikgu, to junior, to mak cik mee soto power. HAHA.
the memories i've had in that school. its a whole lot. having those two by my side, made the experience a whole lot better. i mean A WHOLE LOT BETTER.
flashbacks. =)) these kinda flashback i like. many many! =D
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was doing the photos, just finished the caption, then someone signed in.
nick: MIAO
MAHA!!
my eyes popped, jaws dropped, and i screamed! literally. haha.
it was so amazing. was just thinking about her. greatness. =D
gosh how much i missed her.
she remembered the slightest details. HAHA.
wanted to put more, but err, i accidentally crossed the conversation. =/
freddy - pamela.
shid - selengeh.
me - blind.
and herself - chi ko pek.
for reasons only obvious to us. HAHA.
and dont let me begin with karimah, the minah. in singapore, but never get to meet her. grr that baby kangaroo.
but ouh wells, i know that though many of us have not been meeting for so long, the chemistry will still be there. it has been that was for a long time, even currently. and insya Allah, it would continue.
great-ness.
they see right through me. and i love them for that.then met up with the girls for two consecutive days. simply blissful.
yesterday and today.
today actually had class outing. grr. but had to attend science symposium.
but that's a whole new entry. =P
till then, take care all.
eveything was fine, until..
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Date/Time: Tuesday, September 05, 2006 // 10:23 PM
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affein asked, "why are you so quiet?"
at least someone noticed =)
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Date/Time: Sunday, September 03, 2006 // 6:29 PM
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in my life, in your life, in our lives, people come and people go.
i keep reminding myself that.
and everytime i think about it, i cant help but feel disappointed, feel disheartened.
especially so when the people that leave are those i have and still do consider extra special to me.
have made a great impact in my life. have mattered.
its even more terrible when you can actually see it happening before your eyes.
notice the cracks.
the cracks that would lead to the eventual downfall.
it may not have happened yet. but you reckon it will.
so what do you do?
mend it, try to at least.
and in the course of trying to better the situation, you realise that everything has changed. the dynamics of the relationship. the amount of words you've spoken in a day has changed. the tone of excitement when talking to each other has change. the showing of appreciation to the other person has changed. the things you share and tell each other has changed.
and you cant help but realise how all of the above have decreased. the decrease so significant, you know that you miss it. miss it so bad, that when you realise its no longer there, you begin to tear.
that person's there, but not really there.
you try so so hard to rectify things, make it better.
talk like how you always did, ask how that person is, is there anything bothering them, anything that they'd like to say.
then you realise, maybe, just maybe, they dont want things to be like it used to.
they like it just the way it is, now.
so what do you do?
do you let go, and suffer the loss?
or
do you continue doing what you think is best, though there may be a pontetial feeling of rejection, because you know it's worth saving?
changes are the only thing that's constant - anonymous.
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Date/Time: 6:00 PM
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i was never the kind of person who read emails. books - wordy, its still ok. emails - wordy, no thank you.
unless the subject is super important.
why did i just tell you that?
i have no idea. HAHA.
total randomness
what's happened?
ouh, yes.
I FINALLY GOT THE SANDALS I'VE WANTED FROM CHARLES AND KEITH!
YAY ME!
*grins widely as if advertising for darlie toothpaste.
thanks.
was out with the family.
secret to happiness?
being grateful with ALL that we've got. =)
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Date/Time: Friday, September 01, 2006 // 11:31 AM
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31st august.
yesterday marked the 26th year my parents have been married together.
Alhamdilullah.
and Insya Allah, akan berkekalan hingga akhir hayat. Amin. =D
i would be very much grateful if i had half of what they have.
in relationships, one of the most important things that my parents have always told me, was to have respect for your other half. but more importantly, respect for yourself.
respect is a two way thing, yes? only when you have respect for yourself, will others have respect for you.
though sometimes, some may mistaken respect for fear, for sympathy.
sympathy should come with old age not when you're just starting something, that's what they've always said.
and fear should never have been there in the first place. heh.
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and exactly one year after their marriage, on their wedding date, muhammad muhtar was born. who is this muhammad muhtar you ask? he's none other than that boy, ouh wait, he's a man now, that happens to share the same mom and dad with me. =P
my big brother. =)
the one full of advice.
the one who beat around the bush when i asked him questions on the movie snakes on a plane yesterday.
the one that chases me around the house, so he could get the sheer pleasure of seeing me run around with fear when he attempts to tickle me.
the one that makes sound sound decisions.
the one that has a gf that makes yummy brownies.
the one that turned 25, yesterday.
the one that is reading this, and is smiling alone to himself. =P
the one that after reading this will tag my board. hehe.
semoga dipanjangkan umur, dan dimurahkan rezeki. Insya Allah.
HAPPY 26TH ANNIVERSARY most cherised PARENTS!
HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY precious BROTHER!
ok fine, i'll put a better picture. where his identity is
not hidden. =P
i love them many many many many. =D
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on the 28th the 23rd cousin was born. =))
noor muhammad. Alhamdulillah.
he was
sooo tiny.
he was one day and a few hours old, the time we visited him. he with his two sisters, safwah and khalisyah. =)
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and i found out that mrs ong (form teacher and math teacher in sec sch) is pregnant! AAH!
about to pop in 2 weeks.
YAY! am so gonna visit her. whee.
rashidah and i were screaming. haha. crazy people.
i heart rashidah many many. =D
i was late.
