you know what i hate?

what i hate is when i am busy doing something and is absolutely into it, someone comes and bug me. so expect me to be very grumpy.

my lappy got resurrected tonight. but it died 1.5 hours later. annoying much!?
GRRR.

but i did have a couple of happy moments today. for example, i enjoyed me early morning practical lesson.

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instructor: so how old are you?
me: 20.
instructor: ouh, masih muda lagi.
me: yeahhh, some people say i look younger.
instructor: *cough cough*
me: iyerrr betol.
instructor: but i never say.
me: yelahh, i said some people.
instructor: iyer lah, i never say.

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today was my first lesson on the road. so gabra banyak sikit. and the road though not so congested, still made me feel nervous. we were near the smrt buses interchange (!) and there was a lot of lorries, motorcyclist, vans and jaywalkers (tsk tsk). stress level up by ten folds. suddenly the circuit felt so much like home. huahuahuahua. macam paham.

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instructor: ingat eh, drive kereta, bukan drive kapal.

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instructor: sek nak tekan minyaaaak jeeeeee.

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me: *turning round the bend.
instructor: arhh, jaga cik salmah, jaga.

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instructor: ah jalan achi, jalan. haiiii, baiyaaaah.
me:*distracted and swerved*
instructor: arhh. baru tgk baiyaah dah mcm gitu.

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with my mom's condition, i need to step up.
so step up already! 0 comment(s)

i could feel my heart stop a beat, maybe two.

i know/remember how it felt to be in that situation. i know that it aches a whole damn lot. i was just sad that another person, whom i foresee will be even closer to me, had to feel what i felt. i honestly wished that didn't have to happen to you, to anybody else for that matter.
but one can just wish. and one can just imagine.
it's just different to hear it from the opposite side.

i was angry, disappointed, speechless and very quick to judge. because i could very well relate, i already decided who i was going to side. no questions asked, i knew that they are all the same. you are all the same.

what if it was me?

it made me relive my old wounds. bring up all the emotions that i have tried so hard to suppress.
flash backs started pouring in. it started to play in my head over and over and over again.
that's when i realise that my wound is still fresh.
and that maybe, this could be a sign for me. from the Almighty.

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

-jason mraz; details in fabric.

during time of human weaknesses, we tend to forget a lot of things and we are bound to make mistakes and even sin.

it is narrated that even a sin could be a blessing if what it does is bring ourselves closer to God. subhanAllah. :)
there is always turning back and re tracking in Islam. Allahu Akbar.

and it also made me realise how much of a good respectful boy he is to me. :) 0 comment(s)

maths is like love; a simple idea, but it can get complicated.
- r. drabek 0 comment(s)

kategori-kategori orang:-

yang mana satukah anda?

1) HIPOKRIT - kentut tapi salahkan orang lain.

2) SELENGE - orang yang tahan kentut berjam-jam.

3) YAKIN DIRI - orang yang kentut dengan lantang

4) DENGKI - orang yang kentut dalam selimut & kibas-kibas baunye.

5) PANDAI - step nak elak bunyi kentut dengan ketawa kuat-kuat

6) PERAHSIA - kentut tapi tak dapat dikesan.

7) KANCHIONG - tiba-tiba kentut biler terperanjat.

8) PERIANG - kentut pelan-pelan & senyum sorang-sorang.

HAAA. asal tu senyum sorang sorang lak..!

hehe. hope that made your day. X)

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i just realised that all the men who ran in the 200m race yesterday are black. usain bolt is insanely fast!

'i'm lightning bolt. i'm not flash gordon or anybody.'
touche!

anyways, watching the olympics is enjoyable to say the least. i wonder why (not that i am complaining) most atheletes are good looking. nyumnyum.
mentel sey liy(?). haha random.

i am so glad i got to meet lin and hanim, after soooooooooooo long. hee. catching up feels soooo darn good. :) the next person i have yet to meet is liyana! URGH. i miss her a lot. bluergh. working sucks, agreed? haha.

on anoter note, i shall be a good daughter/sister for the next few weeks and stay at home. i didn't know with my brothers growing up, i have to start getting busy too. women have to do everthing these days. (haha).

ouh what a wonderful day.

i can't wait to fiddle with zac. heee. X)

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RASHIDAH!! you're going to kill me if you find out what i did. :X 0 comment(s)

there are two kinds of company.

one, you just wanna get out! because though you may not hate/dislike that person, you just don't wanna spend another breathing minute with them. and you're just not sure why. takde chemistry agaknyer. lol.

another, you certainly don't want to leave and go home. because you wanna spend all your hours with that person and never have to part. because saying goodbye is just too painful. chemistry, phewh. goes without saying.

well, i have felt both. and i definitely prefer the latter. :)


speaking of which, the swell on my finger has gone down. Alhamdulillah. :) 0 comment(s)

for a lack of a better word, i feel extremely happy.
with an almost-crushed and definitely bengkak finger, i am still extremely happy.

i love mondays with mimin and family.

because you can make me smile.

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ouh, my brothers are growing up. :') 0 comment(s)

ok, actually eh, i feel extremely exhausted. my head is throbbing, my mind has been on standby for the past few days. stop ranting sey nuwul!
but you know when you are that tired, you just can't put yourself to sleep. at least i can't.

it's tough like that.
my body clock is so screwed. my eye bag and dark circles are getting bigger and getting darker. abah's favourite: itu dah bukan eye bag. itu dah eye luggage. X(


anyways, i miss a lot of people!

i miss my besties, i miss the princessys, i miss kgc, i miss nady and i miss lewis hamilton, well sorta. hahah.
aiyahhhh. and i just feel that since i'm working, i should spend my non-working days sleeping in or with my mom. because i miss her too!

on a random note, i have so much (insert appropriate word) baggage that it's probably heavier than a shopaholic's bags back from a bangkok trip.

anyways, kak noorma offered to get me souvenirs from harvard. i'm thinking getting their sweatshirt/jacket would be cool. she also said, he'd probably go to those shop houses to get coach bags. at a much cheaper price. well well, i don't know him well enough to put my trust on his taste. :X haha. getting that harvard sweatshirt would be super cool! :D

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same but different.
weird but calming.
close but distant.
gone and walking.

watching but silent.
optimistic but realistic.
excited but hesitant.
awaken those instincts.

cold but warm.
trusting but doubtful.
strong but weak.
wonder where it's from. 0 comment(s)

Ya Allah, wahai tuhan yang memiliki segala nikmat, tidak ada yang termampu untuk mempersembahkan nikmat ke atas Mu, wahai Tuhan yang memiliki Kebesaran dan Kemuliaan.

Ya Allah, wahai Tuhan yang memiliki segala Kekayaan dan Kenikmatan, tidak ada tuhan selainkan Engkau yang Maha Menolong orang-orang yang memohon perlindungan serta Maha Pengaman bagi orang-orang yang berada dalam ketakutan.

Ya Allah, seandainya Engkau telah takdirkan bagi kami di sisi Mu sejak zaman azali lagi, bahawa kami tergolong di kalangan mereka yang celaka dan merugik, kesempitan rezeki dan tersisih, maka kami bermohon agar dapat dihindarkan ia dari kami.

Ya Allah, dengan Kemurahan Rahmat Mu, demi segala kecelakaan dan kerugian yang kami tanggung, kesemputan rezeki dan tersisihnya kami, maka kami mohon kepada Mu Ya Allah, tetapkanlah di sisi catatan Mu segala perkara yang buruk itu, agar Engkau perkenan untuk mengantikannya dengan sebahagiaan dan rezeki yang mewah, yang dapat mendatangkan kebaikan, kerana sesungguhnya segala apa yang telah Engkau perkatakan dalam firman Mu adalah benar, melawati lisan Nabi utusan Mu: "Bahawa Allah dapat menghapus segala apa yang Dia kehendaki dan dapat menetapkan segala sesuatu yang dikehendaki-Nya, dan disisiNya induk segala ketentuan."

Wahai Tuhan kami, demi kebesaran dan keagungan Mu, pada Malam Nisfu Sya'ban yang mulia ini, yang ada padanya pemisah dari setiap usrusan yang tepat dan pasti, kami mohon kepada Mu, Ya Allah, perkenankanlah kiranya Engkau singkirkan segala mara bahaya dari kami, baik yang kami ketahui atau yang tidak kami ketahui. Engkalah yang Maha Mulia dan Maha Pemurah.

Ya Allah, selamatkanlah kami dalam bulan Sya'ban ini, dan berilah kami kesempatan hidup di bulan Ramadhan beserta Rahmat, Keampunan dan Keredhaan-Mu. Wahai zat yang Maha Belas Kasihan. Wahai Zat yang Maha Member Kurnia. Selawat serta salam semoga tetap dilimoahkan kepada junjungan kami Baginda Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. serta kepada keluarga dan sahabatnya, dan segala puji bagi Allah Tuhan seru sekalian alam.

Amin.

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as i looked into the sky, i saw the the moon and stars. no words could express my emotions better than the tears that rolled down my cheeks.
i don't think i have done my prayers in congregation with as many people as that. Alhamdulillah. :)

sesungguhnya selama ini aku tertidur lena. bangunkan aku Ya Rabbi.

btw, there's gonna be an eclipse tonight (or should i say morning). around 3 gitu! hopefully boleh bangun. hee. XD 0 comment(s)

i've been bloghopping for the past half hour. and i've got tears in my eyes.
not because i'm sad, but because i'm touched. what's a better english for terharu? replace that with touched. heh.

i can't help but feel extremely (insert better english word for terharu) when i read through them because the amount of love they feel for the Creator and the most Kind and Gracious are far from mine.

in many ways i feel ashamed. but in some i feel good because i know i needed that. just reading that, i feel calmer and inspired.

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i'd like to share with anyone who's bene facing difficult days. where you've had it days, where you've felt better. i'm sure we are all well aware of this, but reminders are good. and we can never get enough of them. at least i believe so. :)

• relief comes after hardship. this is a consistent pattern in life of man, as consistent as the coming of morning after darkness.
• hardship is more beneficial to the soul of man than are comfort and ease.
• the One who brings good and drives away evil is Allah. know that whatever happens to you are decreed to you, and whatever you have missed out was never meant for you.

so, do not grieve - this world is not worth your grief. :)

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i'd like to travel Allah's earth. and be awed over the great creations and miracles of the Creator. i was blessed to have gone to the beautiful land hakone, japan, experiencing spring in may. Alhamdulillah.
ouh thank you Allah! before my dying day, i would like to experience winter. insyaAllah. :)

i love how nature play it's music. hee.






if you'd like to see more, visit my facebook once i (finally) upload the japan pictures. procrastination is a disease i tell you. 0 comment(s)

there is two ways you can react to your husband's affair.

one. there is forgiving and going for therapy together, cos you do not want to throw away what you have built for the past 22 years.

the other is to find your own kind of therapy.
for an aussie woman, it was to sell her soon-to-be-ex-husband's (so she claims) "small condom wrapper" and his mistress' "huge panties" on ebay.
it was selling at less than AU$2.

now that is a totally different way of handling it.

at least she turned something very heavy and difficult to swallow pretty light. for the readers at least. not so much for the husband i bet.

try googling it. or to the webby i work at. it made top story! heh. 0 comment(s)

here's the thing,
what we think of ourselves,
what others think of us,
and what we think others think of us,

they almost never tally. and it's true.

sometimes we just don't realize how inspirational, encouraging and wise we can be.
some think so little of themselves that they don't even believe it when others praise them.
though there are some that think too highly of themselves that they are unbearable. (haha).

but most of us just try to get by.
as long as we don't step on another person's toes, that will do just fine.

i know of a sister, we go way back. she is probably the most humble person i have ever known, but she is also probably the person with the most substance. but at the same time, she is also shy, in some ways. tapi boleh jugak bawa ketawa terbahak-bahak. hehe.

and everytime i tell her how awesome she can be, and how i love being in her company, she will never fail to say 'no lah', 'Alhamdulillah'. and how she don't deserve those words, and all those praises should be directed to the Creator.
subahanAllah. :)

now that is what i call character.

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more often than not, we complain about/blame the situation we are in on others, on ourselves. what we fail to see is that by doing so, we are blaming the One who made it happen. what we fail to see is the hidden blessing(s) and message(s). of course it won't be revealed to us that quickly.
where is the fun in that? xb

so stop blaming/complaining and start reacting.

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something small.





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check it out!
lewis hamilton is waiting for me at the grand prix! hehehe!



can you have the best of both worlds? 0 comment(s)

someone said, cinta itu hanya untuk alam perkahwinan.
wallahu'alam. :)

sometimes i wish you didn't have to be so nice. it would make it so much easier for me to at least try disliking you.
but that can't happen, because you're just mr nice guy.

why ouh why. 0 comment(s)

do you enjoy pictures? i hope you do. cos there are tonnes in this post. hehe. ;)

i had the opportunity to cut abah's hair just now. haha. how often do you get to cut your dad's hair, you know?
but it felt a little weird touching my dad's head. heh.

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anyways, happy belated birthday singapore! :D
i am so bummed that i didn't get to watch the national day parade, with full of concentration.
firstly, had less than 4 hours sleep during that day. concentration and alertness was at the lowest. haha. and then! i was extremely distracted by the kecohness at azwa's birthday bash. hehehe. cute banget sih. ;) and i missed the 2nd telecast on channel5 too. anyone who knows the 2nd telecast on suria do tell me ya. channel8 and vasantham central pon ok. HEHEHE.

will definitely upload the photos if i get them. my cute little cousin turned one year old on 31st july. Alhamdulillah.
she decided to celebrate her birthday with the country. ader flag singapore on the wall lagi! HAHA. i've never had such a patriotic occasion. well of course that doesn't include a few of those soccer matches screams years ago. heh.
anyways, once i get the pictures. i will show you the little fairy. UBER CUTE! ARHHH. XD

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anyways, speaking of cousins, din got married last weekend! Alhamdulillah. :)
i must say that the wedding was pretty.... calm. it wasn't like kelam-kabut or anything. but it was no doubt the most emotional so far.


DAY ONE


getting ready. no nikah is complete without the samping. heh.


they are always in matching clothing. spot them in the next few pictures if you can. :)


love the deco of the pelamin. looked really elegant. but the centre piece (if we could call it that) is quite annoying. because we if your family is not even numbered, the picture will look extremely unbalanced. roar.














i'd like my abah to nikahkan me, insyaAllah. that would the greatest present i could probably get for my wedding in the future. insyaAllah lah ye. huhu.





10 points to the person who can spot rai in the above photo. hahaha.




yup, i'm missing from the nikah. i had to freaking work. sedih banget sih. :(






checkout the cute flower girls yo! :)


mak cik mak cik. haha.


champione with their next generation of championes.




'awak. kiter pon nak main kahwin kahwin!'


from here on, the photos are taken by me. haha. mcm mane punyer penting je. lol.
love this shot!


the army boy is married now!




nenekku sayang! mama and cik hayati enter frammeeeee. roar. haha.


only six months apart. X)










the almost complete clan.




DAY TWO

tanter, the auntie cum mak andam for all the cousins that have gotten married so far.




a small doa before making our way to tampines.

din with his best man.


noor muhammad! love this small dude. haha.






the escort.




kereta pengantin.


now it's time for shots in the bus please! :D









































the 'gantry' seemed to take forever. count how many there are. four! kesian abang sedara aku. kepanasan.
those were very comical moments though. heh.




















akhirnyer! dapat juga go through. :)










SELAMAT PENGATIN BARU!



that ends the picture fiesta dear readers. hehe.
selamat pengantin baru dinis! agar pernikahan ini dapat membawa diri lebih hampir dengan Tuhan. dan semoga berkekalan hingga ke pintu syurga. Amin. :)

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and to ain and bro rizal, congratulations. semoga pertunangan membawa baraqah dan dapat mengharungi segala rintangan yang bakal dihadapi. semoga ke jinjang pelamin. Amin. :)

p.s.: thanks for being patient with the loading of the pictures. haha. :b 0 comment(s)