PRESSURE PRESSURE PRESSURE! :( 0 comment(s)

when someone talks smack about someone dear to you, and someone you love, you can't help but feel extremely defensive.
whether you intend to or not, it's undeniable that your perception of that person change.

i hate rude behaviours.
i hate everything that revolves around that.
you deserve the respect you show to another.
and if that level of respect shown to you is not of the level you expect, you either have to validate how you carry yourself, how you treat others or ignore that person because they don't deserve your time. maybe not exactly ignore, just keep the distance.

it's better that way, isnt it?
marah marah pon, buat dosa je.
furthermore, a new research showed that anger could be deadly.

reason?
"Dr Lampert said the study suggests that anger can be deadly, at least for people who are already vulnerable to this type of electrical disturbance in the heart. 'It says yes, anger really does impact the heart's electrical system in very specific ways that can lead to sudden death,' she said."
wanna know more about it, go st.com

but seriously, rude behaviours really really really annoy me.
it's my most hated behaviour after infidelity and selfishness.
in fact, if could even be on par with selfishness in second place.

i'm getting so worked up about this. only God knows why.
ish ish ish ish. chill nuwul, chill.

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• Treat each other with kindness and respect. Disagreements may not destroy relationships. However, name-calling, put-downs, threats and other forms of abusive behavior can cause irreparable damage to a relationship.
• Be a good listener. Listening to one another’s concerns and complaints without judgment is sometimes all that is necessary. Showing empathy and acknowledging one another’s thoughts and feelings is also important.
• Express personal feelings and thoughts. This is crucial in attaining open communication in a relationship. People are not mind readers and it is also best never to assume anything. When in doubt about a particular subject or situation, discuss it in an open and honest manner.
• Work together to resolve conflicts in a positive way, such as by talking in an objective, non-accusatory manner. This can be achieved by using 'I' statements such as 'I felt hurt by what you said at the party,' instead of 'You never support me in front of other people.'
• Brainstorm solutions that are agreeable for everyone and work to solve problems as they arise. Passive-aggressive behavior that concentrates on avoiding arguments can lead to feelings of anger and resentment.
• Think before speaking. This can help one avoid saying something that may later be regretted. If necessary, take some time to calm down by leaving the situation, going for a walk or listening to soothing music.
• Actively nurture a relationship by spending time together engaging in enjoyable activities. Relationships take work and time to develop. Balance personal and work time to avoid being constantly focused on one or the other.
• Have a positive outlook. Try to find humor in people, places, situations or things. This can diffuse anger, improve mood and make life more enjoyable.
• Forgive, if possible, and do not hold grudges. Because certain things may be unforgivable to some people (e.g., infidelity, stealing), each person has to decide if that line has been crossed and the relationship is worth continuing. If it is, involved parties have to recognize that the past cannot be changed. No relationship can recover from past disappointments and mature unless both parties can find a way to let go of grudges.
• Also, apologize when mistakes are made. Willingness to make up after an argument is important if the relationship is to continue.
• Expand the support network. Building strong, positive relationships with family members and friends outside of the relationship can be an important source of support as well as diversion for everyone involved.
• Have realistic expectations for everyone. Most people have limitations on what they can accomplish, given their resources and the time available.
• Take care of personal needs. This can be accomplished by eating a healthy, well-balanced diet, getting proper exercise and rest as well as engaging in personal hobbies and pursuits. Maintaining health and taking care of personal needs is conducive to happiness, which in turn, can enrich one’s relationships.

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i was finishing up house season 5 episode 7. it was the part house was trying to strum his guitar. a mosquito landed on his hand, he decided to blow away the mosquito that has been bugging him. a mosquito have never looked as carefree as that (LOL. mosquito, carefree, right nuwul). that was a sign for him. what sign, you'll know if you watch that episode.

so anyways, as it was floating away, a flying bug, almost the size of the mosquito, maybe a bit smaller, flew past me and landed on the screen. right above the window of the movie player i was watching house.

and as i saw it, i couldn't help but smile. so odd, yet so beautiful. :)

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'Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.

So, if you give her any crap, be ready to recieve a whole load of shit.'


we, venusians are so...

giving. :B

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working 6days straight is no joke, the first time i tried, i knew i shouldn't do it ever again. but did anyways. it's fine if you sleep a whole 7 or 6 hours. but if you only get to sleep for 4 hours or 5 hours each time, you're in trouble. deep deep trouble.

right now, my body is aching, like crazy. hopefully my body won't shiver uncontrollably and my fingers won't turn blue again. just need to drink loads of warm water. :)

right now, rest is definitely something i need. and i can't wait for the end of this month. at least disappear, and probably get some rest. i can't wait to sleep under that thick comforter! X)

lucky for me, i get some form of entertainment and fun to accompany me each morning. ;)

a creature of habit. 0 comment(s)

i want the tahu goreng upstairs soooo bad.
but i'm too much of a tired lazy little girl to take the lift up to the 5th floor. so i'll just let my tummy continue rumbling and rumbling and rumbling and rumm.. ahh, you get the idea.

my aunt is so cute when she's concerned.
my facebook status: will disappear; with only some knowing where to..
she sent me a message on facebook, asking, 'disappear to where my dear??????'

hah! amek kau question marks.

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and then, i kept rereading and rereading and rereading and rea... good sign, or bad sign? URGH. 0 comment(s)

somehow, it's so hard to believe that.
maybe you know why.. 0 comment(s)

i'm waiting to feel indifferent.
i wish i could have seen a rainbow on the 44th floor too. ;b
that would probably have made me feel a million times better.
and i wish i had the rainbow in between my fingers.

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i think my former form teacher is really really bored.
she keeps on miss calling me and when i pick up, she hangs up.

OR!

it's her baby megan that's playing with her hp.

so bizzare.

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so excited about going to pastamania!
hehehe. ;D

it pays to have someone working in the halal department (or at least used to), you get the news first hand! :b 0 comment(s)

in time, i'll know what you're made of. 0 comment(s)

with zero edits. thanks oniisan for the camera! hee.
loving every snap! XD



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we were so into it, we coined a 'rap' for the whole thing.
merepek pon ade lah. tapi masok akal k!

'make your donations today,
this could be the last day,
your help will go a long way,
for their safety let's pray!'

ok fine, so i added the last verse myself.
but whatever.

in between the switch of traffic lights, we did a little busking to entertain ourselves.
i 'gendang' and she danced. hahahaha. kelakar giler!

Alhamdulillah, ouh thank you Allah. :) 0 comment(s)

panadol extra is my miracle drug.
ouh, how much easier life gets with panadol around!

maybe it's time to see the doctor.

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in line with everyone else, i had a horrible experience of witnessing a breakdown of a mother who's been embarrassed enough, and so decided to smack her daughter's behind as humanly had as possible (i think).

as we all watched that too-long a traumatising event, my eyes met with an indian man standing in the second row. his eyes filled with rage, eyes still locked with mine, he said, , 'crazy woman'.

i was veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy shocked and disturbed.
i could have cried. my heart sank to it's deepest depth. it was terrible. urgh. :(

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when the feeling's rushing over you,
you feel like you can take over the world.
nothing ever mattered, and everything was going the right way.
you see the light, at the end of the tunnel.
you hear the voice, that says everything is alright.
and you smell, sweet sweet victory.


deep down, you know He's got bigger, better plans for you. :)
difficult times only open doors to other possibilities and opportunities.
when you believe, you become. self fulfilling prophecy babe. ;) 0 comment(s)

always wondered how it'd feel like when a situation like that happened.
always wondered what my reaction would be like if a situation like that took place.
always wondered if the flesh within me could ever be strong enough.

no longer had to wonder.
in a very twisted way, i feel liberated, uplifted and extremely free.
no longer am i chained down, by all the what ifs, and could have beens.
right now, nothing is holding me back from the happiness that i deserve! :D

because.....
for every second that you are angry or sad, you've lost a moment of happiness that you can never regain.
- said a macho wise man. lol.

and hey, you only live once in this world.
ouh Allah, please give me strength and answer my prayers. :)

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so, onto even happier stories!
the family went cycling and blading today.
we bought two foldable bicycles in the morning and the rest was history.
oniisan, i'm so excited for you to ride it once you get back!
mcm basikal ali baba!








anyhoos, i feel like learning a new musical instrument.
hmmmm. apart from the recorder, triangle, tambourine - all learnt in primary school - i DO NOT know how to play any other musical instrument, decently. HAHAHAHA.
what musical instrument should i be playing? hmmmm.
maybe i should learn how to play the drums. i think drummers are very sexy. but no one can be sexier than sexy lin. hahahaha. ;D

URGH, i miss my girls! 0 comment(s)