it would be darn great if we could get all that we ask for, wouldn't it?
but in steven wright's words,
'you can't have everything, where would you put it?


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The Holy Qur'an has also guided us on this subject, it says: "If you do good, you do good to yourselves. Likewise, if you do evil, you do evil to yourselves." (17:7)
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affein is doing some spring cleaning. project A, clean up his room.
my brother is an amazing spring cleaner.
but when he's down with flu or in a sneezing frenzy,
you'll find him collapsing dramatically on the living room floor.
in an attempt to run away from the dust in his room.


it's hilarious, really.
and i coudn't stop laughing.


'nuwul, do you wanna read this?'
it was a baby-g watch catalog.
'nope. i already have a watch.'


1 minute later.
'nuwul, do you want a season's card?'
'you want to give me a christmas card?'
'yeah, you can use it. it's free.'
'you are giving me a free christmas card?'


walks away with christmas card in hand.


30 seconds later.
'nuwul, you want an envelope?'
'OMG! you are offering me an envelope?!'
'HAHAHA. i don't know which is worse. you offering me an envelope with no card, or a christmas card.'


well, at least he was trying to be thrifty and not wasteful.
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i love how i too hate saying goodbye.
i love how many million and one songs are dedicated for me.
and i love how there never seem to be an awkward moment.
a smile that could light up the whole town. :)


with the sweetest lyrics, ever.





on a different note,
colbie caillat totally murdered her own song, bubbly. LOL. 0 comment(s)

chase when i run,
seek when i hide.


oonisan,'kenape ni, pms eh? so difficult to talk to a girl.'
HAHAHAHA. that made my night. :) 0 comment(s)

a random lady commented on my bottle when i was refilling the my bottle at the pantry.
'you use a straw, drink..'
visibly surprised i said, 'oh, yeah. :)'
'oh yeah,sorry. :) i was just wondering why.'
'heh. :D'


very random, considering i had my straw in the bottle and not in a bowl of soup or something. haha.


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The Prophet (Sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said: 'Do not boycott one another, do not turn away from one another, do not hate one another and do not envy one another. Be slaves of Allah, brothers. And it is not allowed for a Muslim to avoid another for more than three days.' (al-Bukhaari, Muslim)


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while out with liy yesterday, my mom called me asking to buy myself a cake.
'nuwul,pegi prima deli,beli cake.'
buy a cake for myself?'
'iyer. kalau taknak pegi, nanti mama kluar beli. tapikan bagos boleh choose flavour sendiri.'
haha. tak pernah saye beli cake hari lahir sendiri. :b


i miss thursday yasin recitations.
being human (hehe), there were times i complaint about having them.
because that would mean we had to come home by maghrib.
but after awhile, i was on autopilot. making my plans according to the weekly recitations, not the other way around.
it kept me sane.


my abah said, 'sebenarnya abah selalu doakan anak-anak abah dan kiter sekeluarga setiap kali lepas solat. so abah tak tunggu sampai biler turn 21.'
Alhamdulillah. :)


semoga keluargaku dirahmatiMu,ya Rahman, agar menjadi keluarga yang sakinah. Amin.


thank you God, for my dad. i love him and would never want to hurt him in any way. all i wanna do, all i wish for is to make my parents proud.
happy father's day, abah. :) i will always be daddy's little girl. and i know my brothers' are jealous. HAHAHA. Xb


we don't always show them our love, but they love us anyway.
we may stomp off the room and give them a cold stare, but they care anyway.
we may not always show them gratitude for the food they bring,but they provide anyways.
to all the dad's in the world,who have have given their best to provide for their family, happy father's day (maybe advance. hehe). 0 comment(s)

just because you are able to prove someone wrong,
and explain why what you believe is different from theirs,
doesn't make you rude or disrespectful.
so why must they stomp off, blame you and then put a long face?
gheeeeeeeeeeez.


you're no longer the girl who will just keep her mouth shut even when she has a different opinion from them.
you're no longer the girl who will take in the injustice, and only hope one day someone will see things in her light.
you're no longer the girl that will avoid a conflict at any cause possible.
you now stand firm, strong and tall, not afraid to voice her inner feelings. and you won't avoid a little bit of tension, so that you can be heard, because that's what you deserve.
you have spent far too many years set aside and neglected - maybe even neglecting yourself; like an old book sitting in the shelf.


you've changed.
so others should just deal with it.


but with the quote below;

Expecting the world to treat you fairly
because you are a good person
is a little like expecting the bull not to attack you
because you are a vegetarian.
~ Dennis Wholey:

maybe you should have been the wiser.
then again, what's life without challenges to overcome? :) 0 comment(s)

kantoi!
cute sey lagu ni. :)


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not too long ago,
i was sitting under the block while it was pouring.
and i was smiling.

it's been awhile since i smiled watching the raindrops ripple into the puddle of water it's created.

i'd wait a lifetime for this moment to last.

Alhamdulillah, i've been blessed to be 21 this year.
the year where they say you've become independent, acquired freedom and is an adult.
you may think i'm a party pooper, but to me, being 21 is just like when i was 20 or 19. only thing is, people have less tolerance for the mistakes you make.
hahaha. i told you i'm a party pooper. :b

but i must say, the best part about turning 21 (like many other birthdays) is, you get to do almost anything you want. and others will wanna make you feel special. more special than other days.


you get an sms even before the big day comes. thank you oniisan. :)
you get treated to a sushi dinner. thank you jamsy.
you get woken up early in the morning, wished happy birthday and a peck on the forehead and a peck on the cheeks. thank you mama, abah and affein. :)
you get picked up in your friend's car to get to the venue for your birthday, get a wonderful surprise of how much effort they have put into making your birthday celebration special just because the day before wasn't so eventful. the hilarious personally touched 21 presents and card. thank you freddy and rashidah. (i still wanna show off my present to the whole wide world btw. hahahah.)
you get to chose your own gifts. thank you ramdan.
you get a card mailed from overseas at a faraway land. thank you yani.
you get a cake to share with your fellow birthday celebrating brothers and sisters. thank you nady family.
not to forget, the many many well wishes offered on sms, phonecalls, facebook and songs sang.
thank you nek mok, tok ayah, bik ani, tanter, uncle, kak farhanah, kak hanis, kak noorma, sai, lin, liyana, yaya, fiqah, saiful, jy, nad, miss ros, ain, sarah, jonathan, zarifah, imran, eliza, ain, diyana.
that is it so far. :)


i hope i didn't miss out any names. wah, first time sey list out semue orang nyer name. lol. life's been kind to me. thank you so very much for remembering me in your prayers. :)

happy belated birthday to me! :D
Alhamdulillah. ya Allah, pelihara semua perilakuku. Amin. 0 comment(s)

how is it that in less than 20 hours, so many things could happen.
one after another, they came crumbling down.
like falling bricks, hitting the ground. loud and hard.
commanding attention from everyone.


it wasn't something foreign.
it wasn't something unheard of.
it was something absolutely common.
just not common enough for you to think it could happen to you.


what's important now is for someone (or many as it seems) to say,
"i'll be here when your world starts to fall"


'no one is given more than they can bear.' :)
ya Allah, kurniakan mereka kekuatan agar mereka tetap teguh dan dapat mereka tanggung cobaan yang telah diberi. semoga ini dapat menjadikan iktibar bagiku. Amin. 0 comment(s)

i've changed.
someone said i've changed. someone could see the change in me.
in a weird calming way, i was glad someone have seen the change in me.
so it wasn't just a guess.


i miss the feeling, when being thrown into any situation, still confident i can survive.
i miss doing something just because i wanted to. i'm spontaneous like that!
now, sometimes i think i think too much, trying to predict how things will go if i do something a certain way, and not the other. i weigh them.
occasionally too much.


and then i asked, 'tak boleh ke nuwul ikut naluri hati,semacam dulu?'
now, change me back. 0 comment(s)

I WANT TO GO SWIMMING!!!
*sigh.


nak burkini laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. 0 comment(s)

have you ever wondered what it'd feel like if the doctor told you,
you could not be helped?
they've tried everything they could, but there is nothing more they could do but just one.
that is to give up.


'she can go home tomorrow. there isn't much that we can do for her here.
if something were to happen, like an emergency, don't bring her to the hospital.
there is nothing we can do.'


it gave me goosebumps even typing that down.
life is so fragile.
i never knew i could know someone with cancer so terminal, it resulted to the doctor actually 'washing their hands off her'. sounds mean and terrible, but isn't that what those words really is? the words so blunt and crude.


i'm not even close to her. but it's affected me in several ways nonetheless.
one can only imagine what it's like.


you're falling into a dark hole,
and there is no one who can help you out,
you are trapped.
and there is only one way to go from here.
that's to embrace what comes next,
after you shut your eyes for the very last time.


and i'd appreciate it so very much if we could spend just a fraction of our time to pray for them. :)

oh Allah, please lighten their hardship and grant them strength and patience to go through this trying phase in their life. Amin.

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bob the blob. sighhh. he's such a cute monster. :)
if only i was that green jell-o. HAHA. 0 comment(s)