sorry for the long un-updated blog.

wanted to blog about something, but decided against it. hmmm.
so, for now, i shall entice you guys with yummy food. =)
keeping it hari raya and syawal related. =))

for some reason this year, i feel like im appreciating this ramadhan / syawal more than i have the past year(s).
for some reason, i feel like im going to remember this ramadhan / syawal more than i have the past year(s).
i love syawal. because its during this month that ties are strengthened and people seek forgiveness from others; younger or elder.

almost a week of syawal have passed, and lesser days left for jalan-ing raya. school should seriously stop just so that i we could go jalan raya-ing.
i had to give one house a miss just to make sure that i get my RJ done. how un-cool is that? haha.

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MALAM RAYA - 23rd october.
the family had seafood. and abah made me head chef. haha. i have such a cute dad. =D
had to leave the house for awhile, to meet hanim and a certain someone. heh. so i had the rest of the chefs do the stuff. =P
and when i got home, during buka, they said there was something missing. so he said, 'the next time around, the head chef cannot run away.'
whoopsy daisy. my bad.



that's the crabs that jumped. soon enough, they became food.

malam raya is always emotional. reflections, takbir, more reflections and more takbir-ing. =)
i love takbir-ing! =D my family can bare witness to that. heh.
everyone's always in such high spirit during malam raya. =D

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HARI RAYA - 24 october.


we wore blue. =D
who would have thought this year's hari raya would have been that way. i surely didnt see it coming.
hectic. suprising. i like. heh.
safwah and khalisyah so very cute can?
they went up to affein and me, and whispered in their cute little voices, 'selamat hari raya awak. maaf zahir dan batin.' then they started singing. AAAH! cute lah! grrr.

who loves family gathering? =D i know i do. YAY!
the kecoh-ness from the kids, the kecoh-ness from the adults, and the catching up. catching up is good.

its almost tradition that after seeking for forgiveness, people start taking out their cameras and start snapping family potraits. =)

the cousins. we are missing a 5.


reliving their childhood days. they're missing 2.


i dont know whose idea it was. but it is uber cool. spot the similarities. haha.



pose maut lah babe. HAHAHA.



mix and match

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ignore those people behind us. haha.





making faces, its a gift. just ask hanim. =P
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KAMPONG - 27 october to 29 october.

balik kampong, oh oh oh balik kampong.
ok, doesnt look very nice here. but hum it as you read it ok. try that again eh? =D
balik kampong, oh oh oh balik kampong.
fruitful 3 days. i love the journey to melaka most. just being in the car, with the CDs playing, singing to the songs together, story telling, teasing, enjoying nature's beauty from the comfort of the car.

looking out the window,
watching how the clouds drift by,
watching how the leaves sway when the wind blow,
watching the birds flying high up in the sky,
looking up into the sky and everything seems like it going to be alright, somehow all troubles just disappears.
realising how very small i am, almost insignificant, compared to the great things that surrounds me. that there is a Greater Being, and i am nothing without Him. =) somehow, i like that feeling. =))

and at kampong, we 'rounding' so many houses. hehe. i like. =D no time for shopping. no money go out, got money come in. YAY! teehee.

up, up, up and awaaaaaay.

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MONDAY - 30 october
paternal side, uncle, aunty, cousins, and anak sedaras (nieces and one nephew?), just left home. THEY ARE SO SO SO SO SO ADORABLE. that would be an understatement of the year. that's for sure, confirm plus chop. AAH! adorable times ten to the power of infinity plus one!
we dont have the luxury of meeting them every month or something like that. so today was super nice. we were all playing with the kids. their laughter, their giggles, their smiles. it can really make your heart smile. =) make you warm and fuzzy inside. i think children's got super powers. they are able to shine in everything that they do. its just mind blowing.
with just a grin, they can make your heart flutter, make my heart flutter.
its almost automatic for me to smile when i see them smile.
its almost automatic for me to laugh when i hear them laugh.

they were playing with spongebob. abang made them salam spongebob.
in cute little voice: 'salam tangan'
in cute little voice: 'salam lagi satu tangan'
in cute little voice: 'ok, kaki pulak.'
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! have you any idea how irritatingly adorable that is?

then played passing parcel with all. they were all so ready to do a forfeit when it was someone else's forfeit. but, when it was their turn, they turned all shy. teehee. CUTE LAH!
BUT, there were two that sang for us. yay.
pasal cikcak lah, pasal becak tiga roda lah. AAH! they are so tiny! not what 3, 4?
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!
okay okay, i think i can ramble about them ALL the way.
CUTE-NESS! grrrrr.
and when they were leaving, they kept looking up to look to wave at us. ALL the way. AAAAHH! CUTE! AAAH! hahaha.

and they actually went, 'wah, atok style arh.' HAHAHAHAHA. made me laugh so hard. HAHAHAHAHA. ehem, ok, nvm. AAAH! i cant take it. they are super-dee-dooperly cute. grrr.


let us shine like when we were children.

there's really so many many things to blog about. but for now, this is fine with me. i hope it is with you peeps. =)

[ended post: 04/11]
gosh. one whole week to do one post. *does melodramatic faint. hehe.


i like what im feeling. =)

before the clock strikes 12,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI TO ALL. =D

poly iftar on sat. YAY! with rashidah and ct. =D
RASHIDAH, i HEART you to the very cells in you body! *ouh man, im getting lamer and lamer. must be because of yaya. teehee. thank you for accompany-ing me sweets. =))
love you love you love you love you! =)

so long since i saw ct. and little have changed. haha. =) ouh, maybe for the fact that she is engaged! O_o be suprised. be very surprised.
i literally hyper ventilated when she told me a few weeks back. honest. lucky that time, no haze yet.
after terawih, got a ride home. YAY! =D

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early in the morning at 8 o'clock, i can hear the postman knock me, mama and abah headed to johor. we were one of the 'earlier' birds.
the carpark was super empty i tell you. i could go on and lie down right there smack in the middle and still not get hit by a car, not even honked.

we were going up and down the staircase, trying to find the way out. we were soooo early, the shop grills were not yet opened. so, we had to use the 'fragrant' staircases.

retail therapy, i like. =D

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this raya, our family is going to have seafood. =)
so today, we went to get the seafoodsss. prawns, and live CRABS!
put it in the toilet sink. heh. everytime abah enter there to check up on his baby, he'll go on talking to them. and why he is talking to them? i'll tell you why.
because they keep trying to escape!

he/she/shim got up there on its own. so very strong willed.

even before this picture was taken, there was another one that already managed to get out, and fell onto the floor. but the sad thing is, one of his pincers patah. =( like totally came of. OUCH!
can you imagine? its like, you jumped from 4th story to escape, and then, your hand / leg broke. not just like broke, it totally came off! OUCHHH! =(( poor thing. =(
but its amazing, the perseverence its got. we should learn from them.
im even stupefied by a crab. -__- fine, go on and tell me to get a life. haha.

and everytime abah go check up on them, he'll make noise.
mama said, "macam nak berperang pat dalam situ."
so kecoh i tell you!

family, you can be sure they'll be there for you. through thick and thin.

masya Allah.
dont we just love nature? =D

credits to google image search. ;)

to all my friends, this is dedicated to you. =)

you know i can't smile without you,
i can't smile without you,
i can't laugh
and i can't sing,
i'm findin' it hard to do anything.

you see, i feel sad when you're sad,
i feel glad when you're glad,
if you only knew what i'm going through,
i just can't smile without you.

you came along just like a song
and brightened my day,
who'd've believe that you were part of a dream
now it all seems light years away.

and now you know i can't smile without you,
i can't smile without you,
i can't laugh and i can't sing,
i'm finding it hard to do anything.

you see, i feel sad when you're sad,
i feel glad when you're glad,
if you only knew what i'm going through,
i just can't smile.

now some people say happiness takes so very long to find.
well i'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me.

and you see,
i can't smile without you,
i can't smile without you,
i can't laugh
and i can't sing,
i'm findin' it hard to do anything.

you see, i feel sad when you're sad,
i feel glad when you're glad,
if you only knew what I'm going through,
i just can't smile without you

- cant smile without you, barry manilow.

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being happy is such a blessing. =) Alhamdulillah, it's not yet been pulled away. and since it has not been, i'll milk it all. to the very last drop. ;)

ramadhan is ending. =(
no more sahur-ing, no more terawih-ing, no more iftar-ing, no more bubur-ing. no more yaya-ing.
but then,
syawal is approaching. =)
i have yet to do real raya shopping.
looking forward to jalan raya-ing. =D

its not as easy as i thought it would be.

mr psyfool found my specky! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!
=)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i wanted to scream so bad when i found out. but i had to contain my extreme joy. ok fine, i tried, and i think i did pretty well. HAHAHA.
woohoo!
you have no idea how extremely elated i am, that my beloved specky is back with me. =D
just for that, this post is gonna be a happy post. =D
super-dee-dooperly happy. dont be surprised if you see smiley faces at inapproptiate places in this post. =P
and thing is, yani lost her specky too. she found it yesterday. in the recycling bin. -__- yay us! we both found our speckies back. =D
so many things happened to us together. haha. cool right? =D

=D




i was ready to breakdown if my specky wasnt found. =D
bought it at malaysia, and man, its got sentimental value. =D
mama, abah and me, went all the way, cross the borders just to get that specky done. and if i were to lose it? bad right? BUT I DIDNT! it was only misplaced! =D
WOOHOO!
ALHAMDULILLAH. =)
dont worry specky, i will take better care of you. =)
thank you mr psyfool! =D

yay to today's train ride. =D


now, in the lab. again, cam-whoring session. teehee. am i loving fridays or what? =D
people just got back from breakfast. but mine, yani's, seetea's, hisham's break fast, is a loooooong way to go. =D
have fun looking at us having fun in the lab! =D





seetea trying to disinfect me.


smelly shawn needed to be showered. =P





with behaviour like that, we may never be lab technicians. =P
i sense a great day ahead. =D

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twenty smilies. i must be super happy. HAHA. =D
twenty one. =P
ok, now twenty two. teehee. i shall stop.

ouh my, the urge to put another smiley!
=D
lum de dum

YIC and NOP has passed.
the whole team was great. mosque manager, facis, dakwah, logist, AV crew, job well done. =D
to the admin team, you guys were wonderfully amazing. =)
who cares if only some are reading this, at least the rest of the cyber-ees / cyber-ians are. =P
the pax seemed to enjoy themselves. =D
we managed to snap one photo with the cam-y, but not everyone was in it. sob sob. then again, its better than nothing. =)

super

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went buka-ing with the girls on.. err, i forgot when. i know it was centuries ago. =P
the food was goooooood. ALhamdulillah. whee. i dont even have to mention the laughs. =)

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when seetea asked, "are you a cam-whore?" i knew i was going to love her. HAHAHA. =P
cell culture lab, i loved it. am always hyper during fridays. especially so when im in this team. teehee.

my favourite photo, for obvious reasons. HAHA.

when asking for advice, i would usually go to my parents. because i know for a fact that most parents, if not all, wants the ebst for their children. further more, they are the wisest and nearest people around. =P
in some people's eyes, what you are doing are right. but in others, they are not so right, in fact wrong. dead wrong.
then abah reminded me of the story he used to tell me when i was younger. about the man, his son, their donkey and the village people. if im not mistaken, his name was luqman hakim.

both luqman hakim and his son were walking, while pulling their donkey. the village people said, "they are so dumb. not making full use of the donkey that they have".

the next day, luqman hakim got onto the donkey, while his son pulled the donkey. the villagers said, "how could he let his son pull the donkey while he go on and sit comfortably there?"

so the next day, his son was on the donkey, while he pulled their donkey. again, the village people had something to say. "that boy is so rude. let his old man pull him, pull him."

and the next day, luqman was still with his son and donkey. however, this time, they were both on their donkey. and you guess it, the villagers were still had something to say. "they are so cruel. how can they do that to that poor donkey?"

what did i learn from this story? never get a donkey, get a horse. you'll travel so so fast, the village people cant even see who's on horse.
HAHAHA. k k, lets get down to business. =P

from this story, i learnt that in whatever we do, its impossible for us to get the green light from everyone. there are bound to be those that disagree with the way we do the things we do. as long as we know what we are doing is right, and for the right reasons, then stand for it, with conviction.
and as muslims, whats most important is that, whatever we are doing does not go against the teachings of Islam. insya Allah, everything else will go well.
"berlandaskan agama", said my abah and mama. =)

try push the negative comments that we get, and surround ourselves with those that genuinely care for us, care for our well being. our family, our friends. =)
however, we should also thank these people, and be grateful for their presence in our life. a huh, thats right. because these people keeps us grounded, and reminds us.
thus, lets reflect on what they say. who knows, there may be some truth to that. in most cases, there must be. why would they have said it in the first place? =)

berdoa dan berharap lah kamu dengan penuh harapan, sesungguhnya Allah maha mendengar =)

am i packed?

things coming my way:
1) immunology test this fri.
2) lab this fri (hopefully no lab report to be done).
3) YIC on 14th.
4) sas roadshow on 16th.
5) sas roadshow on 17th.
7) 3 strategically placed tests next week.
8) stuff to rectify.
9) hari raya shopping.
10) make kuih.
11) prepare house for hari raya.
12) other stuff that are non-discloseable. if there is even such a word. haha.
13) find a subject (that would agree) for PP.

you be the judge. =)

by God's will, i'll be doing all that. YAY!

Alhamdulillah, im still alive and kicking. =D

i've been told before, when doing something in His course, there are bound to be tests and obstacles.
masya Allah. =))

all will be well, insya Allah.

my face is being invaded by the most evil pimples in the whole wide world.
they are beginning to colonise on my face.
=(
i think i'm going to have to make them sign a peace treaty with me and the facial foam.

wish me luck. =)


thus, the negotiations begin

'once bitten, twice shy'.
that phrase has been coming to me a lot these few days. =)
then i remembered an entry i wrote awhile ago. and i think it deserves another 'publishing'.


Nothing is worst than haunting from the past. Even more so, when you WANT to forget the past, and thought you already did. Finally stopping the denial and realizing that you never did. In fact, never wanted to. Hoping. Just hoping, that it was all but just a bad dream.

And somehow, you just cant help but turn back. Turn back. To see what it was that you missed so much. To see what it was that you were missing. To see what it was that you did wrong. To see what you wished you could change. Change it all, just so that it would stop. Stop. Just stop.

But you know that all is done. And there is no turning back. Turning back would just cause you more pain. Nothing you ever do will make it right again. All have crumbled. All have shattered. All you can ever do now is just scrutinize. Scrutinize from afar. Scrutinize helplessly.

But. . .

But. . .

But what if history is repeating itself? The past returns. Would you walk the same path? The path you hoped all this while would have remained? The path you have been longing for so long? The path that have faded, but now un-fades?

Would I?

Settling it all. Tomorrow.

even after that, the phrase 'once bitten, twice shy' still rings in my head.

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had a fun day today! yay-ness. with theall my sisters. =)
people probably thinking, since when nuwul got sisters sey. =P
an-nahdhah official opening.
tiring, exciting, chaotic, running here and there. being busy with something to do is soooo fun.
had such a great laugh eating with them, especially at the tangga tangga.
one of my highlights. =)

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that aside, sometimes i ask myself, why do people react the way they do. what drives those actions?
its worrying, especially so when the reactions are far from positive.
my parents has always reminded me to mind my manners, and your manners is a reflection of yourself.
and at times, manners take top priority.
was reading a book, and it said that our Prophet Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. never took his hands away from that he was shaking, until that person retrieved them before him.
the book also mentioned that the Prophet never faced the other way from whom he was talking to, until they looked away.

whose a better role model if not the Prophet himself? =))


*YAYA, WO AI NI! =D

there is never the perfect moment.
.
.
.
when it comes to seeing people fight, or quarrel, i hate it. feel like running the other way.
but sometimes, its fun to get into a little debate with someone. sometimes.
.
.
.
i dont get why and how some can express their LOVE to another, just by knowing them for a few days. giving them all the jiwang messages. scary. i know someone who will agree with me. hahaha. ehem, excuse me. =P

its weird. its unacceptable. its nonesense. its above all, A LIE.
a lie they tell themselves, for a reason i will never understand. it makes no sense! no sense at ALL. sheesh.
maybe they like the way it feels.
then 'twelfth knight' by shakespeare crossed my mind. where we discuss about being in love with the feeling of being in love.
watch too much hindustan maybe.
and i think, these people are experiencing that. totally delusional.
their love can change quickly, like the sea. one moment calm, one moment stormy. (??) help me out here freddy. haha.
but you get what i mean? their feelings so inconsistant, so unstable. so reactive? (haha. science kicking in.)


then there are those who are in denial of their feelings. again, for a reason i will never understand.
well, maybe i do. ive got a theory for this.
they are still hesitant about it. they live their life being uncertain about so many things. then when something like this come, the ask themselves, 'what makes me think that this is something i am certain of?'
so they wait, and wait. for? for things to be certain. so while they wait, they dismiss everything that they think they are feeling.
but being hesitant has its rewards. go figure what. =D
is my english making sense?
if yes, good.
if no, the better. =P


then there are those that think the other party likes them, when they actually dont. then i remembered what was said by taufiq awhile ago.
we girls were saying how guys can be totally thick skin sometimes.
then he said, 'of course, we've got to be sometimes. girls are shy. so if we also shy, then sampai tua pon sey. i like you lah, but i shy to say. sampai biler nak kahwin'. HAHAHA. its the way it was said, and the situation that made it hilarious. haha.
a perspective i never saw.

same, all the same.

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enough about that. heh.
i went out to break fast with LINSY AND SAI-YEE-DAH! =D at the new banquet at woodlands.


sad that jamsy and dyl couldnt make it though. =/
at first i had reservations on going there. because of the rumours that it wasnt halal and all that.
but thankfully, my 2 super heroines went all the way to muis to demand for the halal cert they've been meaning to issue. so when i reached there, the halal sign was up, framed even. =P
am i lucky or am i lucky? =D

anyways, we made ourselves problem statements for that night.
PROBLEM 1: why is yawning so contagious?
to be solved by sai.
PROBLEM 2: why people get full so easily after fasting?
to be solved by me.
PROBLEM 3: err. what's problem 3 eh? i forgot. =/
to be solved by lin, whatever the problem may be. hehe. =x

i never really did any PBL-ing for problem 2. apart from the scientific proves, or what not, i believe, that is the hikmah for those who fast. =) lose weight. eat in moderation. ALhamdulillah. but it seems to me that i am gaining weight. am i? yar, i think so. =/
OR!
it could be because, our stomach is already filled with air. so yeah.
OR!
since we havent eaten the whole day, our stomach has somehow shrinked.
could it be? possibly. =D
ouh, as for the yawning, let's let sai do the explanation. =P tell them my theory!

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BEHOLD!

from lin's blog:
Nuwul: Eh is it Wasabi or Wasabehhhh?

(insert roars of laughter here)

Me: I think it's Wasabi.

Sai: You sure? Not Wasabehhhhh?

Me: Err, I guess so. Wasabehhh sounds wrong, no?

Nuwul: So it's Wasabi, not Wasabehhh?

(insert another bouts of laughter here)

seriously, how do you pronounce it? haahha. there's two spelling for it. one wasabi, another wasabehhhh. ok well, maybe not wasabehhhh. just wasabe. =P
but really, why spell with an 'e', when they just want us to pronounce it like an 'i'. sheesh. make life harder for people like me. =/

then the next day, jam was obsessed about beans. hahaha. we found out that it makes us, errr pooooot-ish.. i learnt from nickelodeon and jamsy from the webby. she researched on it. RESEARCH. hehe. i told you she was obsessed. =P wonder if she blogged about it. hhaah.

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when you get 2 very bored people together, you get an adventure to the unknown. that's what me and hanim did at least. to our 1 sem old school, ventured our school cool place, so big. hee.

into the unknown

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the haze in getting from bad to good to bad to worse to bad. and as i take a peek out the window tonight, the sky seems red and foggy. no wait, it is red and foggy. heh.
i keep coughing, once in awhile asthma kicks in. mama advice me to stay indoors, and i think i'll do just that. =)

when will the monsoon season come?

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class today was GRREEEAAATTT! loved my team. everyone was very happy and hyper. almost reaching cloud nine, maybe 7 or 8. haha.
all the lame and random things just spurt out.
i dont know why, but everytime i say 'lam da dam', shawn will go roaring with laughter. -___- hahaha.
i look at him, he look at me, we laugh.
look at siti, we laugh.
point is, we LAUGHED at almost everything. haha.
be ok, be very ok. =)

you know you're late when TODAY has finished =/


that's long enough for now. =P
im sleep deprived, and i shall go sleep. long day tmr.
toodles everyone. have a great night. in this case, morning. =)


buka-ing dates with so many people. remind me to make time. =)