i just attended my 20-year-old friend's wedding.
we used to hang out at her house to mug.
we used to talk on the phone for hours.
and she just got married a few hours ago.
mcm omggggg. hahaha.
my first friend to get married. exciting kann?!

so yang lain, biler korang nak kahwin? 0 comment(s)

it's amazing how everything can change in a split second.
i can't say that i regret how everything changed in a split second, but i will say that whatever i am feeling now, at this very moment, it's not the best feeling.

maybe i will see how this fits just nicely in the near future, but at this moment, i just can't see. sure there are a million other 'better' and more 'important' things to think and worry about, but this is just as important to me.

whatever it is, innama'al yusri yusraa. with every hardship there is relief. words not spoken by me, but sent by the Almighty. it's a promise, a promise that will never be broken. :)
so yes, there is still hope, right?

and beside, if i have felt the loss, He has taken away from me, He must have also given and blessed me. i'm trying to not forget the blessings i have been given, and view everything in a positive light. i can't do it alone, so Allah, help me through? Amin.

nobody said it was going to be easy. deal with it.

on a different note, my cousin just got diagnosed with hand foot and mouth disease a few days back. so everyone who is possibly reading this, secretly or not (ehem), please pray for him! thanks much! may Allah reward you for your doas! :D

it's darkest before dawn. 0 comment(s)

i feel like puking. only because i am sick.
mama's virus jangkit to me. :(

hopefully there won't be a sneeze-o-mania later.
and i hope i can withstand walking in heels for the next 9hours or so.
because that my friends, is no joke.
ask liy, kan kan kan?!

when i got home raya-ing with liy, zohra and azrina the other time, it felt foreign walking on level ground. heh.
dari hujung tanjung ke hujung tanjung.
i repeat, walking on heels for THAT long is no joke. 0 comment(s)

IS TOM CRUISE REALLY DEAD? 0 comment(s)

that is how close we were!

yes, i totally went to F1 grand prix! hehe.
the moment we stepped into cityhall, we could hear the vrooooom-ing of all the F1 cars. we were shrieking so much! exciting nak mampos sey.
'omggggggg! this is music to my ears!' hehe.


check it out yo. sungguh cool. Alhamdulillah, the world is beginning to understand Islam better. ;)
kaki aku mcm cacat gitu! hmmmmmm.

OUH!
on the night race, i saw lewis hamilton and i waved at him. he waved back! he was so close! i saw his eyes, nose and mouth (SMILING AT ME! HAHAHAHA!)


*melts and drools.
that was what we did at first. konon action terror arh, taknak pakai earplugs. haha. but our eardrums was gonna burst if we didn't buy the survival kit, seriously. anddddd, when i was inches away from the race track, i felt really scared without the earplugs. because it felt like the cars were gonna hit us, and hit us hard! scaryyyyyy. :D

anyways, that sunday, i was so sick. i even puked on the way home, in the mrt station. :(
i think it's got to do with the smell of beer (free flow may i add. bluergh, disgusting), the engine smoke, the lack of food and water and perot masok angin. it was really really really horrible.
my mom took really good care of me when i got home. LOVE HER! words can't even begin to describe how i feel. :)

it was really a great experience. would i go again for the next race in singapore? i'm not too sure. i'm kinda turned off by the whole traumatic getting sick part. hahhh. but getting to see lewis hamilton first hand, that was indescribable. haha. mentel. :P 0 comment(s)

'May the "Nur" of "Al-Huda" from Allah shine in our hearts!'
'jangan lupa baca syahadah dan ayat kursi.'

it's funny how things are now.
so far, yet so close. 0 comment(s)

we got back from kampong ald! ;D

everything about the kampong was calming. ok scrap that.
everything about the kampong AT NIGHT was calming. because in the afternoon, the weather is just too hot to be having fun. huahuahua.
but at night, phewh. it was great really. :D

the sky and land seemed to spread from end to end.
the sky was glittered with stars at every inch.
the moon seemed enough to light up the night.
the breeze was cooling, and the sand was warm.
getting up and out of the car, sleepy from the three hours trip didn't stop me from appreciating everything around me. an inhale of the fresh air was enough to make me feel a little fresher and a lot grateful.
ouh kampong, how i've missed you so. hee.

on saturday afternoon, i pretty much stayed in - fighting the urge to complain about the hot weather - to do a 1000 piece puzzle.
we started at 11 and finished at 9. we went on almost non-stop. stopping only to have lunch, and perform our prayers.

everyone who helped out was different at every point. some went missing, came back a few hours later. some went missing and never came back. hahaha.
and along the way, so many times i thought of quitting, and giving my aching back a break. i thought of resting for a while, and continuing later. i thought about 'passing on the baton'.

and everytime those thoughts ran through my mind, i told myself to perservere.
i told myself that this is all worth the back ache and frustrations when all is well and done.
i told myself it'd be a waste to give up now, not when i've gone so far.
i told myself i can do it, and i will.

there was too many times i thought of giving up. and i am soooo grateful that i didn't. because with every piece in the right place, i felt deep satisfaction.

9pm and the puzzle was completed. boy was i HAPPY. i was happy, i was proud but i was tired. those happy emotions totally drowned out the feeling of exhaustion. :)

it was definitely worth it.
it's amazing how a 1000 piece puzzle can teach you so much about life. :D

three pieces went missing, we never found them. the puzzle is so incomplete. is there a lesson in that too? ;)

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btw lovely readers, you can relink me now! i'm out of hiding. hee. ;) 0 comment(s)

i know you, i do.
just by going through what you have, i know you would treat women you know right.
that puts me in a very very calm state. :)


cinta kepada Tuhan, sayang kepada ciptaanNya. :B 0 comment(s)

on the walkie talkie
'dah dier dah sampai'
'kalau lambat kene tinggal'
'dah naik dah. dah ckp sorry'


upon arrival
'nurul.. besok jangan lambat k. besok supervisor yang amek. tadi dier dah ckp.'
'ouh. okie sorry.'
'okie takpe.'
nasib pakcik baik!

ok, so i was late for 5 minutes. was suppose to be downstairs at 515, but i reached at 520 instead.
but it's not like i've been late many many times or not waited for them longer than 15 minutes. no complaints there, i see.

at least i've got the warning for tmr. hopefully i won't be late again. tardiness is a disease, i swear. 0 comment(s)

He had the mildest of temperaments of all. He was the bravest of all, fairest of all and pious of all. His blessed hand never touched a woman not lawful to him. His generosity was incomparable. His food, too, was very simple, mostly dates and barely. If anybody wanted anything of Him, he would oblige him. He would mend his own shoes and sew his own clothes. He would also do the housework. He was more modest than any body. He would accept invitations. If a gift were sent he would accept it. He would always return the favor by giving gifts in exchange. Never in his entire life had he ever eaten to his stomachʼs full. He possessed incomparable humility and was the Most Honorable. His talk would never be lengthy and boastful. He had a smiling expression.


He liked perfumes but disliked stench, smell, and pungent powder. He would sit with the poor and the needy and would feed the poor. He would respect those exhibiting good conduct. By dealing kindly with notables he would win their hearts. He would extensively meet the members of his family. He would never lie, even for the sake of humor. If there were noise and tension around he would adopt patience. He was kind to little children, and showed more affection to the poor than to the rich. He was tender and compassionate to the weak and to strangers. His kindness and compassion extended to all Allah's creatures. He was humble.


He would accompany a funeral, and visit the sick, whether Muslims or non-Muslims and ask about their condition and how they were feeling. He used to visit poor people. If slaves and poor folk invited him, he would call at their homes. He used to say: 'Be compassionate toward every creature, so that Allah may have mercy on you too.' He attended to his own affairs. He used to eat together with his servant, whom he helped with some of his tasks. There was none so just, so trustworthy and truthful as He.


It was his blessed habit that if he would meet somebody he would say the Salaam first. If anybody would stop him to say something then it was his practice to stand there till the other person had left himself. If anyone would shake hands, he would not withdraw his hand till the other had withdrawn it first. Whenever he would meet a companion he would warmly shake hands and then interlock the fingers and give him a gentle squeeze.


He had a very polite, soft and refined manner of conversation. Most of the time, he would sit silent and would never open his mouth without some genuine and urgent cause. In case of anger or emotional state he would not tell a lie. He smiled quite often but no one ever saw him laughing loudly. Amongst all the people, he would be the last to get annoyed and the first whose anger would melt. He was extremely noble and kind.


who is he you ask?
it is indeed Rasulullah s.a.w. :) 0 comment(s)

i love how i can act like the biggest dork or the silliest girl, and that won't matter.

wheeeeeeeeeeee~ X) 0 comment(s)

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after all this,
i've learnt
1) to not expect too much. just bersantai in any situation.
2) stop going to people who can't offer you what you thought they could.
3) learn to forgive those who've wronged you; you give them too much power over you, power they don't deserve.
4) jangan sekali-kali berburuk sangka. a friend sent a message a few days back, a very random may i add.
he said, 'doubt comes from pride. you doubt when you are not humble enough to believe.' very random, yes. but it woke me up.

and it's surprising how sometimes the people you least expected will be the one who's willing to go the extra mile.

'nak seribu daya'
'a ah lah. kater member'

bottom line, learn.
learn from the lessons life give you.
learn from the mistakes you make.
learn from the mistakes others make.

when will you ever?
maybe i've been looking at the wrong places all this while.
ouh how much i need your help and protection ouh God.
from a world so hostile, for a world that's not mine.
bless me God, forgive me God, love me God.

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KASIH ALLAH TIADA PENGHUJUNGNYA ,
CINTA ALLAH TIADA SEMPADANNYA,
NIKMAT ALLAH TIADA PERBATASANNYA,
RINDU ALLAH TIADA PENGHABISANNYA,
JIKA INSAN TAHU MENILAINYA....

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everyone came over tonight. my nieces and nephews are insanely adorable!
whehehe. 0 comment(s)

omgggg.
i thought i was gonna die!!

i got stuck after doing my solat subuh in the musollah at work this morning! all thanks to the expired pass.
but selamat saved me! yes, can you believe it, his name is selamat! hoho. how convenient for me to be all punny early this morning. :b
selamat selamatkan saya. yayyyyy. LOL.
what made things worse was the fact that i saw kai walking! i was knocking the door so hard, i swear it could have roboh-ed if i went on any longer. but she couldn't hear cos she was walking with her earphones plugged in. -_-
i have never felt that helpless before; no one could hear your call for help.

lesson learnt, never go anywhere without your hp.

i so need to learn how to get around sph without the pass and get totally double-o-seveny. 0 comment(s)

before anything else,
EID MUBARAK SEMUE! :D

i should probably get some sleep right now, but i need to blog. or else, i can't sleep. haha.

anyways,
this Ramadhan sure seem to have swooshed by, real fast, don't you think?

last year's Ramadhan was different, and it was indeed special. heh.
i won't say this Ramadhan was less or more special. because the two Ramadhans are both special, just for different reasons. :)

the family did something different this year. we managed to khatam the whole Quran this Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah X3! half of the time we were worried we weren't able to complete all 30 juzuk, but some did extra time by reading a few pages after Zuhur and such. He was kind enough, to have helped us achieve our goal for this Ramadhan. thank you, God. :)

tadarus was done after solat terawih, usually ending at 1130pm or so. that is the main reason i tried my bestest not to buka out or solat jemaah at the mosque this year. hehe. X)

it was really like playtime. trying to recite the Quran with tarrannum (however it's spelt). lagu-lagu dier. you know my favourite qari, misyary? (OMG RHYMING) we all tried to carry his tune, and abah have officially been called misCURRY for it. nyahahah.
best nyer ngaji! XD

now, i shall try to persuade my family to do qiyam together next year. huahuahua. pelan-pelan kayuh, insyaAllah mesti boleh, kan? :)

and this year, i also switched on my MP3 listening to Sudais on the way to work, while working, blogging (yes blogging) and even sleeping. :)
menghayati this year's Ramadhan nyer theme lah kononnyer. hahaha.

when asked how this year's Ramadhan was different for affein, he said, 'i managed to khatam the Quran with you guys. that was something i didn't imagine myself doing last Ramadhan.'
well, true that big brother! ;D
and i must say, my recitation have definitely bettered because of it! praises to God. hee.

oniisan leaving for japan in less than 48hours. :/
now tell, what should my next post be about? hmmm. Syawal or the departure? or both like last year's? 0 comment(s)