him: what flowers do you want?
me: i don't know.. i won't tell you.
him: cauliflower? how about cauliflower? i'll give you cauliflower!
me: -.-


this boy drives me crazy!!
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i'm sleepy.
but i wanna watch priviledge.

today out with the besties was lovely. :) 0 comment(s)

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

but keeping my faith and realising that God will always be by my side, i can always depend on Him, and He'll never fail me makes me feel somewhat better. 0 comment(s)

mtv is known for good music.
mtv is known for people wearing too revealing clothes, have too sexy moves and speak too coarse a languange.

but it's real.
i'm sure not everyone wears that, act like that and talk like that.
but not everyone wears not too revealing clothes, are more mannered and are less vulgar either.
my point is, it is real.

the reason why i love mtv's website is because i get to see the 'real world', or rather the other side of the 'real world'.
and that side intrigues me, very much.

gone too far, episodes done by dj am to help drug addicts, is very touching. most of what's shown are so raw and real. to a point that it scares me.

i've cried watching that show.

they say recovering addicts find it difficult to get away from their bad habits. the show depicts nothing less.

after awhile, you realise that there's a lot of people who get consumed in such a lifestyle (if we could call it that). most of them had 'role models' do the exact same thing they are doing now.

evidently it's a cycle that's not easy to break. what else can you do when all they've known all their life was that? that's all they ever see.

it breaks my heart.

if you have time, and need something to help you realise how blessed you are to have all that you have in your life, no matter how screwed up it can be sometimes, watch the show.

it's inspirational.
it's always the true stories that's the most inspirational.
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'cobaan kepala hotak kau!'



'eh ape punyer laki! pasal belacan pon kau nak pancong dia ke?!'

HAHAHAHAHAHA, so funny la.
each youtube part had hilarious bits!
LOVE P RAMLEE'S COMEDY MOVIES!
they never get old. :) 0 comment(s)

but he's of a different species..

1. sometimes he knows what i'm thinking!
- and subtle hints do work! :b

9. URGH. -.-

11. that explains a lot..

15. not in my case.. i'll always be asked again and again, until i REALLY spill the beans. but i like it like that. opening up can be a toughy for me. :)

19 and 20. i bet he agrees! :X

ok, i'm off to ngaji! LATER~ 0 comment(s)

the exams are over.
and i'm over. like game over.
i am praying for a miracle right now.
because the paper was a killer.
it stabbed me in the chest 7 times, twisted it 5 times while still stuck to my chest, and then moved on to my abdomen to carve the words 'OVER'

i.need.to.do.more.readings.

i learnt more than just human bio for this module.
i think i am finally getting the idea of how it is to be an undergraduate.
it is no easy task.
no play, just work.

i was having doubts about leaving ST for awhile.
but i no longer am.
not after yesterday.

moving on from ST give me more time to do more readings and research - concentrate on my studies.
i have no excuses to do badly now.
and if i don't do more reading after leaving ST,
i ought to be shot dead. seriously.

not to mention i got locked out of my house after my exams yesterday cos one of my keys magically got detached from the key ring.
i was out there waiting for 1HOUR40MINS.
it was not even funny.

azam baruku





*swooning.

today was a good cheering up for me. :)
there's this boy.
he's remained anonymous for awhile, cos i'm mysterious like that.
until now i guess. the first post with a picture, ever.
like i said,
i'm mysterious like that.
until now. :b

besides, almost everyone who reads my blog, they all know who he is. some has met him even. so really, is there a need for introductions? haha. :b

anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaays.
the beach is always a nice place to just relax and unwind, yes?
homecooked meals, me likey likey. :)
rollerblading, super nice.. (although we both got sakit-sakit kaki afterwards. haha.)
weather, breezy and sunny. just how it should be at the beach.
and then 2012. OMG. it was so amazing! the movie was incredibly awesome.
macam teringat titanic, macam teringat the day after tomorrow.
very scary, and extremely sad. :'(


haha, time for sleep! working tmr. :) 0 comment(s)

sitting in front of the laptop with a cup of hot milo in my hand
makes studying all more pleasureable.
oh the simple pleasures of life.. :)

can't wait for the exams to be over! 0 comment(s)

I GET TO STUDY MONKEYS, LORISES, TARSIERS, LEMURS FOR THIS MODULE!
:D
we all know how much i love animals.
each lesson, i wish i could look through more primate pictures!
when our lecturer turn to the next slide with a different monkey,
no one gets tired from saying awwwwww.

at 130am, i am suddenly less sleepy. hehe.
saving this for last was a great decision after all.
wish me luck for my practical exam tomorrow! :)

marveling at the Creator's creations brings joy to my heart and peace to my soul. :) 0 comment(s)

i love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
i love you straightforwardly without complexities of pride.
i love you because i know no other way than this.
so close that your hand, on my chest is my hand.
so close, that when you close your eyes i fall asleep.

- patch adams.

:)

ok, time to continue mugging!
please allow your kind souls to pray for me. hehe. :D 0 comment(s)

staying up late would probably be a good thing tonight.
doesn't matter that i am going to be going to school in the morning tomorrow,
then to science centre for bodyworld (!!!) after.
all in the name of knowledge.

it's time for the sprint.
work it baby.
HA-HA-HA.

who loves chicken pie?! huhuhu.
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the dynamics are different,
some parts are really amazing,
but most parts.. i just can't wait to get home and..
CABOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT.

call it whatever you want, but this is me moving on.
moving on to somewhere else,
somewhere better.
more peaceful,
more tranquil,
more serene,
insyaAllah.
cos that is all i ask for.

peace, tranquility and happiness.
isn't that what we essentially need and want?

'never get hurt when God takes something off your hands, it's sure that He is leaving you empty handed to receive something better' ♥

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i was left at home with only oonisan tonight. we were minding our business, watching devil wears prada and waiting for our mcdelivery meals, when i got a phone call.

it was affein.

affein: nurul, nurul pat rumah kan.. affein sekarang pat belakang aje. pat carpark.
me: oh ok, buat ape ade pat sini?
affein: tadi affein dapat call. nurul boleh tolong affein tk?
me: boleh, what's up?
affein radio came on; what sounded like an apek was talking to him over the radio.. 'sth sth over' he said.
affein: *we are still at the rear, we are still at the rear over*
(cool jugak abang aku. hahaha. :b)
affein: can you help me look at the eigth floor of our block and see if there is someone trying to jump down?
me: WHAT!? NO! ALAMAK SERAM NYER!
affein: affein ade pat belakang, but i cant see. can you help me see.
me: (putting away the fear and bad memories) okay. (peering through the curtains) nope, there's no one there.
affein: betol?
me: yup takde orang.
affein: ok thanks. affein dah nak pegi skrg.
me: okay bye.

not wanting to experience it alone, i kept screaming , 'abang cepat cepat! you have to see this. affein is here!'

we both climbed up the bed and looked down the window.
after being a fire fighter for so long, we finally saw affein at work.

it was cool. he seemed so purposeful.

aren't i glad i was sharing it with oonisan.

oonisan: where is he? do you know which one he is?
me: no, they all look the same.

they were wearing the same uniform. and didn't help that it was dark. heh.

and then one of them looked up and waved at us.
we knew then, that was our brother.
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it almost feels wrong for sitting on my bum right now.
it's like a drug.
once i start, i feel bad for stopping! 0 comment(s)

many times, you attempt to put forth a gesture, considerably nice,
but then you get turned down.
it gets put off, for reasons you're not quite willing to accept.

but that's exactly it, really.
that's basically how things work around here in this world.
you try, you get turned down.
you try, you get pushed away.
you feel defeated, time and time again.

hasn't it been made clear to us that life on earth will never be perfect?
we won't always have things the way we deem best for us.
why then should we be so surprised or shocked, or overly disappointed when one thing don't work out?
haven't we learnt already?

i guess it's the hope we hold on so tightly and dearly.
hope gives us optimism and hope gives up reason to wake up in the morning,
look forward to the next day.

i say hope is vital.
it can crush you sometimes, but it keeps you alive.
i'm all for hope.
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