26th of March; Graduation Ceremony.
Venue: Republic Polytechnic; TRCC.
Time: 1230hours

they called my name, and i walked on stage.
yup, with the oversized graduation gown, but proudly. haha.
abah wasn't feeling well, but he came down anyways.
such a waste affein didn't come down, cos they were letting people in just like that mama said.
ouh wells. super rushing and kinda chaotic. a lot of people said that, even sai.
and! camera created trouble, but thankfully i had my trusty friends to help me with that. their cameras! wheehoo~
thank goodness those moments were captured. now i can't wait for the photos from the school photographer to be posted to me.
'eh eh, i like!'
hahaha. ;)
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I LOVE MY MAMA AND ABAH!
3 members in less than a week, what do you call that; coincidence? hmm.
have yet to take photos with siti amalia, smelly, bacin and sexy. boohoo.
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enjoy some of the photos below treasured readers! after awhile, i got lazy and tired, so i decided to not edit anymore. haha.























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yesterday was not a good day for me.
the moment i was in, i was gloomy. truth be told, i wish i could crawl into a hole and just lay still. with nothing to think about., nothing to say and nothing to react to.
but i didn't quite know why.
i was extra quiet and i was not myself.

the grey clouds were hanging.
even hours before.
i can't wait for the sun to shine,
and the rainbows to appear.

life's like a wheel. some moments you are up, some moments you are down.
i've had my fair share of ups the past week, now it's time for the downnnnn. it's here and it's knocking.
*knock knock.

i just wish people could understand that. and not judge so much.
whatever it is, true friends are forever. especially for me.
it is timeless. and it is meaningless, without the other party.
when someone is down, or not themselves, that don't make it any less valuable.
because friendship is a mutual understanding, shared by two souls.


cheer me up pleaseeee. :) 0 comment(s)

this very long post is worthy of some reading if you asked me. :)

yesterday was sooooooo gerek!
as usual, been meeting up with the rest to practice the skit and whatnots for maulidul rasul that is gonna take place on the 29th.
nuwul, nuraini, yaya, shahidah, zasila, munzir, afiq, syafie, imran..

met up in the early afternoon, after zohor to buy the stuff. and i won the supposed race. wheehoo. 'alah, padahal rumah dekat sey!'
dah kalah tu, buat hal kalah please. lol.

got to the masjid and we started work. i like.
the second race, i lose by a few letters. but it's okay cos mine was a lot longer. haha.

anyways, that was all the dry stuff.
the funner stuff all came afterwards!!
when we were doing the skit, going through the stations for the hunt. ouh and how can i forget the telling of stories in the youth hub. whooOOOoOoOOo. :D :D :D

skit skit skit!
moonwalk still needs LOADS of brushing up. haha. they say i did it mcm tgh nak buat aces day. -___-'
'mesti buat betol betol arh. jangan nanti mcm aces day. okay come on kids! one two three four'. with all the super lembut actions. lol.
kelakar ehhh?! pfft. hahahaha.
and i need to change the way i talk. cos apparently, only mak munah is suppose to be nenek kaypoh. oklah, suit yaya. HAHAHA. im the lemah longlai kinda nenek. you hear? lol.
budak budak ni semue ader bakat terpendam lah sey. i like!

hunt hunt hunt!
we started walking around, familiarising ourselves with the route and all.
everything was well and fine, until an unwell dude came and started following us. jumpe orang pencak silat! syafie, imran and munzir boleh pegi wrestling dgn dier. -_-
hahahaha. i think he is scary, cos according to the boys he could get violent. he's mentally unsound you see.

i've seen him around a couple of times and he seems to be around, everywhere. he was at cik balqis funeral too. but it's kinda amazing that he is always at these kind of 'beribadah' places. hmmm. everytime i see him, there is a mixture of sympathy, fear and anxiety mixed in one. :/
we were all very scared! actually shahidah and i were probably the most scared. cos zas and yaya seemed to be quite ok. two of us will be walking in front front if he was behind. and then munzir said, 'arh tapi perempuan jangan kacau eh.' :D
i think it was kind of obvious that the girls were scared cos when we were all in the lift, we were hiding behind them. seram.
i don't know if that is something mean to say. :/ but i'm glad they were there. i felt a lot safer. :)

story story story!
after the hunt, we just stayed in the youth hub and kinda recapped. and for reasons i don't quite understand or know, the stories started to unfold. munzir had the most story to tell cos he got the most knowledge about those kinda things. about ilmu hitam, orang kene possess, why orang kene possess, sihir mata, sihir type two (type two! haha. mcm diabetes), stories about the toilet, about wali Allah, symptoms of orang-orang yang kene kacau. dan macam macam lagi. imran about having the kakak follow him when he was younger, syafie about his friend having the kakak fly herself right in front of him, and he couldn't do anything but freeze and stare, afiq about his sister seeing the penanggal. yaya about wanting to hear the story of the toilet we most frequent and shahidah asking if it was safe to share all the knowledge just like that. he said it's ok, so i shall share some it here! :D

i've shared this with a couple of people. but did you know that there are actually three signs to know that someone is practicing sihir? i found out when i was watching this theater show tok ayah had. there was a forum after that:-
1) he has red eyes all the time, and is unable to look at good people in the eye. munzir said that it could also be that they are afraid to campur orang.
2) when you go to their house you can see a human skull (i think this one is the hardcore ones. heh.)
3) they cannot baca taawuz; which is A'u dzubillah himinasyaitan nirrajim. which ultimately means "aku berlindung kepadaMu daripada syaitan", "i seek refuge in You, Oh Allah, from the syaitan"
which is impossible because when you are practising sihir, you are befriending the syaitan and getting yourself close to them.
did you know that to be practicing sihir, you have to do very extreme stuff? wanna know how? ask me! but please don't try it. hehe.
and 'they' travel by wind.

BEST! kiter semue mcm tak nak balik. my parents were going to pick me and the girls up, after they washed the car. then shahidah said, 'tell your parents take their time please. i wanna hear more of the stories.' teehee. :D :D
then masok pulak crite pasal mas selamat. teringat shahidah, totally rendom sey. hehehe.
it's been awhile since we organized an event kan? :)

what a way to celebrate Rasulullah's birthday; with friends. :)
i think we could have gone on and on and on without stopping if my parents hadn't called saying that they reach already. i can only imagine how it'd be on the 28th!
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DOA ISTIKHARAH.

Ya Allah,
hamba memohon agar Tuhan memilihkan mana yang baik menurut Engkau Ya Allah. Dan hamba memohon Tuhan memberikan kepastian dengan ketentuanMu dan hamba memohon dengan kepastian dengan ketentuanMu dan hamba memohon dengan kemurahan Tuhan yang Besar Agung. Kerana sesungguhnya Tuhan yang berkuasa, sedang hamba tidak tahu dan Tuhanlah yang Amat Mengetahui segala sesuatu yang masih tersembunyi.

Ya Allah,
jika Tuhan mengetahui bahwa sesuatu persoalan ini baik bagi hamba, dalam agama hamba dan dalam penghidupan hamba, dan baik pula akibatnya bagi hamba, maka berikanlah perkara itu kepada hamba dan mudahkanlah ia bagi hamba, kemudian berilah keberkahan bagi hamba dan mudahkanlah ia bagi hamba, kemudian berilah keberkahan bagi hamba di dalamnya.

Ya Allah,
jika Tuhan mengetahui bahwa sesungguhnya hal ini tidak baik bagi hamba, bagi agama hamba dan penghidupan hamba, dan tidak baik akibatnya bagi hamba, maka jauhkanlah hal ini daripada hamba, dan jauhkanlah hamba daripadanya. Dan berilah kebaikan di mana saja hamba berada, kemudian jadikanlah hamba orang yang rela atas anugerahMu. 0 comment(s)

the current pm;
i've come to learn and realize that it was never about the name or what we called ourselves.

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seeing senior citizens make me feel.... helpless.
nak tolong! tapi mcm mane?!
haha.

well, you can't help everyone. buat semampu. kalau konon-konon nak jadi superhero, akan pengsan separuh jalan lah jawapnyer. kan kan kan?

accompanying nek mok and mama for their checkup was.. refreshing. firstly, i had to wake up early. many many hours before the usual wake up time. haha.
on top of that, i'm not used to going to polyclinics. in fact, i don't remember going to the polyclinic when i was down with flu or fever.

i also wanted to make an appointment for the dentist. so guess what?
there aren't any appointment slots for me, throughout the WHOLE YEAR! :O
but nvm, i can survive for now. hee.

going through medications have never been anymore fun. haha.
and toa payoh hubhubhub..

nek mok: kenape dipanggil hub? hub kan separoh.
HAHAHAHAHA.
geddit geddit?
like hub, hap, half?
alah cara nenek nenek bebual gitu.
hehehehe. cute banget sih nenek gue! :D 0 comment(s)

and i'll sleep tonight thinking and hoping
that you'll be alright.
promise. :)



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girl 1: ouh my gawd. i have such a big butt.
girl 2: yar me too.
girl 1: come on and join the club.
girl 2: don't need to join, we're already in the club.
girl 1: yar sey. we get automatic membership or sth. 0 comment(s)

past few weeks has been quite great. you know? :)

to town with some of the most important ladies in my life. laughing non-stop with them. and eating at cahaya. gosh i wish i could share that day with more people.
nasi katil. and mee bath tub. hahahaha. beradik beradik! :D

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went to sexy's place for an indoor picnic. we had tonnes of food. played monopoly spongebob edition! inflow of cash! yay pineapple houses and allience with smelly! haha.
and darn mad gab. 'sack chen ice tame' teeheehee.
the food was niceeee. and the presents from bacin and smelly were soo nice! so sweet of them. hehe. thanks you guys!
we watched freedom writers in the football filled house. haha.
we should definitely do this more often k! XD

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went to the open houses with some of my favourite girls. freddy, rashidah and yani. :))
nus open house was such a bluergh. the fass peeps were nice. but not the life sciences. ok, not all are not nice lah. just one of them. she had an air about her and extremely condescending. i know i've been harping on this for quite awhile ald. but i still am not over it. pfft.
thinking of her still makes me wanna shout and scream. pull her hair and cocok her eyes. GRRRRRR.

yani: you would probably feel worse if you didn't get the spongebob t-shirt.
HAHAHAHA. you got that right. XP
and she got herself an elmo tickle this shirt. i like! hee.

we saw our most liked person ferdinand at the aussie open house.
i think he thinks yani is stalking him. HAHAHA. :P
esplanade, ice cream and pokka tea; cool. bites from unfriendly insects; very uncool.

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then there was the multiple rehearsals. wheehee. i like!
i think i have bakat terpendam jadi mak nenek. hahahaha.
being mak esah seems almost second nature when i was practicing with yaya. hahahaha. mcm paham.
moonwalk (!) and lines have yet to be mastered. hehe.

afiq: then mcm gitu arh, side effect. tangan mcm shake shake, menggeletar.
saiful: ok pe gitu. main tambourine mesti bagos.

hahaha.

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and then:
'tapi jangan sleep tight sangat nanti darah tak jalan'.
HAHAHAHA!
kelakar or what?! LOL. ;)

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east coast, bedok food court, nuh, masjid tentera.
lotsa family love. <3

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then i asked myself;
what am i doing? why do i continue doing this?
this is a test.
a test i want to ace. 0 comment(s)

easier said than done.
and this is so not helping.

then there is this other thing, it keeps on coming. then keeps on running.
ouch ouch ouch.
how much it's hurting.
ouch ouch ouch.
it comes and goes.

you sounded so sure, it's almost unbelievable.
no wait, it is unbelievable.
so tell me again; are you sure?
makes me wonder.
it sounded so rhetoric; makes me wonder if it's for real.
so tell me again; are you sure? got the right person?
cos i clearly am not sure. i left it hanging, and you have yet to hear.
what i have to say, and what i may not say.

real soon.
this post may not make sense. at all. 0 comment(s)

DRAFTED ON THE 15TH OF FEB

"holly: but i don't want to make mistakes.
gerry: then you're in the wrong species love. be a duck."

-ps: i love you.


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GRADUATION HIGH TEA. 3RD FEB
exactly 12 days ago. it seemed like a VERY VERY VERY long time ago. don't it?
it was great! i liked it, a whole lot. :) but i wished it was a little longer though. a tad too short, the event.
everyone were at their best. new clothes, all so pretty and handsome. in their pretty pretty dresses and nice nice shirts. X) there were A LOT of photo taking.

i spent the night before graduation high tea laughing like a hyena. thanks to the clan. the games and ukhwwah were great. i miss such family gatherings. :)
before we had the 'par-tey' going on, we had a kenduri and baca yasiin.
then affein said, 'wah korang. dah baca-baca teros party eh!' hahaha.

karaoke-ing. games. tak-boleh-angkat-jokes. new addition to the big family. sedap food. layan-ing the small kids. hee. wish i could have stayed a lot longer.
we were playing so much, laughing so hard, making so much noise, we had to close all the doors so that the neighbours wont complain. we were VERY LOUD. XD

the next day,
i had my cousin help me prepare myself for the high tea. and boy was she a great help. heh. abah sent me to raffles town club that day. thank goodness he sent me! cos it was raining HEAVILY. Alhamdulillah. :)

the first people i met,
MUHD FUAD and SITI AMALIA! :D *hentam je nuwul name orang muhd fuad. lol!
fuad very sweet. wanted to rescue liy and yani. from the heavy heavy rain. after all the macho thingy, then siti said, 'don't fall ok.' they're so cute. :)

sheikh was given a time slot to prepare something for the rest. he was good, different from the rest. he put in effort and it was great. and very touching!
say it with me now, AWWWWWWW.
and please eh, got a lot of my photos there! OUR photos! malu sey. haha.
'aik, muker dekni lagi!' hahaha. XP

OUH! and and and!
I GOT PATRICK!! *jumps around in circles. to replace the one yaya gave. to replace the one that ran away from me. and never returned. :'( emo or what.



from the girlfriends! :D


my second attempt at photoshop. after the grey 'blogskin' i did donkey years ago. heh.

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sometimes you just wonder if this was just an illusion.
AND smu has the most awesome facilities!
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we collected our graduation gown today.
the morning was rainy. a very very very nice weather to sleep! waking up was a toughy. heh.

suddenly i can't wait to graduate and walk on that stage proudly with my diploma in hand. with my parents looking from afar. i wish oniisan could be there. so he could use his awesome camera and improving photography skills to take a many many photos of me in my graduation gown. instead of that super lag by 49831520seconds olympus camera. HAHA. all five of us at my graduation ceremony. that would have been nice. :)

but remember, no running on stage republicans!
HAHAHA. i can't believe they actually put that as one of the rules.

OUH! and my atm card is finally alive! reincarnation or rebirth, if we could call it that. heh.

pizza hut and ntuc was... nice. for the lack of a better word. lol. :)
yar, you're probably thinking, 'ape je lah dekni. ntuc pon nice.'
well yar. to me it is. where else can you get your daun sup?!
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dude, you are so orsino-ish.
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"a strong believer is better and is more lovable to Allah than a weak believer, and there is good in everyone. (but) cherish that gives you benefit (in the hereafter) and seek help from Allah and do not lose heart, and if anything (in the form of trouble) comes to you, don't say: if i had not done that, it would not have happened so and so, but say: Allah did that what He ordained to do and your 'ifs' opens the gate for syaitan"

[Sahih Muslim, 32, #6441]

all i can say is 'WOW'. :) 0 comment(s)

affein stepped into the house singing.

mama (on the phone): wah affein! nyanyi nyanyi? kenape senang hati nah sangat? bik ani tanyer, dah dapat jumper mas selamat ke?
affein: mas selamat kan dah pat malaysia.
mama: huh? macam mane kau tau?
affein: iyer lah. tadi pegi malaysia abeh dier tulis pat situ 'SELAMAT DATANG KE MALAYSIA'

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!


and until just now, i forgot how totally awesome playstation is.
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i won't forget the last week of february. i reckon it'll linger in my mind for a very long time, if not forever.

meet up with siti. GOSH. we talked about soooooo many things. i forgot how much we could laugh over the silliest things.
when sitted.
*accidentally kicks my leg
me: aduh mak.
she: sorry sorry. dah luper ke how long my legs are?
HAHAHAHA.
ok, nvm. maybe it's a joke only we get. i felt super-dee-dooperly midgety then. i think i was around her shoulder. but it's ok. i feel taller now. i hung out with my baby cousins not long ago. :B

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picnic was canceled. :/ it's okie, next time next time! ;)

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secret recipe at marina, did-i-say-something-wrong-cos-it-keeps-sprinkling-on-us-mini-merlion at esplanade and the almost singapore flyer. XP
that day was a good day. i was smiling. and i was laughing. and i had ice cream too. ice cream at night is good. ice cream makes me happy. chocolate ice cream especially. :)
as for now, we'll be walking. so get ready your most comfy shoes! it'll be quite awhile.

right here where it's grey.

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then there was THE LEAP YEARS with the lovelies. siti amalia and eliza weren't there.
everyone should catch it. one of the best local movies! i remember crying like a baby watching i not stupid. SEDIH TERAMAT SANGAT! ouh ouh! how could i forget army daze. MAKDATOK! lamer tuuu. :O

though the synopsis may sound cheesy, it's actually quite compelling. it was romantic, funny, witty. seriously. nevermind we had to strain our necks cos we were in the first two rows, it was worth it. we're lucky it wasn't sold out, cos it was selling fast. hee.

ARHHHHH! i really really really love the movie! if i could, i'd watch it again. who'd wanna bring me? XD
and ermm, was i the only one crying?

in the movie:

"in three words i can sum up everything i've learned about life: it goes on."

-robert frost

sometimes the right thing seems so wrong. so what's right?

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then there was staying at the masjid till 12+ am. i haven't laughed so much with them. especially with the 'politics'. hahaha. folding papers, listening to mystery jam 12. gerek. if only yaya was there. :)

anyways,
happy 5th birthday ain! :D
for a 5 year old, you sure look 20. :P 0 comment(s)

mama got back from nekmok's place yesterday night. brought an album of us when we were still juniors. alah, zaman cute nak mampos dulu.

one of the many many swimming pool trips. XD







"awak paham tak ape kiter tengah cakapkan ni..?"







ouh the innocence.
and how we have all grown. 0 comment(s)