i just finished watching a wedding video of a relative's.
i'm so excited for oniisan's wedding now!
hahaha. even more so than before.

i bet i'll be super tired with all the guests and walking around, doing last minute errands (these things always happen, confirm!).

after the solemnization, it's customary to salam your parents and the in laws.
almost all the wedding videos and 'live' ones i have witnessed,
the mother (sometimes the father) and child always end up crying.

i was watching that just now too.
and i wanted to tear.
to be sort of separated from your parents. now being with another man/woman you've met a few years before.

macam... ish sedih kan!
terharu pon ade.
like for all the things your mother and father have done for you.
and then you get kidnapped by some guy/woman. :X
hahahaha.

by the end of this year, oniisan will get kidnapped.
then next year, around the same month, affein pulak will get kidnapped.
haiya. so sad.
and then it'll be only mama, abah and i.
lonely nyer!


but exciting jugak.
can't wait for beautiful nieces, and handsome nephews.
then i can cubit their tembam pipi, and gigit their supple buttocks.
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i have only four.5 hours to sleep.
tmr will be a loooooong day.

short coversations ain't too bad.
now wait for 11 days ok? boohoo.

in the meantime, let's be a good student and start learning those anatomical jargons i find difficult to recall.
me memorising? have never been good at it.

'tell me and i'll forget.
show me and i may remember
teach me and i'll understand.'

my good friend JY (don't think you've ever heard of her. haha.)no longer taking lessons with me. so sad.
but it's nice seeing familiar faces from RP taking the same mod as me. :)


that's all for the random update, time for sleep!
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R: haha. i heard your other 'bf' is single again.. :b
me: errr, who is my other 'bf'? lol.
R: lewis hamilton.

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with my eyes closed, one hand holding my hair and another clenched,
my thoughts screamed,
'la hawla wala kuwwata illah billah-hil'aliyil'azim'
'ya Allah, tolong lah aku ya Allah!'

i depended on no one but Him.
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yesterday was a wonderful day out.. :D
me likey likey. a lot a lot a lot.
hahah. :D

BUT
yesterday wasn't the best baju raya shopping i've had!

please remind me to never buy baju raya under the influence of fatigue, ready-to-get-it-done-and-over-with attitude and anyone but myself. oh, and also, no kanchiong spider-ness please. be more picky and more critical. for something that costs a bomb, i deserve to be picky and critical! >:(

so the story's like this.
i saw a beautiful piece for our first day. the shade of purple my dad picked out this year can make any sane person go mad. IT'S SO DIFFICULT TO FIND THAT COLOUR. so because of that reason (and of course the fatigue i've accumulated the past two days), i wanted to just get that baju, but especially get it done and over with. (YAY spirit for raya. haha. -.-) but it was a nice baju.

me, 'kak. do you have this baju in size S'
kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'ni pattern eh?'
me, 'ah. pattern ni. size S'
kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'jap eh.. *asks a friend* ni ader size S tak?'
me, '*thinks to self. eh, kenape kene tanyer kawan dier. hmmm credibility decreased*
kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'jap eh saya check.'
me, ' okay..*you better! LOL.*'
kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, '*looks at the size the patung was wearing* *checks drawer* ini size takde colour purple, tapi ader colour ni. pucuk pisang.'
me, 'but i dont want this colour. i want purple colour.'
kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'k jap eh, i check inside.'
me, 'okay, thanks. *shouldn't you have done that long time ago? hmmm. credibility decreasing more*'
kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'a ah la. this is the last piece. do you still want it? you can go for alterations. at the kedai sebelah.'
me, 'how much is the alterations?'
kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'it depends la. that one need to check. only baju that is above $150 will not need any payment for alterations.'
me, 'okla, kalau gitu takpe la.'
kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'so you nak ni tak?'
me, 'i need to know how much the alteration will cost first.'
kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'jap eh. i ask will find out for you. *comes back* it costs $12'
me, 'hmmm. takpe la nvm. it's okay. i'll just look around first. thanks.'

DAH GET READY NAK JEJAKKAN KAKI KELUAR DARI TEMPAT ITU. I DON'T KNOW WHAT PULLED ME BACK.
prossibly after calculating the probability of finding THE VERY DIFFICULT SHADE OF PURPLE again would be very slim. and don't forget the fatigue. haha.

so i went back. and said. okla. can.
the kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, straight away packed away the baju that i wanted, and the kain songket i was planning to get. i was contemplating over white and purple. at first i wanted white, and after hearing others' opinion that purple would suit it better, i decided to make purple my choice. bad decision, and extremely lame.
ok, it won't have been so bad if the purple was actually the purple i saw the patung wear.
it was of a different shade. more of pinky2 and with gold benang.
the kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, didnt even tell me it was a different shade. she memandai je pack it and DIDN'T TELL ME!!!!
lucky my eye caught the difference.

me, 'can i have a change of sarong? this is more pinky that the one the patong is wearing. and the benang is not silver, this is more gold gold.'
another kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'that one is the last piece and it's damaged. but this one looks really nice also.'
the original kakak kurang kerajinan dan ketulusan, 'a ah this is nice, it suits the baju also.'
me, 'really? *eh eh kakak ni. dah tak bilang aku the colour tukar, nak menyampuk pulak ni ape crite.*'
AND THEN SOMETHING POSSESSED ME TO GO ALONG WITH THEIR SLY WAYS (LOL) IN GETTING ME BUY THE SARONG.
but when i was looking at it, it didn't look cacat or anything. just that it would have been best suited with that silver thread sarong. BUT STILL!!!


i was the sulkiest woman after that.
and then i started blaming fy for not stopping me.
a statement in a questioning tone, is not a comment.
it's a question. HAHAHA. :b

i know how very full of comment he can be, but i don't know why, that time he only decided to question. :b

tak baik sey kakak-kakak tu.
so dishonest. how do you expect baraqah if you do business in a dishonest, lazy way, only concerned about your shop's profits and not your customers welfare? cannot like that la. :(

plus, after paying and going for the unfriendly nyonya's shop to do my alterations, i felt so risau, worried.
worried that the alteration will not look nice. and make me look terrible. :(
alah, i think i feel so risau also because i was so kelam kabut. i was in such a hurry. *entah siape entah kejar aku*
buat keje kelam kabut kan perkara syaitan. :(
on bulan Ramadhan lagi..
*sighhhhh

'ahhh, then next time you will remember..'
no kidding.

lucky my dearest mother have suggested/agreed to accompany me go that shop and ask for a change of sarong.
i hope it can be done. i have the receipt and everything.
i brought my bona fide hero and one whole battalion, i really really hope it works!
please Allah. please please please.. *prays very very very hard.
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