If we could light up every street with our cellular phones, then maybe we can save ourselves or maybe we won't. But it doesn't even matter if we got no plan, as long as you're holding on to somebody's hand.
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And only try to save myself
i expect to pass through this world but once.
any good, therefore, that i can do
or any kindness i can show to any fellow creature,
let me do it now.
let me not defer or neglect it
for I shall not pass this way again.
-- stephen grellet
From falling in love
Learning the best way to navigate through life while stepping on the least number of toes.
"Anybody who takes himself too seriously always runs the risk of looking ridiculous; anyone who can consistently laugh at himself does not." --Vaclav Havel.
So go ahead and chuckle a little.
Afraid to walk the streets alone
love means to commit oneself without guarantee,
to give oneself completely in the hope that
your love will produce love in the loved person.
love is an act of faith,
and whoever is of little faith is also of little love.
-- erich fromm
Waiting for something
falling in love with someone
isn't always going to be easy.
anger, tears, laughter..
it's when you want to be together despite it all.
that's when you truly love another.
i'm sure of it.
-- author unknown
i had a niceeeee (for the lack of a better word) time with the ladies yesterday. sad that water particle couldnt make it though. :(
ANNIVERSARY! 28/8/06 and 28/8/07! *smug face.
hairspray left me feeling so hyped up. it took a lot of effort to not tap my feet when they where singing and dancing. i wanted to be in there and do the twist with them. that thought crossed my mind more than thrice. -___- hah.
me love these ladies. more more more!
and bowling was great. we were minney mouses (??) and ermmm badang. eclispe couldnt be seen because of the clouds. and i was anticipating it since...... a lot of weeks ago. boohoohoo.
anyways, 14 more days to Ramadhan. :D tuition later. hmm, what i cant wait for is going home after tuition. nyeheh.
life is sweet, sweets are sweeter. but you're the sweetest. :)
and someone is using my long lost dp. the one i lost due to reformatting. LOOK!
SEE. i told you! and since im on the home pc, im using msn 7.0 i feel so.. erm.. retro-fied. haha. whatever sey nuwul.
ouh! having the updated windows live for my hotmail gives me more motivation to check my 723 mails.
im taking a break from PP (that started only 30min ago, and im already taking a break). HAHA. dang! i get distracted so easily.
it's time to update about the semi-fireworks before it get REALLY basi and i break my promise. breaking promises, that's a no no. *shakes head profusely.
ju-y would always say, janji melayu ke janji islam? aiyerrr, i miss her.
anyways, back to the story. semi-fireworks was spent with liy, yani and big zul. i had a good time laughing. perot sampai sakit, muker sampai cramp. we were laughing at banquet, we were laughing in the train, we were laughing at the platform of the train, we were laughing while walking, we were laughing while sitting. ermm, i think you get the idea ald. bottom line, we were laughing - long and hard. i swear.
i left the place in agony okay. i wanted to see the darn fireworks! okok, it's been 2943414523123865 days already, and i should probably just get over it. but, GAHH! okok, like i said, pre-fireworks was awesome, so it wasn't all a waste. ;D fun, fun, fun. :D
my lappy is still possessed. so here's a photo yani editted. :) look at the fireworks, so pretty :') ok nuwul, let it go already. you went on saturday didnt you? *starts beaming again. hee.
on a totally random note, hanim got PATRICK's soft toy! *starts hyperventilating.
I WANTTT! anyone.... please?
pretty please?
what you'll get in return you ask?
hmmm. my unconditional love ok with you? *bats eyelashes.
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Title: Date/Time: Saturday, August 25, 2007 // 2:09 PM
I HAVE 6 PAGES OF PP REPORT COMPLETED! (including the coverpage of course. main tipu sey. :P) despite having a possessed lappy that goes TEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET. let's hope my gung-ho-ness will continue to be here until PP is completed. :D
and what it does is put everything to perspective; all over again. :)
death is certain, and life is temporary. and this whole concept seem to fit very well right about now. with all that is happening around me. even the book im reading. subhanAllah. :)
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Title: Date/Time: Sunday, August 19, 2007 // 9:53 PM
remember that particular night, when the skies were colourful and bright? didn't you love the company, more than you did the bunga api? - nuwul.
i know i did. :DD
takpe lah eh, mix malay and english? :P
we were the blacks. literally. bouncing and all. HAHA.
. . . . .
a day before saturday, on friday; semi-fireworks. LOL. i was there, but left an hour before the fireworks. which is as good as not going actually. HAHA.
but it was for a belly good reason. no wait, make that a great reason. atok got better, Alhamdulillah, and he was leaving for melaka the next day. so yeah, had to miss out on the fun. yani said there were heart shaped fireworks. and i missed it. BOOOO. i am sooo jealous. especially since there werent any on saturday. replaced with flowers. bunga raya kan? hmmm.
im such a sore didnt-get-to-see-fireworks-woman on friday. yes, im a woman. ROAAR! but pre-fireworks was fun, so it wasnt all a waste.
ouh wells. more updates on friday once i get the photos from camera-carrying-people. that's a promise i will not break. :)
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and today, the siblings were locked and chained at the back seat of the car, when we were on the way to jb. with seatbelts.
friend: nuwul! GOOOOOOOOO! later i become lamp post! nuwul: nevermind lah. you just go if i cant. friend: GO GO GO! later i become lamp post! nuwul: it's at night right? friend: ermm, yar. nuwul: then the better. they will need a lamp post.
after a long meaningful conversation with my smelly brother;
nuwul: i like talking to you. affein: why? nuwul: i dont know. i just do. affein: i like talking to you too. just make sure the next time you talk to me, you get yourself a face mask. nuwul: HEY! -_____________________-
we have this thing about teasing each other of how smelly the other is. and i wonder where it comes from. hmmmm.
at pasir ris:
nuwul: im sorry i cant finish you. *looks forlornly at mee goreng. freddy: could you say sorry to my mee also? rashidah: *looks at nuwul weirdly. nuwul: mee, freddy says sorry. *whispers. but she doesnt mean it. freddy: hey, come on, look at my mee. nuwul: yar! do you know that there are so many people in south africa that dont have anything to eat?! i wish i could go to south africa and do some humanitarian work or something.. but there are like.. ARGH! rashidah: ouh no. she's having one of her episodes. freddy: maybe you could bring the mee to africa. by the time you reach there dah basi pon. rashidah&nuwul: HAHAHAHAHA. basket!
***
im so glad we made liy's day. yay. blindfolds, confessions, lessons, cheering up, birds' eye view, expressway, waaaay noisy, we-wish-we-had-some-scotchtape moment, pretty nails, like a princess and pampering. :)
FIREWORKS, FIREWORKS, here i come! two days straight! WHEEHOO! i like. hehe.
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She is Tolerant and Forgiving Towards Them. The Ideal Muslimah by Muhammad Ali-Hashimi
"the muslim woman who is truly guided by Islam is tolerant towards her friends and sisters, and does not bear grudges against them. if she becomes angry with one of her sisters, she restrains her anger and freely forgives the one who has commited an error, without seeing any shame in doing so. in fact, she sees this as a good deed which will bring her closer to Allah:
"... [those] who restrain anger and pardon [all] men - for Allah loves those who do good." (Qur'an 3: 134)
if a person supress his or her seething anger, and does not forgive, that anger will turn into resentment and malice, which are more dangerous than anger. when a person forgets, the flames of anger are extinguished, and his or her soul is clensed of the effects of anger and hatred. this is the level of ihsaan which earn Allah's love for those who attain it:
"...for Allah loves those who do good." (Qur'an 3:134)
the muslim woman who truly adheres to the teachings of Islam is one of this group of muhsineen (good doers). she does not allow anger to continue boiling in her heart, because suppressed resentment is a very heavy burden on the soul; rather, she hastens to forgive and forget, thus freeing herself from this burden, filling her soul with tranquility and peace of mind.
something that may help the muslim woman to reach ths difficult level of ihsaan is the knowledge that forgiving one's sister is not a source of humiliation or shame, rather it will raise her in status and honour in the sight of Allah, as the Prophet SAW described:
"Allah will not increase His servant when he forgives except in honour. No-one humbels himself for the sake of Allah but Allah will raise his status." (riwayat Muslim, 16/141, Kitaab al-Bir was-Salih wal-Aadaab, baab isitihbaab al-afw wat-tawaaadu')
if we compare his honour and status with status of ihsaan reached by the woman who is tolerant and forgiving, we will realise what an honour she has attained, for in the sign of Allah she is on of the muhsinaat, in the sight of people she is respected, beloved example.
the muslim woman who has truly understood the teaching of Islam cannot have any trace of hatred or resentment in her heart towards anybody, because she understand precisely the value of forgiveness and purity of heart, and their importance if she seeks Allah's forgiveness and pleasure, as the Prophet SAW explained:
"there are three sins, whoever dies free of these sins will be forgiven for anything else, if Allah wills: associating anything with Allah; practising magic or witchcraft; and bearing resentment towards his brother" (riwayat Bukhari: Al-Adab al-Mufrad, 1/505, baad ash-shahnaa')"
take in and practise. :)
this is for you babe. the babe that's got lots of lurrve (spoken in a VERY chikopek way; again) going around, aye? ;P0 comment(s)
Title: Date/Time: Friday, August 10, 2007 // 10:22 PM
firstly, yesterday, i was smiling when i saw a yellow cab near e2. i dont know why, but i enjoyed seeing it drive by. you'll know i feel at peace when im smiling at something as ermmm ordinary as a yellow cab. :DD
and after the UT (do not wanna talk about it. :P) yesterday, the mystery of the missing labcoat was solved. thanks to fakepuma. *jumps around in a circle.
then i got to meet pakcik dollah's friend. :P im loving this whole sharing my knowledge thingy. Alhamdulillah.
. . .
and this morning?
the 'lake' between amk and yck got me awed. after such a long time of not googoo-gaga-ing over the beauty, i was taking it all in with a smile. wheehoo said the nature freak.
checked the genomics UT and im grateful. Alhamdulillah. please get better! hee.
and i just (like 30sec ago) got a msg from my bestie saying she's missing me. HEE. tu lah, sek postpone our HP outing jer kan? :P
and well... :))
ouh! i may just go visit my newborn cousin today. insya Allah.
it's never easy forgetting about what's happened to us in the past. i remembered telling yaya something yesterday night, while half concentrating on the talk and half concentrating on yaya and the other half ermm... eh wait, thats already one and a half whole? hmmm.
i've learnt so much in just that period of time, and there has been so much in me that changed. i became stronger and i guess more mature. yani said i may look lembut, maybe even a tad weak/soft in the outside, but she is confident that i could take good care of myself if something were to happen to me. hmmm. Alhamdulillah. at least someone's got faith in me. lol.
but i dont only have myself to thank for that. i have God to thank for that. for giving me the strength and to make me realise/remember and know that He knows best. i know i've said it once before. but it's worth saying again. some things we may not like, but He knows that is best for us, so He lets it happen. Allah maha Mengatahui. i have God to thank. for i know He is the one i can turn to. for He will never turn away those who seek help from Him. it's just us who sometimes dont want to seek help from him, for only God knows why. :)
i have my wonderful family to thank for that. for giving me constant advice whenever i encounter trouble. for i have been living with them all my life, and they may be the people that knows me best. :)
not forgetting my lovely friends, new and old, who's been there for me, always concerned about my well being. thank you. :)
this post sounds like a dedication of sort. :P
andainya diri ini tersasar dari jalan, kembalikanlah ia.
negative thoughts should not be ignored. instead it should be addressed. and if possible rectified. make known why we feel that way. take it in with compassion and empathy. maybe then those negative thougths would go away.
