If we could light up every street with our cellular phones, then maybe we can save ourselves or maybe we won't. But it doesn't even matter if we got no plan, as long as you're holding on to somebody's hand.
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And only try to save myself
i expect to pass through this world but once.
any good, therefore, that i can do
or any kindness i can show to any fellow creature,
let me do it now.
let me not defer or neglect it
for I shall not pass this way again.
-- stephen grellet
From falling in love
Learning the best way to navigate through life while stepping on the least number of toes.
"Anybody who takes himself too seriously always runs the risk of looking ridiculous; anyone who can consistently laugh at himself does not." --Vaclav Havel.
So go ahead and chuckle a little.
Afraid to walk the streets alone
love means to commit oneself without guarantee,
to give oneself completely in the hope that
your love will produce love in the loved person.
love is an act of faith,
and whoever is of little faith is also of little love.
-- erich fromm
Waiting for something
falling in love with someone
isn't always going to be easy.
anger, tears, laughter..
it's when you want to be together despite it all.
that's when you truly love another.
i'm sure of it.
-- author unknown
ok, here's the thing. apparently my face looks pissed, upset and scary for the pass few days. according to yani and liy. HAHA. iyer ker? hmmmm. especially when im doing my fyp. must be the fyp. like what sai say, we're probably infected by effwhypeetitis.
note to self: thy shall be less mean and evil. hehe.
look at this face.
how is it humanly possible to say that adorable *cough face *cough looks as though it hates everyone. muahahaha. *evil laughter. mcm real ajer.
ok, enough about that. heh. saturday, bowling was fun! we are pros i tell you. HAHAHA. masok longkang lah, bola kebelakang lah. fuh, who can top that? :P
a superb yummylicous pastry kedai we came across. it sold this mixed fruit danish. masya Allah.
sodaaaaap!
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night safari was great! i miss animals. we went to the giraffes' enclosure. whee. the scenery was breathtaking. :DD we went to burma, india and africa in just two tramp rides. mcm gini, around the world in 80 days is chicken feet. XP
the show for night safari is niceee. it was better back then in sec4 camp though. i really thought i was in a dream. the lighting was awesome. ish! and they actually changed some parts of the show. :) please observe the difference between the pose. both siblings. one fight, one lovey dovey. hmmmmm.
omg, the orientation of all the photos are everywhere. i shall do it properly for the next post. :))
i wish i was in a better mood to blog. but then im not. i blame the hormones.
what if i told you it's something deeper?0 comment(s)
27 Jun 07, 16:44 l i y a n a*: ahh poke ur cheeks lebih2, nanti it wld b deeper.. i m serious.. *stern face* haha. yar, maybe i should do that. :))
27 Jun 07, 07:43 hanim: ooo new blog skin.. ooo aaahh oooo aaah! :D sai helped me with it.
26 Jun 07, 21:10 seetea: i reallie like ur spongybob!! i like it toooo! :DDD
26 Jun 07, 15:37 LIN: sai, i haven't betray blogger ok. i still keep my account. i am a loyal sexy customer ok. nuwul, don't listen to her. bluekk but it's infidelity. having two! how can lin how can?! :P
25 Jun 07, 23:48 hanim: UPDATE! UPDATE! gi maner ah? update! :D
25 Jun 07, 07:57 Sai: nuwul, it seeems that it's just the two of us who haven't betray blogger and jump onto other blog bandwagons. =/ yar sey. they have mooooooooved.
23 Jun 07, 01:33 kala: helllllllllllo konichiwa! :D
23 Jun 07, 00:50 Radionooks: Check it out! :))
22 Jun 07, 13:41 hanim: house of boredom! sch of virus! errm, house of the dead. school of rock. :P
21 Jun 07, 21:22 hanim: false alarm.. my mama tak jadi but my sister will be gg acupunture.. eheh! ...
21 Jun 07, 20:35 l i y a n a*: ehk! farnie la korang! n i tink ur brother is juz like u.... hahaha.... i tink i hav said dat before.. but AGAIN, u people are the same.. HAHA.. HAHA. must be my brother copy me.
21 Jun 07, 19:08 Oniisan: ooohhh...someone helping you say that you are nice eh? Sejak biler? I think it was nice way back in 1987 i think...Muahhahaha..."kagai gishou" eleh. like real only you. i know you were jumping with joy when i came into your life. *smug face.
21 Jun 07, 16:19 seetea: it seems lik big brothers ar all the same..it makes em happy to bully us..hmm..we ar nice sisters 2 let em 2 do so..:D tell me about it! i think they've got a secret union. there's like an unwritten rule somewhere. hmph. and us being nice, it goes without saying huh? ;)0 comment(s)
every once in a while, something happens to remind us of how inadequate we truly are. may sound ironic, but i'm glad these things happen. sometimes. keeps us humble.
was going through abang's friendster and found this. a testi i gave abang last ramadhan.
after reading this, i bet you will regret not joining us in breaking fast for mee siam on tuesday. month of ramadhan; the month where syaitan (satan) is locked up in the gates of hell. and where siksaan kubur stops. so i asked abah. when we were breaking fast, just for confirmation.
im suppose to be doing my fyp report, pp report, do log book, study for genomics (AAAH!), watch hikmah. but here i am writing a post. it's been quite long since ive had this urge to blog about something else apart from the happenings (or the lack of it :P) in my peaceful life (praises be to God).
setting aside time for this doesnt hurt right? let's call it getting away for a bit, shall we?
have you ever felt that your every move is under scrutiny? it makes you feel so suffocated.
'why are you doing this?' 'you should have done this this this.' 'you shouldn't have done this this this.' 'didnt you say that this this this?' 'have you done this?' have you done that?' 'when are you gonna get that done?' 'you must stop this this this.' 'are you doing this because this this this?' 'make sure you do this this this.'
like someone is breathing down your neck. have you ever had that feeling? doesnt help does it? makes you feel more tensed.
but whatever right? we should ALWAYS look at the bright side of things. at least we know who to avoid. HAHAHA. kidding.
being totally objective and in no way biased (ehem), at least we know that they care enough about us to not care about what our reaction to their words are. the hard facts has got to be delivered; whether you like it or not.
we may not be able to take it on the spot, but eventually, it will be possible to swallow. no matter how bitter it may be, if our heart is opened to the truth, we will see it in a better light. a light where we know something good will come out of it. and before we actually get to the stage of swallowing the bitter truth, we continue to be in denial.
we are in denial more often than we think. being honest with ourselves can be tough sometimes. i guess many a time, it's a lot easier to admit to something when we're talking to someone we can trust. someone whom we know will not judge us of the actions we've done, of the things we have said. then there are some who prefer to talk about it to someone who's a total stranger. someone we know have no significant impact in our life. because, even if we tell them and they know, it's not like it would matter to them, or to us. there is no immediate effect to anything, at all. it's almost like talking to your pet or potted plants. whoopsy, sounds kinda mean.
ok, am i beating around the bush? hmmmm. i wonder.
...
have you been disappointed? have you been the cause disappointment? i've always been told to keep my faith strong. to never loose sight of the bigger picture, the end goal, the greater plan that is yet to happen. and i've always been told to never have high hopes of someone, something. be optimistic, but at the same time realistic. all you can really depend on at the end of the day is yourself and the Creator.
it made me realise that i never want to be the one that causes the disappointment. seeing someone in trouble and not being able to do anything about it makes me feel helpless. =( let alone if i was the one that caused the trouble. can you imagine?! waaaah, cannot sleep at night sey.
5 things found in bag: wallet handphone ZA book body shop perfume
5 things found in wallet: notes receipts pictures money. YAY! heh. ez link
5 favourite things in your room: mr twinkle, teddy and spiky. mirror. bed. books. carpet. =))
5 things you have always wanted to do: work with animals. go trekking in the jungle. keep a dog for a pet. =)) take up a self defence class. dari dulu sey, tak terjadi jadi. -___- pamper myself by going to a spa.
5 things you're currently into: peptic ulcer. chocolate. when am i not? XD becoming a bbetter, and nicer human being. japanese. shoes
5 people that you tag: the best friends. my girls. the princessys. KCG. NADY sisters.
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this week has been a good week for me. =)) it's like i had b'day celebrations stretched in a week. Alhamdulillah. YAY, best nyer. abang jealous. haha.
last sat, out with the best friends to kallang stadium to watch the presidents' challenge. politics vs media. final score, 5-3. like what shid said, 'now we know why our mps are in the office, and not on the soccer pitch.' haha.
friday was the last day of attachment! im actually gonna miss spending my time there. believe it or not. o_O the night ended nicely. =))
saturday after soccer, a surprise bday celebration by NADY. XD i really thought they forgot about me. haha. that's why i was so surprised. heh. rushed rushed, and in the afternoon went out with hanim. we went to so many places. ive got my own sugar mummy yo. ;P we should do it AGAIN!
im grumpy and unfriendly when im deprived of sleep. i need to blow off some steam. jogging sounds good. hmmmmmmmmm. i think i look like im ready to beat someone up every morning, and every afternoon. LOL. like how hanim would put it, muker gangster. -__-
today was fun. attachmentgreat. =)) ilikeattachment. it's only the first day and... WOOHOO!
tmr, gotta wake up early. attachment starts at 8am. AAAAH! im excited. WHOOP-TEE-DOO! =D
make it last
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had wonderful birthday celebration(s)! =D thank you for the wishes. the smses, the msges, the testimonials, the phone calls, the tags. not forgetting the presents yes? from friends, family, mothers of friends even. hehe.
I'm Gonna Make A Change, For Once In My Life It's Gonna Feel Real Good, Gonna Make A Difference Gonna Make It Right . . .
As I, Turn Up The Collar On My Favourite Winter Coat This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind I See The Kids In The Street, With Not Enough To Eat Who Am I, To Be Blind? Pretending Not To See Their Needs A Summer's Disregard, A Broken Bottle Top And A One Man's Soul They Follow Each Other On The Wind Ya' Know 'Cause They Got Nowhere To Go That's Why I Want You To Know
I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways And No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place (If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place) Take A Look At Yourself, And Then Make A Change (Take A Look At Yourself, And Then Make A Change) (Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na, Na Nah)
I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish Kind Of Love It's Time That I Realize That There Are Some With No Home, Not A Nickel To Loan Could It Be Really Me, Pretending That They're Not Alone?
A Willow Deeply Scarred, Somebody's Broken Heart And A Washed-Out Dream (Washed-Out Dream) They Follow The Pattern Of The Wind, Ya' See Cause They Got No Place To Be That's Why I'm Starting With Me (Starting With Me!)
I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror (Ooh!) I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways (Ooh!) And No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place (If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place) Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make A Change (Take A Look At Yourself And Then Make A Change)
breakfast with a longtimenomeet friend. pancakes, yumms. rush of fyp stuff stuff. surprise CHOCOLATE b'day cake from the girls. double yumms. =)) and i was, err, lum dee dum. X)
fyp on a wednesday as usual. this time, library@esplanade. after doing serious fyp business, we headed to the rooftop. it was supeeer hot i tell you. scotching HOT! typically, they wanted to take pictures. haha.
most of the pictures, yani wasnt in it. she was walking here, there, walking walking eveyrwhere. but i didnt quite notice, because liy was extra hyper. jumping here, there and everywhere.
then came two girls with an unlit (hehe, cuteness) CHOCOLATE bday cake. AAAHHHHH! i shrieked when i saw eliza and seetea! =D =D =D no wonder yani was all over. heh. YAY! so sweet of them to have come to celebrate my early surprise bday celebration with me. so nice so nice! *grins. so glad they came. whoop-tee-doo!
me feeling super touched. =))
seetea and eliza, before the surpise. look at eliza's cheeky smile. HAHA.
off they went to australia and japan. =)) take care ladies.
liy, "now she'll look like some karang guni going home." kwang kwang kwang. i love liyana!
seetea! it's been awhile, huh? and azzah, i know you're not reading this! lol.
thank you my lovelies for the wonderful day i had. fun FUN FUN! hee.
two weeks of holiday in singapore = zero weeks of holiday in singapore. maha, who's in tulsa felt my pain. lol.
fyp is making me have less time at home. fyp is eating up the time i spend with my mommy. hmph. fyp is making my face more tebal. fyp is making me handle rejection better. fyp is making me handle difficult people better. fyp is teaching me patience. fyp is teaching me perseverance. fyp is increasing my stamina. *siapa nak challenge lari? fyp makes me wanna sleep earlier than 12am. fyp made me realise that supervisors are not always dependable.
from now till 21st of july, i will breathe fyp, eat fyp, talk fyp, sleep fyp.
