'My instinct is to believe the best in everyone and rush into things. I think that's one of my best traits. But it's now gotten to the point where that is a liability'

Anne Hathaway, on how she has had to rethink the way she trusts people.
why do i feel like i can relate?


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FIFTY PEOPLE, ONE QUESTION; A SHORT FILM



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i've got a psychiatrist,
- - My psychiatrist says:
fill it with Allah's love

ily! :D 0 comment(s)

let's have a conversation about (self-)respect.

or did you lie from the start? 0 comment(s)

the same old effects.

made you feel like a doll,
a smiling goofball.
it's like having a snowball thrown your way.
caught off guard, and it made you tremble.
he's humble, you fumble.

that's when you started grinning again. 0 comment(s)

me no likey.

awkward as it is.
punggol punggol punggol. XD

my headache is coming back.

only two people in the office. probably the only two in the whole building.
i dont see anyone else on the second floor of this building.
most lights are switched off, and the blinds are all down.
no light is getting in.
it's like a ghost town in bright daylight.

a: 'this is a scene made for horror movies.' 0 comment(s)

it's going to be different.
it will be done with extra care.
this time, with assiduity.

the last time was done with complacency.
and this time around,
it's going to be different.
i'm determined to make it turn out better.

slow and steady wins the race.

i've learnt from my mistakes, and i'm actively guarding myself from making the same ones again. it seems to me that i am getting better at taking care of myself.
maybe i've finally learnt what it means to grow up. :)
insyaAllah. 0 comment(s)

why is it that it seems so incomprehensible?
why is it that a word so simple, is very complicated? 0 comment(s)

a funny feeling.
a familiar funny feeling.
not good, not good.




cahayaaaaa.. 0 comment(s)

in this day and age,
we hear so much about death.
results of wars, of natural disasters.
it brings so much tears, and pain.

how mothers lost their sons,
how fathers lost their daughters,
how wives lose their husbands,
how parents lose their children
and how children are orphaned,

to think about it, little is gained through violence.

working in sph can be quite depressing, especially when you read of these kind of stories.
not enough. you'll have to pick the pictures to go with the stories.
see all the gruesome pictures, total access. bluergh.
in my opinion, some of the pictures are beyond graphic.
depressing, devastating and very cruel.

the period when it was the mumbai attacks, and the recent event in gaza.
and no matter how often we hear of these kind of stories, read about it, watch videos, look at the gruesome pictures, how much you ache, never seem to decrease.
makes you feel so so helpless, don't it?

a friend came a few days ago telling me of the lost of his grandmother.
i'm never really sure of how to approach such delicate issues.
but somehow, i find it easier to relate and make it seem not necessarily better, but a whole lot bearable when i relate something of this sort to God.
because with God, everything becomes simpler, everything become easier. :)

and now, with a phone call from saiful, i found out that Ustaz Luqman's mother passed away this morning.
sesungguhnya Allah lebih menyayangi mereka.
i would like to plead all that is reading this to sedekahkan Suratul Fatihah to them. :)
may Ustaz Luqman be granted strength and patience to pull through a difficult time like this one.
Amin. :)

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just yesterday night, i was watching THE MESSAGE with my dad.
there was one scene where one of the sahabat's parents got murdered because they refused to denounce their believe in the One and Only God.
he saw his parents die, in front of his own two eyes.
he saw his mother who brought him to this world, have her limbs pulled out of her sockets.
he saw his mother who took care of him when he was sick, fed him when he was hungry, get stabbed.

how would you console a friend, who's went through so much?
what do you say?
is there ever a right thing to say?
could there be anything you say that could possibly make him feel better, even a teeny bit?

then zaid, the prophet's adopted son said,
'your parents were the first martyrs of islam!'
it takes real intelligence - or a truly guided heart - to say something like that.
i couldn't help but suddenly feel a little tug in my weak weak heart. 0 comment(s)

forum perdana's topic on thursday: keberkahan rezeki.

USTAZ RAVI: seharusnya, kita berkongsi kebahagiaan dan kesenangan dengan manusia. manakala, apabila kita dilanda kesukaran, mengadu kepada Allah.

USTAZAH SHARIFAH: sekiranya kita mengejar barakah, rezeki akan datang. tapi sekiranya kita mengejar rezeki, tak tentu barakah akan datang.

renung-renungkan lah. :)

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HILARIOUS!
i love whose line is it anyway.


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wish list by april!
- some kind of device that can record audio sounds.
- stationery shopping! MUST MUST MUST. :D
- a bagpack.
- new disposable contacts to dispose off. lol.

now, it's time to brace for an adventure. XD
semoga segala yang dilakukan penuh dengan barakah! Amin. 0 comment(s)

if pictures could basi, the pictures you see below will probably reek of spoilt sup tulang.
but because pictures only bring good memories (i believe so), the pictures below smell of wild flowers that's just beginning to bloom.
well, of course with the exception of the pictures during hari raya haji.
because the kambings really stink. lol.

over populated b&j event.













kambing-kambing yang berbakti






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here's the first half of my snowboardning stint.
this was the first few hours of it.
so, expect to see me totally giving in to gravity (not that i won't in the other videos that i may upload). heh.





seriously, snowboarding is so much fun!
if singapore was a country that experienced winter, snowboarding would seriously one sport i would take up. no kidding!

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my driving practical today is very fun.
and very comical.

today's the day i learn right turns and u-turns.
so after a few tries, my instructor wanted to test me without giving me any help.

instructor: ok, make a right turn here.
so i changed lane and signals right, getting ready to make a right turn.
the green arrow was showing, so i steered my wheels to the right.
as i was turning right, there was a LOUD HONK!
nuwul started to panic!

nuwul: ouh no! kenape ni, ader orang honk.
instructor: ape nyer orang honk. awak yang honk!
nuwul: arh? maner ader i honk. i didn't press aper.
instructor: iyer you honk. you try rest your hand here. *gestures on the big fat honda logo.
and when i rested it on the logo, it really did honk!
instructor: dah honk diri sendiri, diri sendiri yang panic.

dah dua dua ketawe macam nak rak.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
i couldn't stop laughing for the next five minutes.
thinking of it now still makes me wanna laugh.

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so as he recapped, he said,

it's okay if you make mistake, as long as you learn from it.
ader turn right properly?
tak go to the wrong lane kan?
boleh u-turn kan?
ader dier yang bunyikan honk, untuk honk diri sendiri?

ok arh, tau arh tadi selenger sikit, tapi let go of it sey.
hahahaha.
i like. :B

ok, im going rollerblading now.
goodbye netizens! :D 0 comment(s)

they say old habits die hard.

- i hope to bring myself closer to God.

- i should remind myself to not wish to get sick. it's not fun. lol.

- if everything goes well, i'll start doing what i have only known to be in a few months. :) insyaAllah.

- i'd like to relate everything i do or say to God.

- i'm excited to start fresh.

- i promise, next post will contain my snowboarding videos. :)

i leave my affairs to You ouh Lord. You know what is best for me, for i don't know of what is hidden.


the old post i dug up never fail to make me feel calm. :)
no matter what calamity that have befallen unto you, Allah is with the patient. :)

'Hasbunallahu wa Ni'mal Wakeel', said Prophet Ibrahim (PBUH) when he was thrown into the fire.
for Allah is sufficient for us, and He is the Best Disposer of affairs (for us).

Allah knows best. that's what ive always believed, and thats what i always tell myself. i find strength, i find comfort, and i know i am never alone just by reminding myself of that, time and time again.
Allah knows what's best for us.
what's best for us may be something that brings us happiness and joy. makes us laugh, makes us smile, makes us jump with delight and makes our heart beat faster.
what's best for us may be something that may bring unpleasantness, bring sadness and bring anything but a smile on our faces.
but Allah knows best, and we should trust Him. i trust Him.

for nothing would comfort you more than putting your trust in Allah, and finding refuge in the Truth. may we be granted the peace of mind. =)

La hawla wa la quwwata illa Billah.
there is no power and no strength except with Allah. 0 comment(s)

should i grab what i have now..
and just bare with everything that comes with that choice.
won't be easy, and i may need to drop a couple of not-so-important stuffs along the way.

OR

should i give it another chance,
still unsure of the outcome.
but if i do get it, i'll be the happiest girl in the world.
because everything that will allow me to go through it and my backbone for it, can be settled in a much simpler manner.


ouh Allah, please guide me through and answer my prayers.

solat istikharah

"Ya Allah! Aku mohon pemilihan Mu menerusi pengetahuan Mu dan aku mohon kekuatan Mu menerusi kudrat Mu serta aku minta pada Mu sebahagian dari limpah kurnia Mu yang sangat besar.
Sesungguhnya Engkau amat berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa, Engkau amat mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui dan sesungguhnya Engkau amat mengetahui segala yang ghaib.
Ya Allah kiranya Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini adalah baik bagiku dalam urusan agama ku juga dalam urusan penghidupan ku serta natijah pada urusan ku, kini dan akan datang, maka tetapkan lah ia bagi ku dan permudahkanlah ia untukku, serta berkatilah daku padanya.
Dan kiranya Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini membawa kejahatan kepadaku dalam urusan agamaku, juga dalam urusan penghidupanku dan natijah urusanku, kini dan akan datang, maka elakkanlah ia dariku dan tetapkanlah kebaikan untukku sebagaimana sepatutnya, kemudian jadikanlah daku meredhainya." 0 comment(s)

i can feel myself getting sick.
i'm feverish. my throat hurts. and my skin is extra sensitive.
i am actually hoping i'd get sick, so that i don't have to go to work on saturday.

it's getting really boring lah work. bluergh.
if i don't need the money, i would be slacking at home.
start revamping my room. and going for driving practicals everyday.
nyeheheh.
complain only eh nuwul.

i crashed the programmers' meeting for ONSunnah last year (whahahaha).
gerek. i love learning something new.
being around knowledgeable people and listening to them is very fun.
i like, many many.

i think i'll go jog tmr. maybe join affein.
i had a total relapse two days ago. i was suppose to watch what i eat and you know, all that to bring my weight down. but yes, i had a total relapse.
should start learning from affein lah.
be more disciplined. hehe.

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FACEBOOK IS BEING SO FREAKING IRRITATING.
I HAVE TO KEEP UPLOADING THE FREAKING PICTURES.
I'VE TRIED UPLOADING THE SAME PICTURE 7 TIMES ALREADY,
AND IT'S STILL NOT UPLOADED.
GERAM NYER SAYER.

it's bad enough i have to use the simple uploader.
i have to add them one at a time, because it's just being very bitchy tonight.
urgh. geram.

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cramps cramps cramps! :(

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