Title: and only with indifference do you know you don't care.
Date/Time: 6:22 PM
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this is for the three girls that got killed/beheaded/hurt by their brother.
samantha revelus: acquaintance
of the strength of women in the face of 'ignorant souls.'"so what lousy wind brought you here?
what values you offer?
she's a woman, a queen, a goddess.
don't treat her like any other."
and this, is for all aged parents or grandparents that's suffering from alzheimer's disease.'my moods were pulled and pushed around like a plaything. when my mother was in a good state, i'd fear it would not last.
'when she was in a bad state, i'd fear it would get worse.'
she see-sawed between uncontrollable bouts of confused wailing and quiet moments of lucidity.
once, mr wong quizzed her on his name. she reprimanded him: 'i'm your mother. you're my son. isn't that enough?'
later, she softened and said: 'your name is in my heart. that's the most important thing. other things don't matter.'
he recalled: 'those words went straight to my heart. that was the re-emergence of my mother.'
let my prayers be with them.. :)
Title: everything perishes.
Date/Time: Sunday, March 15, 2009 // 9:38 PM
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in this world, everything is temporary.he's so independent. he'd always want to do everything on his own. trying his best to do all of his errands without anyone's help.
if anything, i'd say he's independent, strong-willed, and optimistic.
'i'm strong, i'm strong. i can do it, it's okay. let me do it. you don't have to do it.'
all this while, i believed him.
the few sentences we hear so often.
i forgot that everything we have, is borrowed.
i forgot that we are all mere beings.
i forgot that he's a man of wisdom, but especially age.
and at that brief moment, my mind went wild, Astaghfirullah.
i thought of the worst scenario possible.
thank god, someone on the other end of the line was able to calm me down.
even then, i still couldn't hold back the tears.
i don't think i have walked with so much purpose, where someone really really depended on me for something.
with recitation of Surah Yasin playing in my ear, i felt calmer and the wild thoughts started to fade into nothing.
instead, i was optimistic and hopeful.
after all that, i realise just how much i love him.
after all that, i realise just how lucky i am to be surrounded by such wonderful people.
after all that, i realise just how incredibly fragile life is.
but i am extremely grateful i could be there for him and that everything is fine now. Alhamdulillah. :)