this year have been one heck of a roller coaster ride.
in every aspect of my life.

school,
work,
love,
spirituality,
weight (yes it's been up and down, up and down. dots.),
etc etc.
other things that i can't really categorise even.

2008 has been life altering in some ways.
it has been all the same in many others.
i'll bookmark the events in 2008 in my mind.
and remember it for a long time.

was just talking to the girlfriends awhile back.
i was just saying how a lot of things have changed.
yet there were so many things that seem to have remained the same.
everything seemed like it happened just 2 months ago.
it all seem so fresh.
time can only travel that fast huh.

i predict 2009 to be more hectic.
with some serious life altering decisions to make.

i've learnt a lot about myself in 2008.
and i'm looking forward to discover more about myself in 2009.
therefore, i welcome 2009, with open arms.

as for resolutions,
one of the more important resolutions for me next year,
is to be a better daughter to my parents.

until next year,
SALAM SAYANG DARIKU. :) 0 comment(s)

as far as i can remember,
the hardest thing to get through is the lost of someone dear to you.

be it through death, or by having them walked away from you. or it's tough even if you were the one who walked away from them.
i'm sure we've all felt that once upon a time.
not the easiest thing to go through huh?

the nicest people can be cruelest sometimes.

i admit, these few months i can be a little hostile and quite difficult.
getting hurt does things to you. you become skeptical, and you become cold.
i try my bestest to be better, to be strong.
but sometimes, when things get the better of me i falter.

they say faltering is human.
they say it's alright to fall.
it's whether you pull yourself up that matters.

but what if there is something that keeps pulling you down to the ground? preventing you from standing on your feet.
you may be had a successful stand after tries and tries, but then you fall again.
because there is just something that continues pulling you, and it won't let go.

or maybe..

it's you who won't let go.

.
.
.

you need to know.
until then, you won't be able let go.
so what do you do?
you seek answers, and the people who have them.
at least that, will bring you closer to the peace of mind you once had.
at least that, will shed some light.
at least that, will help you let go.

throw it away, forget yesterday, we'll make the great escape.
sing me that tune, and i'll dance the night away.
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we reached tokyo station, 1 hour later. made our way to the bullet train station, to hitch a ride (haha) with the conductor of the bullet train.







check out my pocahontas boots (that's what oniisan calls it). thanks to oniisan, who thought my first boots looked like i was going to do kung fu (in my opinion, that can't be such a bad thing. at least those japanese who wanted to mess with me would think twice, no? lol.), he got me new boots.
i don't know to be grateful or angry. hahaha. Xb i must admit, it does look better, and much more comfortable. heh.
let's not go back to the ugly past, shall we? lol.










mentel sey. hahahaha.

the beautiful scenery on the way to our destination.
blue skies, through and through. how often do we get to see that? :)





had a good nap in the train, reached karauizawa around 8am in the morning.
HELLO SNOW!
please excuse me for being a lot jakon. it's not everyday a girl living near the equator get to see the snow!:D

from the train station, we had to take a shuttle bus to the resort.
there were a lot of snowboarding enthusiasts there!











after setting foot into the resort, we got ourselves four tickets. for the chairlift and the rentals of ski bajus and snowboards. oniisan of course only had to get himself the boards, cos he already got himself his other snowboarding gear, goggles included. :)







and so our snowboarding experience continued!













































and see the dude above?
he was my self-proclaimed instructor.
he was very helpful, and i don't think i would be as good (for a beginner of course, because all those japanese skateboarders will put me to shame!) without his help. i didn't manage to take a picture with him, cos we had to rush for solat asar. so i had to resort to stalking. hahahaha. ;D




we ended the whole night experience with the good old cup noodles. nyummm. haha. :D





ok, that ends my post. the next post will be of some snowboarding video actions.
cos the time now is 1210am, and i am committing suicide if i don't sleep this instant! i've got work tmr! roar.

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i'll be ending my japan escape in 5 hours; japan time.
and i'll return to my reality.

i'll deal with the responsibilities i have been given, to the best of my ability.
i'll hug my mother and i'll hug my father. not forgetting my elder brother.
i'll definitely hug my elderst brother before leaving him, and only seeing him on webcam for the next few months.
i'll try not to tear when i think about what a great time i had doing all the things i have never dont before, only experiencing them first hand in japan. if it weren't for oniisan, i won't get to do all those stuff.
so, thank you. thanks a million! :D

and i'll probably do what i should have done a long time ago.
because sometimes, all you need to do is get away to realise..

i dread going home, only because i have to work, but i'm ready.
i wish i could bring my brother along with me. i wouldn't mind having only his head.

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IM IN A GOOD MOOD TODAY.
today/tonight is a good day/night!
praises to Him for making it happen! XD

i finally know what it feels like to be jolted out of my sleep.

i was so so so so tired yesterday, from all the shopping, walking and talking, i overslept!
and i almost slept all the way through 6am if it was not for the 530am wake up call.

'nuwul, are you working today?'
'err ya. (thinking, why would she be calling.. hmmm. glances at watch; 530am!!!!!!)'
my eyes popped out of my circuit before i managed to scream,

'ouh SHOOT ouh SHOOT ouh SHOOT!!! i overslept! ouh SHOOT! i'm so sorry!'

i rushhhhhhhed all the way to the toilet to get ready.
yes, amidst all the kanchiongness and huge urge to run to the office with my jammies, it's just right to take a shower.
i still think not taking a shower in the morning is wrong.
very very very wrong. and smelly. lol.

in case you didn't know, i have to be in the office by 530am, so i have to be ready by 515am.
waking up anything later than 430am will make me a really really late little girl.
let alone 530am!

anyways, while i was getting ready, the pakcik from transport called.
WAHHHH. best!
WHEEEE~ the pakcik baik; very very!

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah! XD

because of that, i managed to reach work around 555am.
speeding through,
i was able to do the top stories (5 stories) in 15 minutes! thank goodness!

at least it wasn't so bad.
anyways, who in singapore would be reading the site at an ungodly hour, right?

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then in the office, i smiled awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
X) for reason only God knows. X)

on another note, i can't wait to start tutoring again.
i wonder if mimin still want me to be his tutor.
hmmmm. i miss that kid! urgh.

just anything that has got to do with school will make me happy, i think. :)

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after napping for a bit, got ready to go for my practical lesson.
it was raining so heavily!
i thought i was gonna do badly. X(
but i didnt. phewh.
even my army-commando-like-instructor (remember him? he so scary, he so fierce. :[) said i'm better, and improved.
saya sangat gembira. :D

and he really isn't that bad, i just found out.
although he still talks to me as if i was 4 metres away,
when i was barely 50cm away.

haha. but seriously, he isn't so bad afterall.
he's actually quite nice.

everyone is nice once we get to know them. all they need is a chance.
be appreciative of everything, and everyone.
no matter how small the gesture, or how unlikely it may seem. :)

i just miss telling/hearing lame jokes with the other dude.

lepas handle ape? haahahhahahahahha. :)

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and i didn't know i sounded like i have a cold? REALLY EH?
lol.

anyways, after recently bumping into sha (yes lovelies, sha our ex-fyp mate and yes, hanim. our kakak yang kecik) she said i looked more womanly.
how in the world does someone look more womanly?! hmmmmm.

me: yar, must be my fat thighs right.
sha: no lah, it's not that. it's your face.

hahaha, gasak kamu lah. :P

i missed her so much i hugged her twice. heheh.

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actually i miss a lot of people.
I MISS ALOT OF PEOPLE. HOWWWWWW.
hehe. ok!

this is pure random rambling.

i'm just having a great day/night. that's all.
YAY! Alhamdulillah! XD


goodnight lovely readers. :) 0 comment(s)